30 March 2007
okk.dis is gonna b a very emo post.since ive like so many emotions goin thru me now.i really wanna break down n cry ... i already mlife totally sux lah.ull nv understand wad im goin thru.U NV WILL.juz leave me alone will u.y did ive 2 cm 2 dis world.y.ok.juz 4gt it.tried 2 gt my emotions outta by playin e piano like i always do.ended up cryin instead i love my piano.i so love it more den my guitar.haiz.mayb i juz dun hv e passion 4 guitar.juz hope my passion 4 piano will nv die ... well.playin e piano kinda helped me calm down n all.okk.enuff abt me emo-in n all ... my results so far ...math - e paper dat coz so much commotion ... i juz passed.yes.no doubt my math sux like shit.dunnoe how i even gt thru dsa.y do i hv 2 take part in stupid competitions wen my math is shit.ok wadeva.had counsellin session again.hai.i always seem 2 hv counsellin sessions.i give up.history - quite okk lah.3.2 i tink.was juz hopin 2 pass aniwaes.mep - history.3.6.harmony.4.0.rather satisfied.aiya.i always hv high hopes in my mep.so ya.it seems 2 b e only consistent sub of mine.hope i xcel in it.I LOVE MUSIC.chinese - was rather surprised.4.0.coz i was like rushin at e end.yay.teacher said my paper always no cuo bie zi wan.haha.hope it stays dat wae.used 2 b my best sub in pri sch.okk.so dats all e marks i noe so far.quite happy lah.thanks zhenling 4 persuadin me 2 study (: sadly nt sittin nxt 2 u animore le.haha.abt 2dae ...i was damn sleepy.so i slept in e bus.reached sch sleep again.thanks jiayi 4 wakin me up 4 mornin assembly or else i wuld hv been late.chem.last lesson.no more chem le 4 e rest of e yr.i dunnoe whether 2 rejoice or wad.but ya.i kinda disliked chem at first.e teacher was so borin.dat i slept every lesson.but e relief teachers kinda nice.so i started 2 like chem.i even studied 4 e test.haha.zhenling n i were crappin away.math.i was practically fallin asleep.ya.nt dat shes borin.but ya.my mind was juz smwhere else.philo was okk.thanks huiying 4 tryin 2 cheer me up (: apparently i wasnt concentratin again.history.was makin quite alot of noise.lol.okk.i tink e teacher gt rather pissed.was fallin asleep durin e video.assembly.as borin.was sleepin as well.okk.so dat was abt it.went back 2 class 2 do math further prac since i didnt wanna brin back e txtbk.5 questions only mah.so went wif renci 2 popular 2 gt stuff 4 103'06.zhenling came along.haha.okk.we spent like 1/2hr dere.so long lahh.den zhenling n i haven eaten our lunch.so we went 2 eat.while renci went 2 take her bag n meet us in e canteen.zhenling n i were eatin like totally diff things.zhenling - rice wif egg n veg. me - oheya.polar snack.cola sweet.marshmallow.ok.i noe im weird.but i was juz cravin 4 sweet snacks wadd.so went hm wif zhenling.renci.zhenling took bus back since she didnt wanna walk an entire canal.lol.renci took 2 orchard.i stopped at far east.saw cheryl.haha.went 2 chamelon 2 gt hairties.okk.go hm le.i was so illegal lohh.low socks.belt.red n pink hairtie.hairband on neck.blah blah blah.juz felt like bein illegal.i guai 4 very long le loh.den omg.saw a pit.luckily i dashed into e mrt fast enuff.so she didnt notice my hairtie.it was like so strikin.so heng loh.den went back hm le loh.ya.every1 says im nice 2 bully.gullible etc.dun go overboard can.ya.i can control my anger rather well accordin 2 zhenling.haha.but smtimes ur really go overboard lah.r ur dat insensitive dat u cant see im bleedin inside.ok wadeva.i dun give a damn.SPECIAL THANKS to ...;HUIYING - 4 always cheerin me up n bein dere 4 me although smtimes i piss u off unintentionally ;ZHENLING - 4 always givin me encouragement 2 do e impossible n listenin 2 me crap n distract u durin lessons;KELLY - 4 always analysin stuff 4 me n helpin me see stuff frm diff perspectives; PEOPLE WHO CHEERED ME UP 4 MATH TEST ; PEOPLE WHO R ALWAYS SO CONCERNED ABT ME; PEOPLE WHO HV ALWAYS BEIN DERE 4 METHANK YOU!! (:
i shall juz blast my music n cry myself 2 sleep ...
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#shattered to pieces#
10:58 PM; iloveu Y
21 March 2007
hai.dunnoe y lohh.dis few daes.like will suddenly feel giddy.den everythin around me starts spinnin.hai.mayb its due 2 lack of sleep lah.had 4hrs of sleep again ytd.read 7 chaps of TKMB.yayy.im left wif 9 chaps :D sense of achievement!!haha.okk.crap.woke up kinda late.i didnt wanna go 2 sch lah.ok.so mum dropped me at j8 den was juz in time.but den stupid lah.cannot find my class.haha.me.ser gin.varsha.huiying.yun shu.were all late tgt.lol.my grp so cute lahh.always digressin.renci.varsha.angela.rebecca.haha.nice nice grp.we were like all fallin asleep.omg.how i wish dere was really such thing as a mp3 ear stud lahh.lol.ok.in my dreams.rs was totally borin lah.i fell asleep a couple of times.only 2 wake up seein ppl laughin at me.haha (: finally it ended mann.ate lunch at kfc.4 once i wasnt last.yayy.so rare lohh.ok aniwaes.changed den ya.set off 4 orchard.went 2 taka.took pics.haha.lazy 2 blog all out.but ya.okk.e dae was rather fun.hangin out wif my grp XD yayy.zhenling.manee.kangjie.huiying.priya.u all rawk man!!teacher didnt call.4 once lahh.last yr dey called like siao.went 2 heeren 2 do grp reflection n assignin of tasks.so kinda finished at 3.haha.yayy.so zhenling was waitin 4 qiqi.den i pei huiying go buy prezzie.kangjie.priya.manee went hm.haha.so ya lohh.shopped.wahh.i didnt buy anithin lah.damn broke le.hai.i shuld really stop goin shoppin man.ok.aniwaes.ya loh.den after dat go hm le.slacked lah.had no mood 2 prack piano.hai.ate dinner.den hurry pracked 4 15 mins.I LOVE MENDELSSOHN!SONG W/O WORDS!!! only piece wich i can play wif xpression.n w/o really prackin still can pass.but really nid 2 work on my xpression if i use it 4 exam.haha.still gt CHOPIN n HAYDN pieces 2 prack.JS BACH n CZERNY can wait.haha.yayy.music rawks mann.I LOVE MUSIC!!! XD seriously lah.w/o music.i wonder how ill even survive.okk.dats abt it.shall continue on my TKMB :Dthanks 4 makin my dae (:#wonderful crazy#
11:07 PM; iloveu Y
20 March 2007
only had like 4hrs of sleep.haha.nice mummy sent me 2 e mrt station sayin wad so early in e mornin very dangerous 2 take bus blah blah blah.haha.mrt kinda crowded lah.so sleepy.fell asleep while standin.lol.omg.orchard rd is so kool in e mornin lahh.a totally diff side of orchard.yupp.so reached sch juz in time.omg.i was like so blur.i walked right into sch wif wen i was still listenin 2 my music.my nametag wasnt on.blah blah blah.damn illegal jiu dui le.haha.den e 2 ppl bhind me kinda stared at me.ya.i realised.dumb lah.luckily no pits.prefects.heng ah.did math pt.hai.stupid me did e wrong thing.sorry.ok.went 4 history thingy.talk in ks chee.omg.so nice lahh.but dumb.muz skip 1/2 4 stupid guitar.wth.i was cursin e guitar teacher like siao.haha.okk.so it was ya.sad.WWII mahh.reminded me of sngs again.haha.my grp dat did e skit on WWII.hai.miss u all loads.yupp.ok.it was interestin mann.super kool.hai.sadd dat i missed e rest ): so wanna go 4 it lahh.e japs were damn cruel lah.okk.enuff abt dem.shall upload pics nxt time.so went 2 old ford factory.bukit chandu.didnt go 2 changi museum.kranji war cemetery.ate lunch at macs at harbourfront center.haha.kinda bcm siao 1/2 wae.renci n i were laughin at each others laughter.kelly was like.'did i miss smth?' lol.den left wif zhenling n priya 2 vivo :D wahhh.1st time zhenling say.we shall go shoppin b4 goin back 2 sch.yayy.so we went 2 candy empire.haha.walk abit.took train back.dhoby ghaut mrt so kool lah.i mean dose metal seats.we were playin on it lah.zhenling said she felt like she had an oily butt.kept slidin off it.so fun lohh.ok im siao.went 2 orchard.zhenling bought bubble tea den went back 2 sch le.she nided 2 sleep in pb rm.but den wenyan was dere.haha.so in e end she didnt gt 2 sleep.me n priya shopped at far east.bought 4 pairs of earrins n a belt.seriously im goin broke lah.haha.after persuadin priya 4 so long.she decided 2 gt a pair of earrins too.yayy.saw our seniors in far east.haha.went back 2 sch early 4 once.pracked abit of guitar.tuned our guitars.changed into our guitar shirts.so nice lahh.haha.den boarded e bus 2 singapore conference hall.i fell asleep again.lol.reached le.saw sngs strings dere.haha.sm sec 2s kinda recognised me.haha.i recognised dem too.okk.so practised walkin in n out.all dat stuff.wahh.e teacher actually fell off e stage.lol.slight trip lah.haha.sorry but ya.i was kinda pissed wif her.aniwaes.my playin 2dae sucked like shit.all notes wrong lahh.seniors all so pro.hai.nid 2 learn new part again.man.hope i can do it.haha.finally can leave le.ok.i was seriously tired.saw nyh strings.lol.i dunnoe ani1 frm dere.haha.walked wif magdalene 2 mrt.took diff ways though.so ya loh.den go hm le loh.hai.shall try 2 read abit of TKMB b4 i sleep or ill really die mann.ok.dats abt it.stop bein such a hyprocrite.mayb u shuld really judge urself b4 u even judge others.bloody hell.backstabber.#its over#
10:21 PM; iloveu Y
19 March 2007
ok.i was super pissed in e mornin.i was woken up by smses.calls.alarms.hai.ok dat wasnt really bad.nided e camera.batteries were nt charged.i culd find e charger but nt e batteries.damn.was searchin 4 e rechargable batteries like siao.still cannot find.give up.realised my name tag was missin.seached high n low 4 it.it was in my dumb bag.wah lao.how worst culd my dae b mann.bathed.den was stringin my shoe.deletin photos (i found other batts in e end) n eatin my breakfast.okk.at least things turned out right.left house at 1110.nt bad lehh.normally i leave 1/2hr early lah.dis time its 1h 10mins early.lol.wahh.den leave house.missed 265.hai.waited so long 4 e nxt 1.okk.boarded e bus.den after dat.i was e only 1 left in e bus wif 3 other busdrivers.lol.e 1 sittin opp. me started talkin 2 me.e convo was in chi.busdriver: now schtime ah?me:ya.but coz dis week special.so start later.busdriver: ohh.where u gettin off?me:erm.here.busdriver:heyy.she gettin off at dis stopp.me:haha.thanks.busdriver:(smiled) bye.me:bye.lol.weird.den afterdat.wahh lao.missed e train.had 2 wait 8 mins 4 e nxt 1.hai.looks like my hopes of goin shoppin was dashed.okk.so dropped by far east 2 bcm legal again.if u noe wad i mean X) den went 2 sch.ying hui was on e same bus as me but we both din noe lahh.lol.until we gt off.we were like.'eh?u were on dat bus ahh.'hahaha.ok so walked tgt 2 e foyer.so many ppl dere liao.yupp.den after a while boarded e bus le.e journey was okok.reached e port.harbour.wadeva.haha.i wasnt really payin attention.den took a boat thingy 2 kusu island.it was quite interestin lahh.haha.i dun gt seasick de :D huiying was gonna puke mann.e boat/ferry haha was like so diff frm wad i xpected.ull noe wen i upload e photos.haha.yupp.okok.so went 2 kusu island.had dis project thingy.supposed 2 make an egg cushion wif e given materials such dat wen e egg is dropped frm a height.it wuld nt crack.wahh.like every grp also same de lohh.lol.den we had time 2 walk around.so cool lahh.omg.i love beaches mann XD started drizzlin.den saw dis wishin well thingy.if u made a wish.threw a coin into a flower well.if e coin managed 2 hit either of e 3 bells.ur wish wuld cm true (: yayy.mine did XD haha.claudias too!poor kelly tried 3 times.huiying tried twice.kangjies 1 was funny.rolled out.den kexins 1 rolled around.haha.cool mann.after dat was kinda happy.haha.took pics.shall upload sm other time.yupp.den after dat go back le.we gt 2 xplore e boat.yayy.went wif kelly 2 e top dere.den she was like imagin-in titanic dat kinda thing.hahaha.like a couple sit at e tip of e ship.lol.e wind totally rawks mann.love e sea.so glittery.reminds me of my nick last time.'sparklin crystal diamond stones' lol.took e bus back 2 schh.kelly was tellin me abt her bro.haha.so cute lahh.gt a hp.den kinda washed it.den aired it.n lost e keypad in e end.haha.shes still wonderin wad hp 2 gt.lol.okk.reached sch.went 2 far east wif kelly.qiqi.zhenling.joy :D qiqi n joy shared fried mars bars.zhenling bought sm hans cake.haha.kelly n me went 2 bk.saw dis couple camwhorin at e other end.lol.kelly was like.'u shuld hv seen deir poses man.'haha.den zhenling.qiqi.joy came over.chatted wif us 4 a while.den qiqi n joy left.zhenling bought a packet of onion rings n sat wif us (: wahh.she finish her onion rings le.i was still at my burger.ok.im damn slow.haha.den dey were talkin abt how slow i eat lohh.nxt time gt bf how.so funny lahhh.suddenly ...zhenling:ehh.gt sm guy starin at grace.kelly:(looks)(starts gigglin)me:wad?!?! (turns around) OMG.dat guy was like FREAKY.ok.sm old guy laughin away.freaks man.y i so dao mei de.keep meetin siao siao ppl.den zhenling left le.kelly was kinda observin e guyz movements.wahh lao.sick lahh.keep starin at us den laugh laugh laugh.after dat.he started 2 DIG his nose.as in really really DIG.kelly was like.'LOOK!!!HURRY!!!TURN AROUND!!!HURRY!!!' lol lahh.omg.it was so freakin gross.he was really really goin in mann.SICK.SICK.he wuld DIG.den ANALYSE it.n FLICK it away.thank goodness he didnt eat it like sm ppl.hahaha.but ya lohh.kelly was like describin it all 2 me.i culnt even eat properly lahh.damn disgusted.after dat he left.he actually used his fist 2 push e door open lahh.lol.kelly started 2 copy his actions.lol.damn funny.so soon we left also lohh.din really feel like eatin fried mars bars.haha.so din eat in e end.kelly tried 2 push e door open wif her fist too.hahaha.ok.took 132 back.sadd.nt double decker lohh.but din want 2 wait animore.too late le.sat right at e back.my first time le.feels weird.so low wan e chair.haha.kelly say gt alot of ppl.so cannot talk loudly.took my hp n started typin wad she wanted 2 say as a sms on my hp.haha.i lazy 2 type.so juz talked.den she wuld type.funny lah she.den i missed 265 again lahh.wahh lao.hai.waited so damn long 4 e nxt 1.okk.so ate my dinner at like 1030 since i was so full.chionged math pt.yupp.wahh.tmr muz wake up at 530 man.my 1st try at takin public transport 2 sch early in e mornin.haha.hope i wun b late mann.yupp.very tired lohh.hai.muz go 4 guitar smmore.stupid guitar.make us cm back durin hist.damn.ok.wadeva.shall go find my circulars.haha.l8ter 4 gt 2 brin again.hai.hope it will b fun tmr (: is it like ever gonna b over.y muz it always b like dat lahh.pri sch like dat.sec sch also like dat.wahh lao.gt a life lahh.ok.wadeva.ive no right 2 judge aniwae.supposed 2 judge urself b4 a person rite.haha.okk.dats it.im washin my hands off it man.dun blame me.it sux.sorry.haha.everytime i blog hor.my mood very funny de lah.a while happy.a while sad.lol.me n my crazy mood swings.sorry ppl.but dats me XD ohh.ya.sorry 4 makin ppl worry abt me.but im ok lah.juz abit emo at times.yup.dun mind me :D haha.kelly says i shuld smile more.coz deres a super big diff btween me smilin n nt.haha.okk.mayb e diff is dat big but.smile or nt also muz kan mood de mahh.shall TRY 2 SMILE MORE OFTEN (: haha.wahh.i look like jap as well as american.americo-jap!!lol X)#light of my life#
11:13 PM; iloveu Y
dis is gonna b a super long post (:sat ...talked 2 kelly until 5.30 in e mornin.wahhh.our longest convo ever mann.haha.ok.so was super sleepy e nxt dae.went 4 rs at jurong east library.supposed 2 meet at 3.mabel was like dere at 2.lol.ok.i was a few mins late.haha.yu jin came at 350.haha.kelly culdnt make it.yu jin was kinda sick.poor thing.GET WELL SOON! (: haha.nice mabel gave us coca-cola lollipops.yayy.ok.so kinda started on our project.dere was dis rock band in e library lahh.mabel say frm NUS de.but aniwaes.it was quite nice lah.since i like loud music.haha.but dey didnt.lol.ok.so mabel n i kinda finished e proposal.den yu jin came.she read it.apparently we typed it on e hp.was like 4 smses long.haha.mabel:can go hm le.yujin.me:HUH?!?!yujin:den i cm 4 wad??me:wahh.so short ahh.mabel:ur wanna go hm or go guang guang?me:did i hear wrongly?1st time lehhh.so rare mann.lol.so we went out lohhh.went 2 jurong point 1st.haha.dey gt me my belated bdae prezzie.thanks!! :D mabel gt oreo mcflurry.i still like e M&M 1 better.so we went 2 IMM.we were like talkin real loudly.so kinda attracted alot of unwanted attention.haha.yu jin was observin all e babies n goin.SO CUTE!!!lol.so we joked alot.blah blah.at IMM.i went 2 gt large fries.den after dat so full.mabel n yujin were shoppin 4 bdae prezzies at mini toons.so i kinda wandered off.haha.ya.went n bought a pair of earrins.after gettin so many big 1s.im tryin 2 gt small 1s now.variety mahh X) okk.so soon after.took bus back wif yujin.she was tryin 2 fix her thumbdrive wich kinda gt loose wen she dropped it.reached jurong east mrt.went 2 aries 2 gt sm rubber bands.yayy.ok.den after dat go hm lohh.was at yck mrt station waitin 4 parents.saw kelly!! :D haven seen her in like ages.my nice nice fren is pri sch.haha.yayy.we both stared at each other.wif e same thought goin thru our minds.'isnt she ...' lol.yupp.recognised each other.didnt really talk coz she was on e hp.but she said bye 2 me (: haha.den waited 4 so long.called n smsed my parents.no reply.so went back myself.den at my doorstep.mum called n said she was waitin dere.hai.gt a bit of scoldin in e end 4 bein so blur.okk.so dat was kinda e end of sat (: haha.sun ...nth really happened lahh.okk.went 2 church.den gave out e prizes.haha.i finally noe ur name (: ok.aniwaes.den durin lesson.haha.kept talkin 2 tirzah.we were like talkin abt where we stay.smsin.lol.den e teacher kept tellin us 2 keep quiet.i was already daydreamin.kinda sleepy mahh.den e teacher asked me question.i was like.huh.babbled crap.den e teacher had e confused look.she moved on.me:ehh.wad was e question?!?!tirzah:haha.i also 4gt le.me:haiz.i was daydreamin lohh.tirzah:abt bf ahh.me:-.- no.haha.okk.class kinda ended late.coz like other classes all finish le.dere u were.so near yet so far.tirzah wanted 2 play my new hp.no time le.so told her nxt week lohh.haha.okk.so dats abt it 4 church.went 4 lunch at sm jap restaurant.sushi!!yay.my fav salmon n soft shell crab :D but e sad thing was dat i was havin gastric.hai.ive been skippin breakfast wad.so dere my mum was tellin me abt my irregular meals n gastric.blah blah blah.basically i wasnt listenin.haha.but kinda managed 2 finish my lunch.haha.it was rather nice though.but wuld hv enjoyed it much better if nt 4 my stomachache.went hm.i went 2 sleep.haha.den read abit of TKMB.watched tv.used com.basically slacked lahh.sad.hols over juz like dat ): mann.sch sux.but learnin journey isnt dat badd lahh.deres still like so much i haven done.things undone :;file all my wks;finish TKMB;study chem;mep wksyupp.loser lah me.ok wadeva.yupp.so dat was sundae :D #dreams#
10:30 PM; iloveu Y
17 March 2007
ok.loads of stuff happened 2dae.shall nt go into detail.dis is gonna b an emo post (: yupp.
hmm.u noe wad.ive always been dis wae.n ya.im always changin.but deres 1 thing wich will always b dere - the awkwardness.mayb its juz me.but ya.its juz awkward.now dat things hv cleared up.im kinda glad.however.other stuff r comin along.its nt dat im like ignorin u.or always tryin 2 change e topic.or rejectin u.or wadsoeva.but ya.im juz nt used 2 bein treated like dat.its a nice feelin.but smhow its pressurizing me.2dae seems so freaky.4 once i felt loved.however.e love seems 2 b suffocating me.its juz a feelin wich cant b described wif words.ok.im nt makin ani sense.sorry.but im juz crappin away.y r things like so unpredictable.y do conflicts arise.hai.WHY.#everythings too sudden#
12:46 AM; iloveu Y
14 March 2007
ok.2dae was damn screwed.totally had no mood 2 do anithin.so ya.my pile hw is still dere.untouched.sian mann.aiya 2dae is juz another borin dae lah.nth much 2 blog abt.hai.at dis rate.im juz like wastin my damn life away.i so wanna slack lahh.but deres still like so much stuff 2 do.hai.ok.dun feel like bloggin le.#lost#
10:53 PM; iloveu Y
13 March 2007
ok.i was like super blur 2dae lah.was late by 15mins 4 guitar.nice daddy sent me 2 sch.haha.nid 2 tune strings mahh.den i was tunin 3rd string but turnin e 1st string peg thingy.amanda came n told me.haha.sheryl was laughin n laughin lohh.haiyo.so mah lu lahh.wahhh.blur blur.den i was so sleepy.saw yvonne n ying hui.haha.dey r so cute!took measurements.den went 4 break wif magdalene.cheryl.amanda.lisa.although break time was already over le.haha.ate marshmallow (: den ya.I SO DUN LIKE GUITAR COSTUME LOH!!!lol.i dun tink ani1 does aniwae.its like SO AWFUL.hai.gross man.ok.so ya.dat kinda ended guitar.went hm.yay.i love my new hp X) haha.yupp.it rawks.ok.so went hm.had quite a full lunch.den sleep le.slept until abt 5 plus 6.ya.pig.i noe.haha.ya loh.eat dinner.watch tv.used com.sms.slacked like siao XDbut den tmr nid 2 buck up le.;read 2 kill a mockin bird;prac piano;help ashley/joyce wif deir wk;do xiao lian bi;do jian baoyupp.dats abt it.shall b guai.go sleep le.haha :D#love seems so far#
10:50 PM; iloveu Y
12 March 2007
ok.ytd ... went 2 my baby cuzzies bdae party.had lunch dere.haha.yay.shes so cute lah.but den abit cranky.ate bdae cake.sang bdae song.haha.usual stuff lahh.ate loads.lol.every1 say i grew taller le.really mehh.i still tink im kinda short lah.no offence 2 shorter ppl.haha.but ya.i wanna reach 170 X) yupp.so her bdaes dis thurs.celebrate in advance mahh.haha.HAPPY BDAE in advance (:went to hyatt after dat.after dey renovated horr.really much nicer lahh.i simply totally LOVE e bathrm mann :D so nice lohh.haha.mirrors everywhere.n e RAIN SHOWER (: i love rain showers.hahaha.nice mahh.so ya.checked in.den sisters stayed in e hotel.i went shoppin.parents went 2 taka 4 sm talk thingy.went 2 heeren 2 buy dat white bangle.n 13 hairties.ehh.nt all 4 me lah.haha.only 3 4 me (: e rest 4 my sisters.since i shop along orchard so many many times le.so decided 2 go 2 bugis.so long nv go le.shopped around 4 so freakin long.dunnoe wad 2 buy lohh.finally gt a necklace frm my fav necklace shop.haha.my wallet empty le.brought so little money out wadd.den spent so much only food.hai.was runnin late.so dashed back.took train 2 boon lay hor.den dere was dis mother who let her kids go into e train.den squeezed in later.bhind me.so cute lah.keep sayin sorry 2 me.haha.den e train back 2 orchard.freaky man.totally.dere was dis grey-striped shirt guy.wif spiky hair.who entered e train.n started starin at me.like WTH.wadeva loh.worst still keep movin closer lah -.- den i gt off at orchard.he pushed his frenz out as well.i tink hes frenz were like scoldin him.den he whispered smthin 2 dem.den dey stared at me.wahlao.den dat freaky guy walked side by side wif me up e stairs loh.omg.he was like gonna squeeze me or smth.haha.i was so freaked out dat i dashed out of orchard mrt.i tink dey kinda lost me coz it was quite crowded.haha.damn.hope i dun meet him ever again.so was late.parents were angry but didnt scold me (:took a quick shower.changed.den went 2 eat dinner.left 4 church soon after.was late le lohh.was tryin 2 find tirzah.haha.found her in e basement.took my sash.den went upstairs 2 wait.haha.started off wif performances.juniors were so cute lahh.haha.we were quite mean lahh.laughin away.but dey r so so cutee!den depo walk's performance rawked too!!haha.jolene was e ballerina.didnt see S1's performance.was backstage mahh.but i tink it was gd too!!haha.ok.our performance was cao funny.rachel n i kinda sang wrongly n e mike was like rite in front of us.hahaha.den we all started wen e pianist was playin e intro.so we started gigglin too.lol.funny man.so went up collect prize.wahh.so many ppl lahh.haha.ya.den go hm le.collect sm stuff.use com a while.den went back 2 e hotel.watched tv 4 a while.I LOVE MTV mann XD haha.ok.2dae ...woke up at 9.aiya.i so wanted 2 pon guitar lahh.haha.was late aniwaes.by 1/2 hr i tink.at e bus-stop.i saw dis weirdo guy lah.he was laughin n laughin non-stop.at nth loh.den passer-bys tot he was siao.haha.y do i keep seein freaky ppl.lol.luckily teacher n instructor werent dere.or else.i sure die.so ya.pracked n pracked.finally over man.haha.sorry lah.but wasnt really in e mood 4 guitar 2dae.i wan my SLEEP.went back 2 hotel.bathe den go lunch le.went 2 eat steamboat.haha.nice nice.very full loh.den went 2 M1 paragon dere.gt my new hp.orh.fate loh.haha.no black n blue.only hv 1 pink one left.so ya.my new hp (: Z610i pink.THANK YOU DADDY & MUMMY :D haha.changed no. le.sad sia.still muz charge hp leh.haha.den my hp no earpiece lahh.den my dad dun wanna buy 4 me.he say mayb gt ipod nano den dun nid ear piece.but is my ps3 xchange 4 ipod nano lahh.worth it or nt ah.haha.aiya see how lah.my 1000 sms horr.i tink too much le lehh.haha.smhow i gt e feelin dat i dun nid so much le.weird sia.lol.shall go xperiment wif my hp XD #dun take me 4 granted#
5:10 PM; iloveu Y
10 March 2007
woke up late 2dae.den parents cannot send me 2 sch.so took mrt.saw mr portugal.freaky man.i was so illegal lahh.lol.dun tink he saw me.haha.y do i always meet ppl i noe on e mrt lohh.haiyo.always so coincidental wan meh.was late 4 20 mins.relief teacher 2dae.dunnoe wad happened 2 math olympiad teacher.was crappin wif yu jin.mabel was drawin all over our paper.jiayi was lookin thru her theory.haha.mum fetched me frm sch.ate lunch.use com a while.den go theory exam le.wahh.so freakin cold in dere lah.starhub center.yay.somerset dere :D so dad dropped me at entrance.den i go up myself.haha.big gal liao.aniwaes been dere 3 times le.once every yr.ya.so kinda noe my wae around.found my rm.305 (: seat 40 (: wahh.alot of ppl le.i tot i was early smmore.but i really was lohh.by 10 mins.den a few more ppl came.dere was 1 guy who tot he 4gt his paper.den find n find n find.finally found it.den another gal came in.tink she said 'f**k' n threw her stuff on e table den sit down.lol.saw dis gal wif e green version of my myuck pencil case.she wore a green jacket.haha.den my pencil case was purple.n i had a purple jacket.lol.luckily had my jacket lah.n i wore jeans.or else.i sure bcm ice block le.hahaha.did my theory real slowly.haha.at 1st i tot i had no time lah.den i had like loads n loads of time left.like 1hr plus.so i stoned 4 15 mins.b4 startin on my composition.e invigilator kept walkin bhind me loh.mayb bcoz im at e last row lah.haha.so ya.finished paper le.still hv 1hr more.so checked like siao 4 35 more mins.cannot take it liao.i was fallin asleep.so left e examinaton rm.overall paper quite ok lah.abit hard.quite few questions but very tricky loh.haha.really hope i gt distinction man X)went 2 centrepoint 2 buy famous amos.yay.bought 250g den had 50g more.promotion mah.yay.yummy.walked 2 heeren 2 buy hairband 4 wanxian.n hairties 4 myself.but in e end didnt buy lahh.wanted dat white bangle thingy too.nxt time go den buy lah.bought a pink hairband.culdnt find a brown 1 4 wanxian.so decided 2 go j8 n try my luck.wahh.so late le lohh.finally found it at j8.yay.haha.wanted 2 buy e purple.but better nt lah.lol.omg.op 70% off lehh.j8 always gt sale wan lohh.i wan op shorts!! XD hai.shall try n convince my parents man.dey still tink dat op=mini skirts/shorts.sadd.so went back hm.luckily parents didnt really say anithin X) haha.aw man.sorry galz/guyz.but ya.im grounded durin march hols lah.much as i like 2 go out wif ur.but ya ): sorry kkayes.another time ba.i seriously miss shoppin!! yay.march hols.love ya man!! XD finally can relax.haha.slack.shop.sleep.#missin u#
8:16 PM; iloveu Y
09 March 2007
dis is gonna b a long post XD haha.yay.last dae of e term mann.haha.awww.last dae sittin nxt 2 zhenling.lol.was 1/2hr late 4 chem.aiya.guitar teacher talk so long wad.assembly ended late smmore.fa was crap lah.left so many blanks.haha.i always do.math teacher didnt cm.relief teacher tot us hcf n lcm.haha.i was rather slow 2dae.sad.gt hw smmore.assignment 1.shall try n finish 2nite.shucks.hv 2 finish theory first.damn.philo was cao funny lahh.all thanks 2 kelly n fuxin.lol.we were laughin like siao.ok.mayb juz me.but kelly was really tryin her best 2 control her laughter.wahh i really felt like laughin out loud lohh.e contents shall nt b revealed (: haha.history was juz watchin american tale.it rawks lohh.flevel is so freakin cutee.lol.but nv finish watchin lah.so ya.end of e dae liao.i rushed down.2 e bus-stop. [e convo was smth 2 dis effect]kelly:u walk so fast 4 wad???me:no time liao mahh.kelly: wahhh nxt time u shuld walk like dat.ping chang walk so freakin slowly.but wen shoppin is concerned.wahh exact opposite mann.me:(laughs)so on e wae.kelly lost her wallet.left it at canteen table n had 2 pay $2 2 gt it back frm teacher.haha.so huiying.yiyang.me waited 4 her at bus-stop.went 2 gt earrins 4 my cuzzie.shun bian bought myself a belt n earrins.huiying was lookin 4 a prezzie 4 u-noe-who.haha.went wif kelly 2 gelare.yay.huiying n yiyang kinda disappeared.so ya.kelly gt a double scoop cookies n cream.i gt a large waffle wif single scoop of chocolate chip chunk or smth like dat lah.yuppp.yummy lohh.but cao ex lahh.kelly tot e waffle cm wif ice-cream smmore.haiyo.$8.50 lehhh.wahh.im broke.but last dae of term mahh.so treat myself lohh.haha.kelly is on a diet since she doesnt wanna b 100% -.- lah she.she has like so nice figure n blah blah.lol.so ya.chatted abt sm ppl.lol.shall nt say who.but ya.funny lahh.laughin away mann.sm how we 4gt e time.wen i finished eatin.we realised dat we were like cao cao late 4 swim carn.2 pm le.we were supposed 2 reach yck swimmin complex at 2.15.LOL.sure cannot wan wad.so ya.ran out of far east n 2 e mrt.kelly was like so gan chiong lah.haha.aiya.normal 4 me lah.coz i always late wan.at most gt booked er yi mah.im used 2 it X) den we juz missed e train.muz wait 5 mins.kelly was like.OMG OMG OMG all e wae 2 yck.lol.aiya.so i was really hopin dat we'll b lucky.dat tappin machine thingy has probs.hahaha.met ex-history teacher.wahh.he was like strollin lah.but hes always late aniwae.so ya.YAY.juz as i had predicted.hahaha.kiddin.e tappin thing was really slow.so many ppl were stuck outside.so we managed 2 slip in w/o bein booked.nice rite.haha.kelly was like.PHEW.lol.e sun was freakin hot lah.sweatin like siao.haha.wahh.pe teacher still owe me ice-cream.now push 2 term 2 le.so ya.e sch was super un-enthu lohh.hadley gt 4th.aiya.dis yr sure lose wan lah.so ya.since on e specs stand dere so hot.den zhenling came n disturb me.haha.wahh.knocked my chin loh.unintentionally.so i took dat as an xcuse 2 visit yvonne.ying hui.lol.dey told me call doctor 2 do chin lift 4 me.zhenling was gonna use me as a punchin bag lohh.so mean rite.lol.so crapped wif zhenling.yvonne.ying hui.jiayi.mabel.yu jin.ser gin.wahh.yu jin molested me lahh.haha.she touch me den announce smmore.lol.den jiayi sat on my stomach.ouch loh.see.all bully me mann ): poor me.lol.went 2 buy pepsi twist.wahh.drink 1/2 wae den lost my voice.freaky.but after doin raffles cheers.den screamed like siao.lol.i gt my voice back :D haha.e teachers swim very funny lohh.kelly noticed dat our ex-pe teacher had 2 sort of dimples at his waist/butt dere.lol.den zhenling was like.duh i dun look at his butt.how i noe.hahaha.damn funny lah.but kelly said it was kinda deep.aniwaes.he looked kinda fat.e wae he paddles wen on e float.so kiddy lahh.haha.i sound mean.den jiayi say.mr portugal swam lop sided 1.his freestyle.right hand was stronger den left.looked kinda funny.den he wore e hadley shirt.kelly was like.wahh.isnt dat a guy wearin e hadley shirt.isnt it gay.den i was like.ya.lol.its mr portugul lehh.hahaha.our house teacher kinda looked funny too.i mean e wae she swam.aiya all teachers swam funnily.sorry lahh.but ya.kelly zai lah.swam so fast.haha.den dey all teased huiying 4 starin at e guyz.lookin at deir abs n blah.lol.okk.i tink dats all dat was interestin durin swim carn.ya.walked wif yu jin 2 e bus-stop where i had 2 take 265 back hm.den she waited 4 her dad 2 pick her.so she was tellin me abt how nt guai im.zhi cuo bu gai.gt rtc le.haha.den talked abt our learnin jouney.ya.kinda hyper 2dae.last dae of term lehh.pulled down my socks.haha.yu jin was like.pull dem up lah.aiya.but no pits wahh.den 265 came lohhh.den i so nice waited wif her.lol.kiddin.so ya.wahh her dad came faster den e nxt 265 lohh ): so waited alone.sad rite.haha.den a richardsonian cm along.luckily nt pit/prefect lahh.ya lohh.so took bus back.n here im.wahh.spent so much money 2dae lahh.food.accessories.but aiya.last dae of term wad.smmore im grounded durin hols ): haha.pamper myself abit lohh.shall watch loads of tv 2dae.n ya lah.try n finish hw XDwe were so close
yet so far
e moment i saw u
u blew me away
e way u looked at me
dat innocent cute face
wif longin eyes
hopin we'll meet again
ur smile
juz melted my heart
boy
u made my dae
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#sweet#
6:20 PM; iloveu Y
08 March 2007
at last mann.exams over le (: uber happy lohh.haha.ya lah.still hv chem fa tmr.guai ppl r studyin 4 it.but i heck care lahh.mep was crap.didnt finish again.study so hard den everythin spell wrongly.aiya.but it wasnt really dat bad lah.worst 1 still my sucky math.give up le lah.no hope wan.i shall totally slack 2dae lohh X) ok.abit abt ytd.slept 4 2 hrs.yay.prac abit of piano.didnt study theory.haha.all e terms.crap.went 4 piano lesson.teacher cm back liao.yay.she so nice.haha.help me wif my mep exam.luckily my piano lesson is on wed.den mep on thurs.anithin dunnoe can clarify b4 test.haha.went thru my mock wif me.quite ok lahh.but her xpectations very high wan lohh.distinction lehh.hai.dun wanna repeat last last yrs mistake again.merit lah.haiyo.haha.yay.hope i gt last yrs marks again :D distinction.i wan my distinction.at 1st i tot pass can liao loh.coz only learn 1 yr.smmore 1/2 hr every lesson.wahh.now see my mock.merit.so aim 4 distinction loh (: haha.i didnt do my hw lah.she was nice.nv scold me (: juz tell me b more careful 4 test.go revise terms.haha.dunnoe can ask her on msn :D learnt new piece B:1 prelude in c minor.haha.zhenling.urs is B:2 rite.learnt B:1 n B:5 den pick 1 (: wahh.very hard lahh.haha.pracked 4 nth.nvm lah.nxt week can prac lesser.lol.so dat was my piano lesson.so 2dae ...hmm.sm teachers r really really nice lah.dey r so understandin loh.let us off early.let us slack.watch videos.tell us grandmother stories.make us laugh.listen 2 us.haha.dis only applies 2 SM teachers hor.sm r really really nice nice.but sm r seriously borin.nt say horrible lah.but smtimes abit irritatin loh.so ya.geog was slack.teacher told us abt her 2 dogs.apple n smth.haha.so poor thin loh.like tommy our sch cat lah.haha.den watched video.yup.mep exam.freaky.played violin.seriously my violins horrible.haha.so squeaky n scratchy.wah.vibrato.dun tink i can ever do it.chinese.told us grandmother stories abt galz bein bluffed by deir boyfrenz n sold as prostitudes.sadd.went thru sm ke wen wif us.all e funny ci yu.let us off early 4 lunch (: lol.my chinese is seriously deprovin.ex-chinese teacher suggests dat i shuld get continue my tuition again.haha.tink abt it lah hor.lit.aw man.aiya.copy dis copy dat only mahh.den hear her talk talk talk.haha.entertained myself by doodlin on huiyings book n talkin 2 zhenling X) zhenling abit slow 2dae lohh.haha.normally im slow.2dae shes super slow.lack of sleep mahh.haha.i was super weird accordin 2 her.mayb finish exams le lah.so on hyper mood XD finished german lied wif huiying.brintha told me sick jokes.haha.totally sick lah she.suddenly i doin german lied.den she sit in front of me.n started tellin me sick jokes.lol.cute lah she.went hm.saw ying jie n zhengpei at bus-stop.wahh.so little ppl at bus-stop at 1st loh.so my socks were invisble.den freaks lah.prefect after prefect.pit after pit came.luckily pulled up abit liao.i tink dey pretend didnt see lah.lol :Dwaited 4 e double decker 132 coz i wanna sit mahh.so didnt go up e 1st 132 (: i love double decker 132 can.lol.was very empty lah.den rgs galz flooded it.haha.abit xaggerated rite.so ya loh.went hm.here im slackin XDis it fate or destiny.dat our paths crossed 3 times.we xchanged glances.but u nv dared 2 look at me in e eye.u seemed 2 recognise me but dere was still dis bit of uncertainty.e wae u 'look' at me thruout e journey n e 'last look' dat u always gave me.dat xpression was juz.mayb one dae.or mayb our paths will nv cross again.haha.crap.im bored lahh.but seriously lohh.it really takes quite abit of yuan fen 4 2 ppls paths 2 cross rite.even more yuan fen 2 bcm frenz.haha.so treasure ur frenz lohh.once in a lifetime lehh.lol.if u were 2 live 2 a 100 ; i want 2 live 2 a 100 - 100 mins so dat
i will nv hv 2 live w/o u
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to the world ; ur juz 1 person
but 2 1 person ; ur e world
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yay.so sweet rite.zhenling tell me wan.shes gt loads more.shall go copy nxt time.haha.she gt it frm her sister who gt it frm her fren.ya.smth like dat lah.haha.okk.shall go slack le XD
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#dun 4get abt us#
5:01 PM; iloveu Y
kinda recoverin le (: haha.thanks 4 cheerin me up ppl n encouragin me 2 move on X) ive decided 2 study 4 mep so ya.here im muggin.wen every1s already in dreamland ): sad.haha.but aniwaes.dis is gonna b my last try.i dun really hv much hope but ya.ill give it my all.haha.aniwaes.here im slackin.snackin.studyin.lol.im bloggin.listenin 2 music.chattin on msn.eatin chocolates.sweets.ice-cream.drinkin.can drinks.studyin mep.yupp.haha.nice 2 hv ppl 2 chat wif u wen u do ur work wad.juz dat it makes my pace of work uber slow lah.den i cannot live w/o music wan mahh.music rawks my life XD haha.wen im sad.i eat loads lohh.so ya.can tell rite.lol.wahhh.hope i finish soon mann.i tink ppl r so weird lohh.u nv noe wad deir tinkin.xcept 4 sm xceptions like me lahh.horr huiying.cant stand u mann.freaky.haha.but ya.dere r many sides of ppl lahh.but smtimes.try n control lahh.dun b so wad until ppl hate u can.its nt nice 2 b hate.neither is it nice 2 hate ppl.aniwaes.ppl change wad.like me.haha.so chill lah.kan kai dian.uh huh.im crappin away.haha.dis part may piss u off.lol.sorry lah.but i juz wanna 2 get it off me.so ya.ventin my anger here (:in ur eyes.im 4eva a failure.u compare me wif every1.im nt perfect.neither r u.every1 has deir flaws.n deir own wae of doin stuff.includin me n u.i noe myself.if i cant do it.i cant do it.r u tryin 2 drive me 2 a corner or smth.1 dae i might really xplode on u.so wad if i study.i cant get e results u wan.no matter how hard i try.ur nv satisfied.so y shuld i even try.n stop bein so strict wif me can.it totally sux.i wan my freedom.im like a poor bird locked up in sm cage.its worst den bein in a prison.wadeva.u keep takin away my 'loves'.juz like dat.its gone.i wan my life back.give it back.it aint urs.ITS MY LIFE.#driftin apart#
1:11 AM; iloveu Y
07 March 2007
wtf.im so damn sad lahh.mayb i shuld juz hide in my rm.blast my music n cry.its nt like i nv study rite.i study so hard liao lah.still gt dis kind of shit results.sucky math.didnt even finish.every1 was like so easy.blah blah.wadeva.im damn dumb can.dats it.i told u by studyin.it will only cause me 2 hate myself more.i shall NT study animore.zhenling seee.told ya.it wun work.hai.i tot my geog chi n hist were bad enuff.now math.wth lah.flunk all lahh.at most quit sch only wad.cant wait 4 march holz n learnin jouney week man.but den after dat.every week gt test.wtf.damn lahh.wanna kill me ahh.take a gun n shoot lah.torture me like dat.wadeva.2dae was quite ok lah.chi was kinda slack.teachers very nice.haha.so ti liang wo men (: eng was freaky.watched a movie.every1 was like screamin n clappin n laughin.hahaha.but e movie rawks lahh.suspense pro like siao.lit was borin as usual.told us abt learnin journey.haha.goin orchard rd.leader smmore.aiya.cannot shop le.muz control.haha.aniwaes.i tink dat place also nth nice 2 shop lah.den math test ): i was late lohh.hai.den every question also dunnoe how 2 do.panic like siao.once i panic.i noe i sure die.so tried 2 calm down lahh.no use.hai.but yay.4 once i didnt cry.i told myself.dun cry dun cry.haha.but i really wanted 2 cry lahh ): wahhh.com studs.slackin block.haha.aiya.dat block sleep also nvm lah.xperimented wif e com.haha.crappin away.teasin.usual stuff.went hm.met pe teacher on e wae.wahh.muz shout her name den she hear lohh.haha.she kept confusin us lohh.until now.im still very confused abt which jc she was frm.rjc or hcjc.qiqi said dat mayb she was in hcjc 4 1st 3 mnths.den transfer 2 rjc.lol.dunnoe lahh.she still owe me ice-cream :D on e wae outta sch.met ex-pe teacher.haha.he so xian mu wo can go hm so early.coz he gt meetin.aiya.only wed i gt 2 go hm early lohh.sadd.actually fri also can.juz dat i wanna go shoppin lahh (: saw qiqi.daphne.pe teacher at e bus-stop.took 132 wif qiqi.she was tellin me abt dis irritatin guy in hci.lol.wahh.den suddenly she xclaimed.WHERE R UR SOCKS?!?!lol.so muz pull up lohh.haiyo.i tot outside sch le mahh.so ya loh.my socks kinda disappeared X) damn tired n confused now lahh.suppposed 2 prac piano.do hw.mug mep.but den i totally no mood lah.shall go sleep XD later at nite den mug.aniwaes.it will b another gone case exam wad.heck care le lah.#givin up#
3:37 PM; iloveu Y
06 March 2007
supposed 2 b muggin 4 math.but math hor.is can means can.cannot means cannot.haha.aiya.my math is pathetically sucky lah.ur all say wad i sure no prob wan.shit lah.my math is like roller coaster like dat.hai.tmr die liao.geog 2dae.totally flunked it.wahlao.i studied lah.den answers all wrong.wads e prob wif me man.haha.chi ah.haiyo.also die lah.crap answers.rushed thru.didnt even noe wad dey were askin.mann.history was crap too.haha.ppls answers r like twice of mine.wahh.it happens every yr lahh.how cm dey hv so much 2 write lohh.goshh.my studies r like shit.haha.ok lahh.i dun put in as much effort as other ppl mahh.so ya loh.i deserve it (: JIAYOUS EVERY1!! MUG HARD!! 2 MORE DAES!!
ok.abit abt past few daes.i almost gt my hp lahh.hai.dun wanna really blog abt it.but ya.hopefully i gt it dis weekend XD cant wait mann.i simply cant cant wait 4 dis fri!! :D den bball hor.yay.gt free ice-cream.dat dae abit sian lahh.everybody said so.so ya.played horribly.den 4 shootin.out of 3 tries managed 2 score all (: yay.haha.aiya.wun b so lucky nxt time lah.haha.2dae gt booked again.spot-check.haha.BETA liao.wahh.no bookins 2 spare le.still gt 7 mths 2 go lehh.sadd.wahh.RTC involves so many ppl.i didnt noe lahh.teachers.parents.hoy.die le.nvm lahh.no use feelin sad mahh.so ya.im still happy :D siao rite.
i dun mean 2 shut ppl out of my life lahh.or like neglect ur in ani wae.but ya.its juz me.i love keepin stuff 2 myself n bottlin it all up.haha.so ya.sorry lahh.its nt dat i dunnoe ur care 4 me or r tryin ur best 2 help me.but ya.ive changed mahh.like ur said.im a totally diff person.frm e guai guai innocent gal bcm e total opposite.mayb i shuld change back.but nows nt e time lah (: n im really insensitive wan lah.so if i offend u muz tell me kkayes :D ya.haha.
2 ALL CONCERNED XD
CHEER UP!! SMILE!!
GET WELL SOON!!!
JIAYOUS!!!
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#complicated#
10:02 PM; iloveu Y
02 March 2007
ok.dis is gonna b yet another of my emo posts.haha.ya.2 all who r concerned abt me.haha.thanks!!im kinda doin fine lahh.juz dat sm stuff may change juz in a spilt of a sec.so ya.b prepared (:
goin thru loads of stuff now.loads of mixed feelins.emotions.etc.so called a phase of growin up.haha.so ya.if i happen 2 like offend u.sorry.
thru dis xperience.i haven seen e many sides of me.as well as e many sides of other ppl.hmm.finally understand wad it means 2 nt judge a bk by its cover.n so on.haha -.- im slow.i noe.
wad m i actually depressed/pissed abt.duh.my life.does my life always suck 2 me.yes.but 2 others.its 'sheng zai fu zhong bu zhi fu' ur will nv understand wan lahh.as in.ur dun go thru it mahh.
u tink u noe wads gd 4 me.ur so wrong.ur totally tryin 2 control me.ur ruinin my life w/o knowin it.ur tinkin dat my lifes rottin away.ur so nice 2 me.yet so mean.so juz shut e hell up man.u totally dun noe me at all.get out of my life.if u wanna stay on.den let me rule MY LIFE.or regret it.
#wadeva#
10:28 PM; iloveu Y