-- my heart will always be with you

30 April 2007

yayy.enjoyin my brownies wif ice-cream.mummy bought it.haha.seems like weneva im emoin.ive nice food.its all planned by God i guess (:

so was slackin e entire nite.watched amazing race.its been a long time since i watched dat.lol.still rmb i used 2 stay up juz 4 dat show.den went 2 emo n now im like sick.stupid running nose.my eyes r like tearin n can barely open.

BUT IM HAPPIER DEN B4 (:

haha.REALLY REALLY THANKS 2 ALL WHO ASKED ABT ME!!im really okk now lahh :D juz emoin.yupp.its normal.its me (: all e food.encouragements.hugs.really helped a great deal!im glad ive God.my family & frenz who always stand by me.THANK YOU ALL OF U!!EVERY SINGLE ONE OF U!!

okk.im learnin 2 accept other ppls flaws.n tryin 2 tink frm deir perspective.i really m okk.haha.yupp.dat includes my own weaknesses too.so EVERY1 TRY KKAYES (: yayy.e world will b so much happier.haha.jiayou ppl!!

yayy.tmr is labour dae :D finally a dae of rest.nt really.its piled wif hw.oh well.i shall wake up at 12 earliest XD okk.wonder wads gonna happen tmr.spiderman 3 released lehh.i wan 2 watch!!!guess ill hv 2 wait till holz ba.haha.

haiyoo.i realised dat ppl around me r all gettin emo le lehh.sadd.CHEER UP PPL!! (: okkk.if ur ever nid a person 2 confide in.u can cm 2 me!!haha.dats if u feel comfortable tellin me lahh.or else.juz VENT IT ALL OUT!!!!IN EVERYWAE POSSIBLE!!IT REALLY REALLY HELPS!! :D

im still yearnin 4 it.keepin it deep down in my heart.

# juz so u noe #

11:58 PM; iloveu Y

i knew it was comin.so ya.kinda gt myself mentally prepared.2dae was seriously a rather emo dae.~~tearin while bloggin~~

hai.my nametag haven cm yt.so whereeva i walk.prefect + pits will ask.reply wuld always b my wallets in class.lol.its really is wad.eng was kinda slack.juz mark comprehension onlyy.chi was okk lah.teacher was tryin 2 make it fun by havin sm cheng yu comp.ya.was rather sleepy so din really participate.geog was hai.i noe im gonna fail again.physics.okk.i was so damn pissed wif myself.i was like so blur.hai.e quiz was total crap.din noe wad i was drawin.spa thingy.redrew my graph 3 times.totally 4gt abt e answer sheet.din finish in e end.wahh.really felt like cryin.hist.THANKS ZHENLING!!reallyy.4 lettin me vent all my emotions on ur writin pad.yupp.was gettin all emo n tearin n doodlin emo stuff on her writin pad.haha.she did e same.okk.finally end of e dae.THANKS QIQI N ZHENLING 4 UR HUGS N ENCOURAGEMENTS!! went wif huiying 2 pe dept.canteen.mini amphi.blah blah.alot of places lah.haha.

2.4.do nt ask me abt it unless u really wan me 2 break down in front of u.THANKS HUIYING 4 PEI-IN ME!!okk.kinda teared coz so many things juz came into my mind.THANK YOU PEIXIN N FUXIN 4 BEIN SO NICE N CARIN!!okk.so had abit of water fun.den went 2 far east.ate kfc.went hm.smhow e sky juz looks so nice.e blue sky.e white fluffy clouds.e sun settin.hai.

thank you God for helping me to complete my 2.4km run and helping me to get a Gold for Napfa'07.

THANK YOU EVERY1 WHO ENCOURAGED ME IN ONE WAE OR ANOTHER!!

life seems so dark.wheres my light.guess it juz faded away.so many things r goin thru my mind.my emotions r all totally mixed up.one thing i noe.im nt e same animore.dis had changed my entire life.ive gotta let it all out l8ter.everythin in ani wae possible.or im really gonna break down.hai.

# bcoz u live #

6:32 PM; iloveu Y

29 April 2007

okk.so kinda went 2 vent my emotions by playing badminton wif ashley.lol.so was juz smackin e shuttlecock like siao n it went flyin in all directions.hai.tot dat wuld make me feel better.but i was wrong.i was all moody n all after dat.hai.i still m.ate dinner.still had dis pile of hw b4 me.seriously i do hw at a really slow rate.4gt it.i shall juz go n sleep n 4gt all abt my stupid hw.okk.im back 2 my emo state again.

my previous emo + pissifyin post was juz my random feelings at dat time.really.its nt directed at ani1.hai.so is dis 1.

im seriously breakin down.im unable to hold out ani longer.everythins killin me.really everythin.hw.eois.frenz.parents.sisters.all e stress is really weighin me down.i nid 2 breathe.i wan my june holz.i wanna let my hair down n juz really enjoy myself.can i even live till dat very dae.i doubt it.

where r u wen i nid u most.do u even care animore.i guess nt.smhow everythins changed.its nv like b4.

i pray God that you will strengthen and guide me through this difficult time of mine.hopefully i will not vent my emotions or explode at anybody tomorrow.amen.

cant wait 4 labour day. ~~hopefully 2 spend it wif u~~

# darkness #

11:31 PM; iloveu Y

went 2 church.lesson was on e 10 plagues dat happened in egypt.hai.y r ppls hearts juz so hard.u brought it upon urself.cant blame ani1.on e other hand.sm ppls faith r juz so strong.really admire dem loh.haha.

'e physical body will perish.but e soul will b renewed each dae' -my teacher.

haha.okk.so after church.went 4 lunch.came back hm.n i slept 4 2 hrs.hai.woke up at 5.my gosh.deres dis pile of hw undone.ytd nv do ani.so only left 2nite.i wanna sleep early!!lol.

drownin in my hw ...
; eng: compre . essay (optional i hope)
; physics: pgs 23 + 26 (left it in sch X))
; chi: miao xie wen
; math: wks 4 . ~~quiz~~ . ~~quiz 1~~ . assignment (optional i hope)

okok.shall gt back 2 my hw le.lol.

# teach me thy way #

5:45 PM; iloveu Y

28 April 2007

hai.okk.dis post is gonna b rather emo n pissifyin.

had lunch.din really wanna eat.so ate 2 servins of dessert.sweet & nice X) sent ashley 4 tuition.sent joyce back hm.den i culd go 4 rs.haha.culdnt recognise kelly n yu jin frm deir back.lol.drove rite past dem.i recognised kellys bag though.i was like 'dats my bag' den my mum replied 'huh ur fren ah' 'haha.no.my BAG' lol.so diao.okk.so mabel was already dere.den yu jin n i went 2 print stuff.haha.im so gonna b booked 4 playin truancy.hai.okk.so she was tellin me abt 2.4.n i was tellin her abt my suay mornin.haha.so printed e stuff.went upstairs.den muz cm down n print again coz we left out 1 pg.lol.it was left downstairs.so yupp.went upstairs.kelly n mabel had installed msn messenger 4 yu jin.tink yu jin gt kinda pissed.haha.bluetoothed 'zhi dui ni you gan gue' 2 yu jin.was laughin n crappin wif her.her stuff toys so cute lahh.haha.kelly was typin e minutes.mabel was tellin us 2 concentrate n nt keep digressin.okk.so we were doin e orgami thingy.wahhh.so hard lohh.i was damn blur n 4gtful 2dae so ya.hai.okk.had dinner.pizza (: haha.yu jins house so nice lahh.so we were laughin away while eatin.talkin abt teachers is funnyyy.okk.so went back 2 do rs.dis time very funnyy.we practically messed e place upp.haha.SORRY YU JIN!! :D okk.den soon had 2 go hm.we all took diff buses.

took 171 2 far east.was abt 7 plus.went shoppin.bought a bus-stop shirt.im so gonna pamper myself like siao in june lahh.abt 8 plus.walked along orchard rd.went 2 heeren.haha.orchard rd is nice at nite lohhh (: e moon was kinda covered by e clouds so has dat misty effect.no stars in e sky.haha.kinda same as my mixed feelins now.okk.so went hm at 9 plus.n here im.

thank you God for helping me to control my emotions today.i could have just exploded halfway.i pray that God i will soon find myself and live life the way i want to.amen.

e followin below is nt directed at ani1.its juz my personal feelins.so dun ask me who im talkin abt.

y r dere so many hyprocrites in e world.like seriously lahh.hello?!can ur nt act nice n b such a ~~bitch~~ bhind my back.i tot ur were like.my frenz?!it turns out dat ur so nt.how culd ive been so blind.if ur hate me.say so.stop ~~bitchin~~ abt me bhind my back.okk.wadeva.how can u piss sm1 off w/o noticin how much uve hurt her.its like written all over her face n u juz totally ignore it.okk.ive had enuff.ive a limit 2 my tolerance.i can take it ani longer.if ur piss me off smmore.im really gonna xplode.i realised im nt able 2 tolerate stuff as gd as b4.mayb its bcoz ur tink im very nice 2 bully/tease etc.so ur really do it like siao.ehh.deres like such thing as overboard u noe.mayb ur juz dun gt it.no one does.im like tryin my best here.who sees it no one.nt u.u juz tink im a slacker.sm1 who rebels.hv u like tot frm my perspective.no.dey say dat im takin my wk more seriously now.wad do u say.im totally stupid.bimb.neglectin my studies.okk.wadeva.hai.ive already told u very clearly.yt u still dun gt it do u.its over.do u really wan 2 make e situation so ugly.stop clingin on 2 smth dat will nv happen.its impossible.wads gone is gone.gt over it will u.hai.e many diff sides of ppl r juz so complicated.i guess dats juz e ugly world.im a ~~bitch/whore~~ so b it.u wanna ~~bitch~~ abt me.b my guest.

hai.still hv dis whole pile of hw undone.shall chiong tmr.mayb do abit 2nite lahh.okk i feel kinda better now (: mayb its juz me lahh.haha.emo gal.

THANKS 2 ALL WHO CHEERED ME UP!!ENCOURAGED ME!! THANKS 4 TAGGIN MY TAGBOARD N MAKIN IT ALIVE AGAIN!! :D

# trapped #

11:33 PM; iloveu Y

okk.im much calmer now.lol (:

yayy.slept at 11.haha.it was rainin cats n dogs so i was sleepin like a pig accordin 2 my mummy.she woke me up.i fell asleep again.was awoken by peixins call.haha.weather forecast says thunderstorm 4 a few hrs so i decided nt 2 go 4 napfa.fell asleep again.huiying smsed.den i fell asleep again.it wasnt until joyce came into my rm den i woke up.omg.810.haha.i was really late.so rushed blah blah blah den went down.din even hv time 2 tie my hair.lol.mum sent me 2 bishan mrt.GUESS WAD.I LEFT MY WALLET AT HM.hai.dats e worst thing dat can happen lahh.luckily i still had my hp wif me or else i really really die.lol.so dere i was panickin away.waitin 4 sm1 i actually noe 2 appear.haha.called my mummy.hp off.called mabel.picked up but no sound.lol.called yu jin.hp off.called huiying.she smsed me instead.wahlao.i was like standin dere like a total idiot.wad i dumbass i was.left my wallet in my other bag.hai.haha.so was crappin wif huiying den mabel called.told me dere was 2.4.she tot no math olympiad.haha.nice her wanted me 2 take taxi den later she payy 4 me.but aiya nvm lahh.aftera while she smsed me dat dere was 2.4 n math olympiad.wth.how suay culd i b man.so i decided nt 2 go 2 sch at all since it was already so late.so i was standin stupidly dere 4 like 45 mins tinkin of wad xcuse m i supposed 2 gv on mon.surely nt bringin my wallet was a very dumb xcuse.hai.so mummy came n pick me up.din really scold me lahh.but was like naggin again.wen will u eva grow up n all dat stuff.aiya.im born blur n 4gtful de wadd.hai.wad a bad wae 2 start off e dae.so went hm.packed up my rm n went back 2 sleep (: guess dats e only gd thing ba.

thank you God that i still had my handphone with me.thank you God for giving me extra time to sleep and to pack up my room.maybe skipping 2.4 and math olympiad isnt so bad afterall.shall go back to sleep :D

# forgetful me #

11:20 AM; iloveu Y

27 April 2007

haha.slept at 1130 ytd.was very very very sleepy 2dae.so i was practically sleepin non-stop.haha.thanks 4 ur concern ppl!!juz a little sleepy dats all.yayy.backbone is straight (: haha.mathh.hai.my practices were so xtreme.sm score full marks.sm fail like shit.damnn.oh well.philo was ermm.CHIM.hai.sure fail n gt retained de lohh.physics.borinn.i was really tryin nt 2 fall asleep lahh.haha.dozed off here n dere.assembly was humanities quiz.lol.funny lahh.i was totally clueless on wad was goin on.haha.smart ppl lahh contestants.wahhh.but abit unfair lohh.sec 2s vs sec 1s.poor sec 1s.lol.loose cannon was damn funny lahh.yayy.laughed quite abit.but gt sm parts i was dozin off.haha.2.4 run was cancelled due 2 e rain.dunnoe whether happy or sad.lol.runnin tmr mornin.guess i gt 2 skip math olympiad.but muz wake up so so early lahh.hai.finally sch ended :D was havin a terrible headache le.was too stressed abt 2.4 i guess.smmore was rather tired.haha.rained very heavily.thanks huiying n ser gin 4 sharin umbrellas wif me!! (:

rushed back hm.bathed.changed 2 sngs blue house t (rather tight though) n shorts den walked 2 sngs (: abt 6 le.YAYY.SNGS IS LOVE!!!!mayb SNGS really was a better choice.haha.i gt a shock lahh.so many ppl lohhh.omg.frm diff diff schs all cm back lehhh.sec schs.jcs.unis.wowww.SNGS RAWKS!!!!saww trella.melody.rachael! (: lol.den went 2 viewin galleryy.charis wong!!lol.she was e only 1 back frm nyh.i was e only 1 frm rgs.hahaha.saw ler yee too!wahhh.i realised dat bad news spread really really really really fast.lol.esp in nyh.rgs.sngs.haha.reallyyy.freaky mann.lol.saww my p1 fav teacher :D den had e races n stuff.yayy.bluee!!!!haha trackers rule!! (: saw minyi.haoyi.deborah.jingyi! (: haha.deborah was talkin nonsense as usual X) saw my other teachers tooo.haha.dey were surprised dat i came back in house t.charis was in sch u XD saw my juniors frm rgs too!lol.yayy.dey came back too (: hai.missed cheerleadin ): haha.really looked 4ward to it.but saw combined cheerleadin.it totally rawks!!!!haha.yellow cheerleadin was really gd.blue was average.SNGS CHEERLEADIN RAWKS!! :D

scores dat i can rmb (:
cheerleadin: 1st - yellow. 2nd - red. 3rd - green. 4th - blue.
best progress: 1st - red. 2nd - blue (: 3rd - yellow. 4th - green.
best cheer: 1st - blue (: 2nd - green. 3rd - yellow. 4th - red.
pri champs: 1st - yellow. 2nd - red. 3rd - blue (: 4th - green.
sec champs: 1st - blue (: 2nd - red. 3rd - yellow. 4th - green.
overall champs: 1st - red. 2nd - blue! :D 3rd - yellow. 4th - green

CONGRATS 2 RED HOUSE 4 CLINCHIN HOUSE CHAMPS N 4 MAKIN E BEST PROGRESS!!

WELL DONE BLUE HOUSE!! U ALL RAWK!!DERES STILL NXT YR!!

JIAYOU YELLOW N GREEN HOUSE!! UR WERE GREAT!!

yayyy.im so so goin back nxt yr!! (: so is charis!lol.e atmosphere is like so cooll.every1 is so united.e blue house caps who r like in jc/uni still cm back lahhh.yayyy.ppl cm back frm diff schs 2 cheer as one! :D I LOVE SNGS!!!! haha.ex-principal came back too.goh.lol.i still like ex-ex-principal though X) sadd saddd.sngs gonna renovate le.so muz shift.split pri n sec.hai.wonder hows sports dae gonna b like den.but e atmosphere totally rawks lahhh.pri n sec combine.yayy.every1 cms 2gether as one :D LOVEE!! haha.wen overall champs results were annouced.i kinda teared lahh.emo me.haha.e IJ dream song was bein played.den i see e dark nitee.see my seniors start cryin.haha.so i teared lohh.but didnt cry lahh.hai.time 2 go hm le.haha.abt 8.my head was really really hurtin.but it din really matter lahh.lol.GONNA MISS SNGS!! BUT ILL TRY 2 GO BACK SOON!! (:

thank you God for cancelling 2.4.it really helped me alot.my muscle ache had more time to recover and i could make it in time 4 SNGS SPORTS DAY (: thank you God for making me so happyy.i have not felt so happy in a long long time :D i pray God that i will be able to do well for 2.4 tomorrow.amen.

shall sleep early 2nite.hope by 11 ba.heads really hurtin.hai.dere goes my wkn.flooded wif hw.jiayou grace!! 2 more weeks n ull b free!! lol :D

# our hearts beat as one #

10:13 PM; iloveu Y

26 April 2007

weird lehh.im like so super duper hyper yt nt happy.lol.funny rite.

was crappin wif kelly n tryin 2 digest aaron copland until 2 den she went to sleep.stayed up 2 destress n listen 2 my nice nice music :D so ended sleepin at 2+ 3.damn sleepy in e mornin.hai.lost my nametag.haha.mathh.aww mann.seriously indices is even worst den algebra.hai.4gt it.my math SUX.tried 2 commit suicide again.lol.zhenling was like do it lahh.haha.kangjie n huiying were ewwwin at e back.den i was like pokin e pin thru my dead skin.huiying tried it outt.she was like pokin herself all over.hahaha.mep practical.totally screwed.tempo 2 slow le.congrats zhenling!!ur songs really rawked!! (: was late 4 mep history paper.b4 e test.i was rubbin my eyes 2 like keep awake.coz was real sleepy.teacher was like heyy.dun nid 2 cry lahh.lol.although i was really sad.i had no intention of cryin.haha.aaron copland was ermm.rather hardd.hai.guessed most of it.juz pass can le lahh.den teacher was encouragin us 2 continue mep nxt yr.yayy.i shall X) at least most likely i will lahh.unless i fail all my mep tests dis yr.PASSION N LOVE 4 MUSIC!! XD haha.

kelly: i wanna drop chi 4 mep!!
me: i wanna drop math 4 mep!!
pexin: cannot lahh.u math dsa lehh.so funnyy.wanna drop mathh.

sad siaa.all thanks 2 MATH DSA dat ive 2 take part in stupid math comps wif i tink im like last.n all e other dumb dumb stuff.hai.i seriously tink dey send me wrong letter.lol.harmony paper.hmm.i tink okk lahh.juz dat i was rather braindead after havin 3 tests in a row dat my head started 2 hurt.oh well.my composition was crap.lol.hope i pass.chinese.i was laughin like siao 4 no reason.yayy.dis made zhenling.kangjie.huiying laugh 4 no reason tooo (: yayy.was bein random + lame + hyper + siao.~~mayb it was juz a brave front~~ haha.so was barely listenin.practically laughin thruout e lesson.lit.i was tryin 2 keep awake okk.so was entertainin myself n laughin awayy.gt called by her.hai.stupid.oh well.her kway teow was like showinn.haha.a joke my p6 math teacher told me abt (: zhenling was like ewwww.ehhh.i like 2 eat kway teow ok!!LOL.ur shuld gt it too ritee X) finally e dae ended.saww sheryl n jeanette.haha.shouted 4 demm.both said i was too loud (: aiya.im known 4 bein loud.

went 2 wisma b dazzle 2 gt my ear solution thingy.went back hm.finished math.slacked used comm.haha.watchin tv.finally.i haven watched tv in ages.shall sleep early 2nite.11!!woww.1st time in who knows how long :D

thank you God for healing my muscle ache.it does not really hurt now but hopefully i am able to run tomorrow.thank you for giving me the wisdom to concentrate and completing the 3 tests.i pray God that tomorrow will be as hyper and as happy as today.amen.

# love of my life #

9:15 PM; iloveu Y

25 April 2007

hai.my muscle ache still here lehh.2.4 die le lahh.oh well.2dae was rather okok lahh.very sleepy as usual (:

chi was okok lahh.zuo wen 4 sa lehh.luckily gt 1/2hr or else i die.was kinda fallin asleep again.love huggin my bag while listenin 2 teachers.lol :D was crappin wif zhenling abt how our sch track totally sux.how our sch is so freakin small.haha.eng was kinda slack.was tryin 2 commit suicide by pokin a pin into my wrist dere.yupp.i was ONLY JOKIN.CHILL.haha.every1 was like.GRACE DUN DO IT!!! all xcept 4 zhenling.lol.she was pokin finger wif me.haha.siann.geog was funn.yayy.teacher so nicee.watched video n let us off so early lahh :D gt back chem durin recess.juz passed (: phew.physics.aw man.dun remind me.i was fallin asleep.he said 'my dear.do u nid 2 go wash ur face?' hello?!i was so freaked outt.'ya.erm.ok.' so diao.haha.so came back.ehh.i wasnt like laughin out loud lahh.he said 'u.stop laughin.wad does dis mean' hai.thanks zhenling.priya.huiying 4 helpin me wif dat question! :D ya.i wasnt payin attention.haha.den priya also kena by him.sadd.com studs.sorry rachel.huiying.kelly.manee!!!!ya.my composition sux.sorry 4 takin such a long time 2 compose!!lit xam was okok lahh.gonna fail aniwaes.crapped thru it.den slept 4 5 mins.i sleep durin every xam lohh (: fuxin asked 'r u dat sleepy dat uve 2 sleep durin every xam' lol.yupp.i guess so :D

came hm.was stuck onto com again.hai.gave up on theory.went 4 piano lesson.told teacher i was very busy so din prack piano nor do theory.yayy.so nicee.she din scold me or anithin.haha.theory is so freakin hard lahh.so much harder den b4 mann.i dun tink i can pass grade 7 theory.hai.oh well.dats nxt yrs business.lol.practical.played my xam piece a:3.hopefully i dun screw it tmr.once i gt nervous.die.its a goner.yayy.she let me listen 2 e actual recordin.goshh.im far frm it man.learnt a new xam piece c:2.same as zhenling n tze gek :D wahh.so hardd.speed so fast.lol.tried 2 play my haydn properly.haha.its was okk lahh.den did scales.aww man.e only thing dat ALWAYS pulls my grades down.haha.sight readin was rather bad coz i was so sleepyy.

okk.so now here im.supposed 2 b muggin 4 mep tmr.dere r 3 xams.practical - a:3. hist - aaron copland. harmony - chords n composition.hai.juz hope i pass mann.so unprepared lohh.my very 1st unprepared mep xam.oh well.shall mug later (:

thank you God for helping me with my literature exam today.when i read the passage.my mind was totally blank.thank you for giving me the wisdom to at least write some answers down.i pray God that i will just pass my mep exams tomorrow.please give me the strength to concerntrate and not fall asleep.amen.

' ___ is so fat dat wen he/she went to space.dere was no space!'

- joyces' fren

yayy.im so proud of myself.i culd actually rmb sngs family dance (: i miss sngs!aw mann.here i go again.haha.hopefully one dae ull understand how im feelin inside.~~ull nv noe~~

# learnin 2 let go #

11:18 PM; iloveu Y

24 April 2007

indulgin in mezza 9 chocolate cake!!!yayy.so sweet n nice lahhh.yummyy (: e chocolate juz melts in ur mouth.haha.finished math fa n eng essay plan.muz chiong theory in sch tmr.hai.lit test tmr.nv study at all.juz hope i pass ba (: gettin back chem results tmr also i tink.also hope i pass (: hai.muz chiong mep xam n practical tmr.1st mep xam whereby im so unprepared.jiayou grace!! :D

thank you God for helping me to stay awake to finish up my homework.thank you for my daddy who is ever so patient with me and always helps when i am in trouble.thank you for my mummy who gives me encouragements in very indirect ways and always pampering me.thank you for parents who can really read my thoughts and sometimes know me better than i know myself.thank you for my sisters who always tell me jokes and random stuff that allow me to destress and never fail to confide in me like how i confide in them.thank you for my grandparents who always care for me and put me before themselves.thank you for my relatives and cousins who never fail to know when i am down and always being able to put a smile onto my face.thank you for my friends who always stand by me and encourage me to move on.thank you for my teachers who always show care and concern for me when i fail my subjects or sleep in class.God.i thank you for everything that you have blest me with.

shall go eat my heartwarmin chocs (: back to my comfy bed awaitin e new mornin.wonder wads in store 4 me :D

# thank you #

11:59 PM; iloveu Y

CONGRATS RGS & SNGS 4 GETTIN GOLD WIF HONOURS 4 CHOIR!!! (:

i almost DIED 2dae.stupid muscle ache.smmore class at 4th floor.can die de lehhh.i cant sit down properly.i cant climb stairs properly.goin down was even worst.hai.okk.my blueblack doesnt hurt so much noww.haha.quoted frm kang jie '2 injuries in 1.cool!' quoted frm peixin 'heyy.looks like a strawberry!' lol.coz my blueblack is half reddish black.like blood clot.den other half is juz normal purplish blue.yuppp.ouchh man.hope it heals soon.

i was damn blur 2dae lahh.4gt 2 brin my watch.xam bk.recognised wrong teacher.knocked my head against sm pillar 4 no reason.lol.

physics.borinn lahh.kexin n me were doin math fa XD glad teacher didnt notice.oh well.we sit right at e back at e corner mahh.give so much hw smmore.hai.eng was slack block.managed 2 do physics n abit of mathh.yayy eng.dat reminds me.my essay plan.aww.geog was hai.didnt do fa.so juz copied down answers lohh.shall go thru wen i hv time.lol.i was practically fallin asleep.aww man.learnin journey reflections.hai.math was badd.seriously im gonna fail it.oh well.nvm.cle was slack again.quite fun though.was crappin.laughin.playin games.lol.i noe ur directin it at me.i really dun wanna kena trouble wif u again.hai.lunch.yayy.din really feel like eatin.den saw ex-pe teacher.rmbed dat she was supposed 2 treat me ice-cream.so yupp.ate chocolate ice-cream 4 lunch.haha :D rs.spent 1/2 searchin 4 teacher.den drew out timeline.meetin dis sat.

decided 2 pon guitar since dere was so much hw.n i nided 2 catch-up on so much stuff.still gt lit xam tmr.most ppl poned too.haha.science comp was okk lahh.slept after finishin.i was practically sleepin after doin every question lahh.e teacher was starin at me.oh well.haha.at least i gt sm sleep (: ate in schh.hungry mahh.lol.saw guitar ppl.dey were like.y arent u dere.lol.den walked 2 far east wif huiying.go back hm.yaa.

nice nice mummy bought chocs 4 me knowin i was emo-in ytd.haha.i was taken by surprise though.thanks mummy! :D yayy.2nite can eat nice nice cake frm mezza 9 n chocs frm mummy.lol.luckily i dun grow fat XD haha okk.shall start on my hw le.

thanks God 4 guidin me thru 2dae.hopefully ill b able 2 stay dis strong thruout dis yr.thanks God 4 providin me wif such carin ppl who love me so much dat smtimes i juz dun see it.i pray God that u will help me 2 realise n cherish dese ppl around me (: amen.

# ull nv understand #

8:16 PM; iloveu Y

23 April 2007

okk.2dae was rather sucky but oh well.

pe was okk lahh.1st time climbin e rock wall.hai.climbed too fast le.lol.den muz slow down.suffered stupid injuries.scratched both knees.damn big blueblack on my right knee.kangjie said i hit sm blood vessel of sm sortt.wahhlao.i bend it gt prob.cant even walk down stairs properly.n had 5 items l8ter lah.hai.chinese was kinda slack.i was barely listenin again.daydreamin in my own world (: lit was EMO.like seriouslyy.i was tinkin abt SNGS sports dae dis fri.den suddenly all e thoughts cm floodin back into my mind.started writin e lyrics of 'hold on 2 our (IJ) dream' song.guess wad.tears started 2 roll down my cheeks.saddd.okk.kinda calmed down.although i was still tinkin of SNGS.so did a real stupid thing.see how long i take 2 cryy.quite lame rite.dats wadd zhenling tot.haha.so i was like gonna cry le.zhenling 'CHILL CHILL' hahaha.so cutee.den she looked at her watch.'abt 30 secs lahh' LOL.okk.dat was really random.den huiying n priya started cryyin too.haha.funnyyy.hist was stupidd.i wasnt listenin at all lahh.crappin wif zhenling.was in my dreamland again.eng was okk lahh.gt another compo 2 write.hai.shall write tmr.okk so dat was e end of e dae.

napfa.hai.sorryy ppll.but i cried again.okk.it was damn sucky.i deproved at every station.damnn lahh.my knee was pain.i tink i pulled sm muscle or smth.den my shoe actually broke.i didnt realise till i was outta sch.dats y i tot like my shoes felt damn funnyy.ok wadeva.2 cut it short.my napfa'07 totally sucked compared 2 napfa'06.okk.although i cried 4 both.but den i still LOVE napfa'06.it totally rawked.4 e 1st time in my life i felt a sense of accomplishment.satisfaction.hai.but dis yr.nvmm.im countin on my 2.4.although i noe it wun b as gd as e yr b4.hai.sorry lahh.i already told myself thousands of times nt 2 cryy.but juz culdnt control it at e end.hai.emo crybaby me.

totally no mood 4 guitar.sorryy.n my whole body was totally achin.was emoin in class.was comparin napfa'06 2 '07.was bridgin 4 funn.haha.den went 2 far east wif huiying.ate gelare (: while she ate sm fried chicken thingyy.haha.was supposed 2 do our hw.ended up emoin instead.thanks gal!!i always emo in front of u de.haha.yupp.stayed dere 4 like 2hrs.by e time we left.e sky was dark n blahh.orchard rd rawks at nite!haha.reached hm at 830.

i tink e moon n stars were very nice 2nite (: dey were shinin so brightly in e dark dark nitee.it was as though if i pressed on.i wuld see e light (: thanks moon & stars!

thanks God 4 strengthenin me 2dae.i wuld hv broke down moree.thanks God i gt a gold despite all e wadeva stuff.haha.yayy.i managed 2 give thanks to God despite feelin emo n all (:

heartfelt thanks to (:
- huiying : 4 pei-in me n cheerin me up wen i noe u were as emo too.haha.
- zhenling : 4 all ur encouragements thruout napfa as well as in class
- magdalene : 4 encouragin me.sorry if i scared u wen i juz broke down like dat.haha.
- priya : 4 cheerin me up in class.haha.
- kelly : 4 tryin 2 help me 4 napfa by sayin sm certain ppl r bhind/in front of me.
- jiayi & huiqing : 4 tryin 2 cheer me up wen i broke down 4 napfa.
- yu jin & chloe : 4 ur advice but i tink ill juz let it go.
- ALL WHO CHEERED ME ON 4 NAPFA REGARDLESS OF WHETHER U KNEW ME OR NT (:
- ALL WHO CHEERED ME UP WEN I WAS EMOIN

hai.do u even care wad im feelin inside.ya.my mood swings like siao.i nid 2 unwind.soo i cryy.i stayy outt.ive no appetite.u can tell i noe.but do u do anithin abt it.no.u juz shout at me 4 no reason at all.i wasnt e 1 who irritated u 1st lahh.now ur tryin 2 b nice 2 me.hai.wads goin on in ur mind man.

wahhh.i cried like 4 times 2dae le.i guess e 5th wuld b wen i sleep.hai.oh well.after emoin.i will feel happier n hopefully more hyper so wuld b able 2 do well 4 mep practical tmr.its a happy song lehh.lol.smtimes i really wonder y r dere so many sides 2 a person.y cant we juz b simple n accept every1.i guess its juz human nature.okk.deres juz so much stuff den cant b xpressed by words.oh well.i give up.dis ugly world is juz nt e place 4 me.

CONGRATS 2 ALL WHO DID WELL 4 NAPFA!!

4 dose who didnt (like me) CHEER UP!! :D

# hold on 2 our dreamz #

10:04 PM; iloveu Y

22 April 2007

went 2 church.lesson was on.hai.guess my faiths nt dat strong afterall.in diff situations give thanks.in everythin give thanks.guess i haven really done dat.hmm.shall try 2 change (: so church was okk.haha.i realised adults like 2 talk 2 mee.seriously 4 no reason horr.sm adult will juz walk up n talk 2 me.haha.smtimes abit scaryy though.yupp.i still rmb last wk i left church tinkin how stupid n sucky my life was.n i guess teacher kinda realised it frm i dunnoe howw.she has her sources lah.lol.n dis wk i leave tinkin how colourful my life is :D yupp.thanks all who prayed 4 me (:

okk.so after church.went 2 peach garden at thompson plaza.nice nice food.haha.as usual i was bloated (: its been a long long long time since ive been 2 tp.haha.i still prefer j8 :D hannah was so so cutee lohh.haha.e moment i disappeared.she was like.where did grace jie jie go to (: cutie pie!haha.aniwaes.bought a new shirt.kena scolded though.nvm lahh.haha.but den it doesnt look as gd on me as i tot it wuld b.oh well.its still nice lahh.lol.

came hm.used comm.den piack.onto my bed.yess.ive fell asleep once again.u might hv realised.dat my hw is totally untouched.hai.yupp.so after dinner.multi-tasked :D used comm.do mathh.pracked piano.sms.yaa.dere4 my hw is barely done.hai.its 1 already.i give up.shall continue tmr (:

koped dis while blog surfin.haha.if u eva pass by here.thanks! (:

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CONGRATS EVERY1!!haha :D cant wait 4 SYF'09!

thank you God 4 helpin me 2 make e right decisions 2dae (: hopefully God.i will hv e strength 2 do well in 5 items n mep practical tmr.although i noe i dun really deserve it.God i leave it to u.alls well in ur hands :D

okk.damn sleepy noww.too tired 2 reply tags.shall reply tmr (: hopefully dis wk will b over soon.i wan wkns!!i wan my sleep!! XD i guess its juz wishful tinkin on my part.u will nv understand me.neither will i eva understand u.

# angel in disguise #

11:35 PM; iloveu Y

21 April 2007

nice nice satt.haha.was late 4 math olympiad as usual.den crapped wif yu jin n mabel.2 very very pro ppl who finished deir entire wks leavin me wif a totally blank mind.hahaha.indices.mann.so yupp.mabel squeezed liquid paper onto her wks.leavin e blot 2 dryy.den yu jin go wipe on me lahh.so i wiped it back on her.lol.in e end we were both screamin n tryin 2 wash it off.lol.teacher was tellin us abt how mosquitoes fly wen dey suck up loads of blood.due 2 his sleepiness.no matter how slow dey fly.he still culdnt hit it.lol.mabel showed me sm rather sick equations wich i shall post sm other time.cant really rmb it le.lol.so after math olympiad.yu jin was grumblin abt me nt takin her 2 hyatt 2 eat lunch.she had 2 go 4 borin science club.haha.den on e wae down.we were kickin tissue paper :D stoops rite.nvm.i tink e senior tot we were siao.but oh well.it was fun (:

so went 2 hyatt 2 change.yuckk.cant stand my dumb sch u.love my hm clothes much better XD so yupp.so heavy lahh.mabel n yu jin were like.1st time grace carry so much stuff lohh.LOL.okk.so went 2 far east 2 shop.since i only had 20 mins.took such a long time 2 change n stuff.im slow (: so long nv shop le lohh.so spent $8.$5 on earrins.i love buyin weird stuff (: green pair wif white polka dots.black pair wif holes of diff sizes.purple studs. $3 on hairband.fat pink n black 1 XD love myself mann.i simply love love love shoppin :D so daddy called 2 check on me.so long nv go hyatt le.haha.strolled 2 hyatt mezza nine.i was e 1st lahh.so started eatin (: daddy told me to.haha.omg.e food rawks lahh.esp e DESSERT!!!!so ate stuff like lobster salad.prawns.sushi.blah blah blah.dessert time!ate 2 servins.lol.i noe.im greedy X) chocolates.marshmallows.cakes.brownies.yayy.was so bloated after dat.

went hm.slept straightaway.i was really really really really sleepy.yupp 4 abt 1hr ++ den gt upp.bathed.changed.yupp.time 2 go 4 bdae party le.mum went n gt a new hp while we gt readyy.didnt go until like 630.haha.cuzzies r so cute lahh.haha.we ended up playin stuff like soccer.ludo.n crappin around.watched quite abit of tv.played wif e cute little stuff toys.haha.ate nice nice cakee.soon time 2 go hm le.hai.sadd.nxt meetin shuld b in june ba.so yupp.dats e end of my very very nice but sleepy dae :D

thank you God 4 bringin me thru 2dae.4 resistin me frm temptations (: hopefully ill b able 2 control my temper more.haha.thank you God 4 always bein dere 4 me (:

hai.ur so damn arghh lahh.stop bein irritatin cann.dun like me den dun like me lahh.stop actin as though u like me.wadeva.im selfish.im stupid.i dun deserve 2 b in rgs.im a backstabber.im a bimb.i dun give a damn.smtimes i really feel like goin over n beat u upp.u better thank God i didnt.okk.CHILL GRACE CHILL.haha.other den dat.2dae totally rawked (: i realised dat horr.once sm1 daos me.b it on msn.or sms.every1 will dao me de lahh.really lohh.haha.weird.but oh well.lol.sorryy.mayb u shuld noe ur boundaries.i do nt wish 2 take a step further.things shuld remain e wae dey r.its best 4 every1.mayb its juz me but ya.insecurity.uve betrayed my trust once.hopefully it will nv happen again :D

& hell yeah.im e mother****in princess! X)

# colours of e wind #

11:18 PM; iloveu Y

20 April 2007

finally.e wkns hv arrived.im totally xhausted frm dis energy-drainin wk lahh.shall ignore all my hw n hv an early nite (:

2dae was rather happy + hyperr.all thanks 2 e wonderful zhenling bside me.1st thing she said 2 me in e mornin.'heyy!u noe we gt GWH!!'lol.funnnyy her lahh.thanks 4 keepin me awake 2dae!!wif all ur silly crappin n stuff!!<33!!hahaha.okk.aniwaes.was>' 'OUCH!!!' hahaha.yayy.funny.mathh was hai.sad sad sad.i tink my math horr.really no hope le.y sm questions r so damn easy while others r so damn hard.lol.stupid me.philo presentation was ermm.okk lahh.peixin said i was stonin thruout :D physics was okk lahh.did 1 question den can go le.yayyy.was damn tired n sleepy cann (:

da baoed lunch.bought sweets.im addicted 2 sweets! XD ya lohh.den went 2 NUS 4 dat HSSRP talk.haha.wahh.we were like so early.so did math while listenin 2 songs.was gigglin here n dere ALL THANKS 2 KELLY!haiyo.haha.zhenling was tellin her funny random stuff again.qiqi was dere laughin away.lol.haiyoo.kelly ahh.cannot make generalisations like dat de lohh.wadeva lahh.u tink sngs is ~~sucky.bimb~~ I WILL STILL LOVE SNGS!! (: okk lohh.i bimb den bimb lohh.lol.so yupp.wahh.e presentations all so chim chim de.had nice nice food 4 reception.sorry i eat so sloww :D ya ya.i shuld nv eva go out wif a guy 2 eat.lol.den ended up watchin globalisation n nationalism n sm female magazine thingy.haha.coz e body art 1 was full.sadd.no comment on e presentations :D lol.yupp.kelly n i were both totally xhausted mann.barely talked.fell asleep durin e bus ride n in e mrt.haha.WE BOTH NID OUR SLEEP!!!haiz.i seriously look like a panda noww.

my wkns r were so packed.but thank God who helped answer my prayer (:

SAT :
math olympiad - lunch at hyatt - sl - rs - cuzzies bdae dinner (:

SUN :
church - grandfathers bdae lunch (: - hw time ):

haha.yupp.at 1st my entire sat was gone.but yayy.sl n rs is cancelled.leavin me abit of time 2 complete my mountains of hw.lol.now 4 my hw ...

- math ; 2 wks . 1 assignment . 1 fa
- geog ; 1 fa
- mep ; prack xam piece 4 practical xam
- physics ; journal
- lit ; study TKMB
- theory
- prack piano
- train 4 pft
- SLEEP!! XD

dere goes my wkn.den it will b mon.mep practical xam n napfa 5 items.wed.lit retest.fri.2.4km run.n soon it will b EOIs.i noe im like gonna fail sm subs again like damn it last time.but hai.nvmm.

i realised dat im like e opposite of every1.wen im sadd.ppl r happy.wen im happy.ppl r sadd.hai.okk.dis does nt apply 2 all situations but most of e time lahh.i totally suck at cheerin ppl up lahh.but ya.

2 ALL WHO R SAD!!CHEER UP KKAYES!! (: DERE R LOADS OF PPL LOVIN U!!PPL WHO REALLY CARE ABT U!!SO YUPP.HOPE UR GT OVER IT SOON!!PICK URSELVES UP N MOVE ON!! (:

okk.i shall go n gt my sleep.i barely slept 9hrs altogether dis whole wk.haha.panda me *hopefully my panda eyes disappear tmr :D

thank you God 4 guidin me thru dis whole wk.w/o ur support.dis wk wuld b totally impossible.hopefully nxt week wuld b better.but sadly.most likely hp will b confiscated ): but oh well.i shall enjoy e wkns!! :D God.pls guide me 2 e right path.2 make e right decision.

# angel #

10:37 PM; iloveu Y

19 April 2007

RGGE is LOVE!!GOLD WIF HONOURS!!

yayy.syf totally rawked mann.gold wif honours!!haha.okk.shall blog abt it bit by bit (:

WELL DONE RAFFLES!! DOUBLE GOLD WIF HONOURS!!

WELL DONE SNGS TRAMP!! DOUBLE TRAMPIONS!!
sorry kelly but I STILL LOVE SNGS although u tink it ~~sux~~ I STILL TINK IT RAWKS!! <33!!

okk.so went woke up 1/2 hr late.haha.change into costume.put make-up blah blah den went 2 sch le lohh.went 2 pb rm 2 find zhenling 2 put tape on my shoes.but den she haven cm.so went 2 class.on e wae.saw xiner.lol.she actually wished me all e best.i was rather shocked.haha.smiled n thanked her (: nice nice xiner.haha.okk.so went 2 class.it was rather chaotic as dere was a bee flyin around.lol.THANKS 4 E ENCOURAGEMENTS N HUGS!! :D so went 2 j blk.i was like e last person 2 leave e blk.haha.tuned our strings n pracked once.went 2 e bus.yayy.yufang called 2 encourage us :D so ate chocs given by seniors.haha.so nicee.last min gd luck.zhenling n i were both rather sleepy.haha.so sian siann.nv talk muchh.

went SCH.ahhh.was rather nervous.took pics.wahh.my tape came out lohh.so in e end.heck care.wait so longg.haha.costumes of every schh r rather funny includin ours.most schs were black n red.if we took our last yr costume.we wuld b black n red too (: other schs gt so many xtra instruments bsides guitar lohh.den all same hairstyle.haha.soon.went 2 tunin rm.tuned guitar rather fast.had time 4 encouragements again (:

OUR MOST PRECIOUS 10 MINS FINALLY ARRIVED!OUR LIFE DEPENDS ON DAT 10 MINS XD ALL OUR EFFORTS ; OUR BLOOD ; OUR SWEAT ; ALL 4 DAT 10 MINS!!!!

so yupp.played rather well.haha.God gave me e strength 2 do so (: culd move wif my guitar n feel e music.yayy.every1 was like so into e pieces although we were rather nervous (: okk so finished playyin.pheww.teachers n instructors said it was great.even a principal frm dunnoe wad sch said dat our dynamic effect was great.haha.yayy.so went 2 listen 2 st anthony's performance.woww.nice mann.such an eye-opener.haha.den sadly had 2 go back 2 schh.

singin our syf pieces in e bus.haha.yayyy.eatin m&ms tooo :D ~~stop rollin ur eyes -.- hello? i was like so pissed at u.wadeva lah.do u even like care abt us?!~~ yupp.so went 2 change n ate.was rather late 4 mep but it didnt matter since it was mep practical n every1 was slackin (: so me n zhenling were so pissed.haha.i turned my pissness into sickness into happiness XD yayyy.okk.so chinese.teacher said i was into my daydreamin mode again.lol.sorryy i was rather sleepy.was tinkin over syf lohh.didnt really pay attention muchh.went wif teacher 2 staffrm.pei huiying mahh.

saw maria.she was tryin 2 mouth smth 2 me.but i juz culdnt gt it.damn funny lahh.she had no choice but 2 say she wanna go toilet.SHE TOLD ME WE GT GOLD WIF HONOURS!!!hahaha.i screamed n squeezed her hand.she was like 'dats my hand!' lol.zhenling was jumpin wif joy wen she told herr.haha.sorry maria!!hai u gt scolded in a sense.haha.so told huiying n my chi teacher.was rushin 2 find zhenling lahh.she had been lookin 4 me 4 like 40 mins le.haha.sorry gal!!yayyy.met her at e canteen.we screamed n hugged.GOLD WIF HONOURS!!WOOHOO!!wahh.kelly bluff me say silver lahh.luckily maria already told me it was GWH.or else i cryy ahh.haha.i was like practically 1 of e last 2 noee.went back 2 class.saw seniors.haha.dey didnt noe.so told dem dey so happy scream like siao (: den damn it lahh.lit/guitar teacher said frm upstairs. 'grace im goin 2 class now' -.- wth.n she went smwhere else.so diao lahh.

yayy.so priya.zhenling.me were screamin in class.we were like so high XD THANKS ALL WHO CONGRATULATED ME :D den she came in.started lessons.zhenling n me were hummin e tunes of our syf pices.den priya was like abit too loud lehh.hahaha.we took our RGGE pick n we were like starin at it.n bein hyperr.haha.zhenling kept sayin 'eh we gt GWH lehh' lol.funny her.dennnn OUR SENIORS N INSTRUCTOR CAME!!!WOOHOO!! ~~n u still didnt wanna let us off.wth.~~ but aniwaes.yayyy.hugged seniors.was close 2 tears lohh.but ren zhu le.lol.was so happy.yufang cried wen she knew we gt gwh.haha.thanked instructor.hes like so so nice.~~compared to u~~ CONGRATS 2 RI.ST ANTHONY.ANGLICAN HIGH 4 GETTIN GOLD WIF HONOURS!!ACSI 4 GETTIN GOLD!! n other schs dat i cannot rmb.lol.so went back 2 class 4 lessons.was still as hyperr.den suddenly.i started tearin.many thoughts flowed into my mind as e syf pieces replayed over n over again.tears juz rolled down my cheeks.lol.zhenling was like chill chill.so cutee.haha.priya n huiying were likee.ehh.okk or nt.thanks ppl!!but ya.im emo de mahh :D yupp.so dat was kinda my daee (:

GUITAR IS LOVE!! :D WELL DONE RGGE!!ALL OUR EFFORTS HV PAID OFF (: GUITAR RAWKS MAN!!THANK YOU INSTRUCTOR!!SENIORS!!FRENZ!!PPL WHO ENCOURAGED ME IN 1 WAY OR ANOTHER!! (:

hmm.still rmb wen i was still considerin whether 2 join track or guitar in sec 1.zhenling n me were e only 1s frm 103'06.i used 2 totally love guitar until it juz like died away.been goin l8ter n l8ter 4 guitar.been more slackk.i realised ive nv ever pracked ani pieces at hm xcept 4 my xam pieces last yr.hai.pathetic me.HOWEVER.I SHALL CHANGE (: i shall TRY 2 b on time 4 guitarr.nt b so slack.n learn 2 connect wif my guitar :D yayy.

thank you God 4 strengthenin me n allowin me 2 do well 4 syf :D thank you 4 lettin RGGE gt GOLD WIF HONOURS! (: w/o God.i wuld nt hv done it.seems like my week is gettin better n better.w/o God i wuld nt hv pulled thru dis wk.thank you God 4 makin my daes better n better :D

# sunshine #

10:57 PM; iloveu Y

18 April 2007

GO RGGE!!! <33!! TMRS E BIG DAE!! JIAYOU!!GOLD WIF HONOURS!! (:

haha.thanks nice nice seniors!!4 all e encouragements.little notes.pretty gifts!! (: WE WILL DO WELL!! haha.mep teachers actually cheered 4 us n said we improved loads mann.yayy.took grp photos n yuppp.it was funn.haha.wahh.my poor fingers 2dae suffer like siao.left hand - scratches frm i dunnoe where.n blisters on my 2nd.3rd n 4th finger.right hand - cut skin on 4th finger.chipped nail on 2nd finger.my fingertips r like freakin hard now.hai.but i guess ITS ALL WORTH IT (: yayy.guitar!1st time i felt connected 2 my guitar lohh.i culd actually like MOVE.haha.hope it will b e same tmr :D

lol.chinese teacher said dat i had a habit of daydreamin in class.yupp yupp i do.ive e habit of sleepin too!! (only 4 certain lessons) XD physics was okok lahh.i really felt like sleepin.haha.pe.rock climbin.blur blur me lahh.4gt 2 lock e gadge 4 belayin device.haha.luckily daphne didnt like fall or smth.sorry!!geog.was rushin thru e fa.wich i finally gave up on.our pt is gonna die.com studs.kinda slack.after dat went 2 kfc wif huiying.haha.saw a 'mad scientist'/'lion' dere.lol.luckily made it back in time.was 15mins late 4 guitar.oh well.she wasnt dere.she was like 1hr 45mins late.haha.yupp.dat was kinda my daee.

thank you God 4 guidin me thru 2dae.it was really funn n happy.dere were times wen i was close 2 tears.haha.dey were tears of both joy n sorrow.yupp :P im e emo gal.e crybaby.haha.but thank you God 4 showin me e wae.God will give me strength 4 tmrs performance!! (: we will shine like e stars in the nitesky :D

# treasure #

11:13 PM; iloveu Y

17 April 2007

okk.i shuld b chiongin my wk now.but ya.aiya.slack abit.so shall blog.lol. (: 2dae was much happier compared 2 ytd.thanks every1 who cheered me up n asked if i was okk!! (:

i guess God really helped me thru (: He made 2dae so much better than ytd.i guess it was all planned.i will juz hv 2 believe (: jieyings post really touched me.yupp.ive been attendin church ever since i was a little gal.all e bible teachings.all the inspirational verses.but over the yrs.i seem 2 b more distant frm God.dere was really 1 point in time whereby i really didnt wanna go 2 church.but God guided me back 2 the right path.yupp.now i enjoy goin 2 church (: although im still rather sleepy durin lessons.haha.i really hope 2 b drawn closer 2 God.it really comforts me 2 noe dat God loves me unconditionally.yupp.im really grateful that i was born in a Christian hm.God will always b dere 4 me! (:

okk.abt my dae ...

haha.slept rather late ytd.yupp.due 2 emotional breakdown as usual.so went 2 sch feelin super duper sleepy.fell asleep quite abit durin lit.thanks zhenling 4 always wakin me up.haha.pe was okok lahh.was rather siann.lazin around wif yvonne.lol.cute lahh she.eng was quite okk.teachers always cracks a few jokes here n dere.yupp.math was hai.ya.my math sux.haha.but 1st time i ask so many questions.cle was okok lahh.nid 2 go down 4 sl on sat.so every fridae ill b busyy now.haha.rs was free block since teacher was again nt in schh.

mabel n yu jin r so funnyy lahh.yu jins reaction time 2dae was abt 1 min.wich is like 300 times of an average person.cute lahh she.mabel can so serious de lohh.haha.funnyy.so rs was rather slack lahh.was crappin away most of e time.after sch.stayed back wif yu jin 4 a while.left my guitar in j blk den went n find geog teacher 4 consent form.yu jin says that im like so freakin informal wif teachers.haha.yupp.i so so agree wif dat.aiya.its a habit since young lahh.haha (: so went back 2 her class n we started talkin abt our classes.our pri schhs.yupp.cute lah she.use marker keep drawin on my hand.wanted 2 draw on my face smmore.tried 2 make me do bridge wif e duster.kelly used 2 do it everydae last yr.luckily she stopped le.lol.so stayed wif yu jin until 4 den went 4 guitar.

haiyo.wen ive valid xcuse den she nt dere.wen i dun hv valid xcuse 2 b late.she pian pian muz b dere.lol.okk.so prack as usual.crapped wif sheryl.she is rather scared of napfa.GO GAL!U CAN DO IT! (: haha.shes really nicee.was tellin me abt our rs teacher n her ss teacher.wahh.her ss teacher actually pons lessons n cms up wif stupid xcuses 4 every class.he evens claims dat hes frm diff unis.lol.funnyy.gracia.dora.ying jie asked if i was still sleepyy n sadd.haha.ying jie said ive a pancake face like hers.seriously we all dun understand.lol.during break.went n cheered seniors onn 4 2.4.haha.went 2 koi pond 2 prack.maria n grace r really really funny lahhh.dey sat bhind instructor.den dey keep lookin at me.we all wuld start laughin.soon i will like laugh out loud lahh.so i cannot look at instructor or else ill see dem n burst out laughin.so i was practically lookin all around xcept at himm.n reallyy.i wanted 2 LAUGH.lol.cute lah deyy.okk.so guitar ended.waited 4 daddy 2 pick me up.

wen daddy came.i kinda saw his 'im angry but i shall nt show it' face.haha.i knew immediately wad happened.he had received my hp bill.lol.2200 smses.hai.shall really cut down dis mnth.or else dere goes my hp.lol.here goes daddy wif his usual 'lectures'.i kinda like it lahh.like its real nicee.daddy does nt like scold me.but makes me look at things frm many diff angles.yupp.smhow.daddy always noes wad im tinkin.haha.

die lahh.haven pracked piano yt.tmr still hv syf prack.hai.i wan wkns!!syf is like e dae after tmr.GO RGGE!!!<333!!freaky.juz hopin dat i will do well n nt screw up on dat dae.

hai.changin seats tmr.smhow im gonna miss my seat.haha.thanks zhenling!!ur a very very nice table matee.always wakin me up wen i fall asleep.haha.always crappin wif me too (: thanks manee!!ur a very very nice table matee too.haha.always payin attention n fillin me in wif wad ive missed (: thanks huiying.priya.kangjie!!!ur r very very nice grp mates.haha.we seem 2 b e slackest grp.digressin.crappin.but yaa.its was really nice sittin wif u all!! (:

hopefully everything will blow over soon.e innocent.innocent.e guilty.guilty.hopefully e teachers can differentiate dat.yupp.by nxt wed.e verdict will be out ...

lifes complicated.so r ppl.smtimes i really wonder y do ive a brain.wuld i b happier w/o it.wuld i b happier if i were an eagle.a whale.or smth else.well.mayb i wuld.mayb i wuld nt.but God made me who im.so ill juz hv 2 accept it n move onn.deres always two sides 2 a coin.its juz how u look at it (:

# believe in urself #

11:58 AM; iloveu Y

16 April 2007

okk.dis can b considered 1 of my most memorable daes (: bcoz i didnt noe ur cared so much 4 me.reallyy.esp my seniors XD

now dat everythin has changed.well if u all hv a diff opinion of me.im sorryy.but its nt within my control aniwaes.so if u all wanna hate me.b my guest.

so yupp.slept at like 3.was rather sleepy lohh.culdnt really hold out durin lessons.kinda daydreamin most of the time (: tink i shuld hv an early nite.haha.

recess was kinda nice.thanks 2 melissa.u rawk man!!haha.i shall try nt 2 gt into animore trouble le (: so we were comparin rgs n sngs.sngs is like so much nicer.better.happier.haha.oh well.SNGS RAWKS!! XD

kinda broke down 2dae.haha.ren 4 1hr le.den culdnt help but let it all outt.haha.sorryy mabel n yu jin.tink i kinda scared ur wen i suddenly burst like that.thanks 4 comfortin me!!bumped into chloe while goin into lab 4 physics.thanks gal!!ill b strong (: yayy.zhenling.haha.always givin me such valuable advice! sorry kexin.i was emoin all thru physics.yupp.haha.

guitar.i was early lahh.so went 2 jiayou 203 4 5 items 1st b4 goin 4 guitar.silly zhenling 4gt her bottle.haha.so ya.i was emoin n was really very very tired.my eyes were like hot lahh.yupp.so u told me nt 2 fall asleep.well i didnt really take it 2 heart lahh.although i knew u were directin dat rite at me.haha.i guess every1 culd see dat i was down.yupp.so was really very sian durin guitar.although i tried my best 2 stay happy (: thanks zhenling 4 tryin 2 cheer me up!!

so after guitar.was waitin at e foyer 4 my daddy.SENIORS RAWK MAN!!haha.amanda.gracia.dora.asked if i was okk.n dat she was rather harsh juz now.haha.so i shuldnt take her words 2 heart.yupp.haha.n tried 2 cheer me up n stuff.lol.amanda was playin her happy tree frenz sadistic game n asked if i wanted 2 vent my emotions on it.lol.priscilla n wen yan r so cute.haha.yupp.so dats abt it.hai.e pile of hw nxt to me ...

cant wait 4 dis wk 2 end mann.im so lookin 4ward 2 e wkns.haha.yupp (:

okk.now 4 my heartfelt thanks (:
; zhenling . chloe . kelly . mabel . yu jin . kexin . brintha .
; amanda . ying jie . gracia . dora . debbie . jieying . melissa .
; wen yan . priscilla . liting . lavanya .
*sorryy if i left ur name out!*

THANKS EVERY1 WHO GAVE ME HUGS.ENCOURAGEMENT.ADVICE.U ALL RAWK!! (: LOVE YA!!

hopefully wif God's help.ill b able 2 pull thru dis wk (: ill stay strong!hopefully everythin will turn out fine.God will carry me thru! (:

# true colours #

8:23 PM; iloveu Y

08 April 2007

okk.i dun really feel like bloggin but i dunnoe y im here so ya.lol.okk.wadeva.aniwaes.loads of stuff happened dis week.dun really wanna blog abt dem.so ya.sm can b counted as e worst daes of my life.dat xplains all e emo-in n stuff.

THANKS EVERY1 WHO MADE ME STAND UP AGAIN (:

okk.so went to church 2dae.dunnoe y.but e lesson seemed 2 b JUZ 4 ME.teacher taught us how 2 face problems n difficulties wif courage n bring everythin to God.so once we reached a level of maturity.we will b able 2 accept n face e different problems in life.at a higher level.we will b able 2 embrace adversity wif joy.hai.hopefully 1 dae ill b able 2 face it.im really tryin.but 2 accept it wif joy.i really doubt so.

well.so i shall FACE all my problems wif COURAGE.~~hopefully.~~really hope everythin will turn out fine.i really dread tmr.juz hope it turns out okk.i shall try 2 control my emotions.haha.sadly im nt sittin nxt 2 zhenling le.less crappin.less encouragement.more sleepin.lol.like zhenling says 'its okay!' haha.thanks gal!! (: shuld notice her dn.always very meaninful de! XD

hmm.smhow im always crappin durin math olympiad.wif my 2 dear dear frenz.haha.yu jin n mabel.i wan 2 go 2 math olympiad bcoz of dem de lohh.dey always make e session so much more funn (: thank you!!although im always bein bullied.haha.but its still so fun lohh.like e whole class so serious.doin math n stuff.while we r at e back laughin away.yu jins always tryin 2 listen but ends up crappin wif us instead.lol.wahh.mabel pro lohh.dun listen also can understand de.me leh.most pathetic de.haha.coz i cannot understand mahhh.so dun pay attention lohhh.yupp.

still hv quite abit of hw left 2 do.im cao cao sleepy lahh.hai.oh well.MUZ STAY HAPPY!! (:

'dere will always b a rainbow after e rain'

'dere will always b sunshine after e rain'

'wen 1 door closes another will open'

'every end is a new beginnin'

# real courage #

1:45 PM; iloveu Y

04 April 2007

I SO HATE MY DAMN FUCKIN BLOODY SUCKY LIFE

#sorry#

5:15 PM; iloveu Y