SCAR ON MY HEART

(my 200th post :D )

went 2 sch 4 math olympid comp.stupid rite.haha.was kinda on time lahh.sat wif yu jin n mabel.was crappin wif dem.i tink we kinda made loads of noise.haha.yu jin was complainin abt nt havin a ruler.den she borrowed mabels 'shaved' 1.LOL.it was less den 1/2 a ruler.okk.so e comp duh was hard.haha.so i was practically stonin thruout lahh.dunnoe how 2 do wadd.dayydream.abt stupid stuff den left 10 mins.haha.i wrote out e lyrics of 'ABOVE ALL' coz it kept playin in my heart.den i drew HEARTS n STARS.so me rite.haha.yupp.juz nice.times up.den yu jin started crushin her used paper n throwin at me lahh.lol.so ya.kinda had a 'paper fight' in dat sense.oh well.we were right at e back so din really matter.after dat.was tinkin whether 2 take mrt or bus hm.wahh.yu jin kept tryin 2 push me lahh.den i nearly landed on e rd.so i was screamin loads.lol.so maluatin lahh.she din wanna let me go take mrt.so kept draggin me.my gosh.MALUATIN LIKE SIAO.hoy saw.den walked over n talked 2 us.lol.finally i manage 2 cross e rd after like 3 traffic lights hv passed.haha.

took mrt 2 amk.went 2 amk hub or smth like dat.haha.been dere quite a few times but haven really like walked around.so ya.bought ice cream.haha.dat was my lunch.i din even eat breakfast.aiya.it was quite nice lahh.e shops dere r quite okk.haha.bus stops dere 2.found e shirt i wanted but nt my colour.tried it onn.okok lahh.but nt very worth e price lehh.so still considerin ba.wahhh.how cm ppl always ask me 4 directions de lohh.haha.walkin around dere already gt 2 ppl ask me 4 directions.lol.almost took mrt 2 marina bayy.haha.i always seem 2 go 2 e wrong place in amk mrt.so took mrt 2 yck.change bus.go hm le lohh.sian lahh.

went hm.mummy was like 'u wanna go cut ur hair' haha.so she asked me 2 pick either 2dae or friday.aiya.might as well 2dae rite.so went 2 cut my hair lohh.its kinda short noww.wif loads of layerin.dun gt a shock if u see me tmrwahhh.mummy actually allows me 2 put hair sprayy.at 1st i wanted 2 put colour.den he only hv e non-washable type.i was like oh shit.i gt 2 go back 2 sch every wk.cannott.haha.den e washable 1 dun hv nice colourss.so ya lohh.if i can find nice colour wann.den i buy lohh XD dun freak out if u see me wif a purple streak of hair horr :D lol.I STILL WANNA REBOND MY HAIR.ARGH.mummy was like 'if u can gt 3.6 overall.i let u rebond' nuts rite.i rather nt.haha.

so went 2 grandmothers house.hannahs so cute lahh.small little gal runnin around.haha.kinda lazed around.sian sian de.ate dinner.watched abit of tv.chatted awhile.haha.ya.dats abt it.yayy.goin out 4 lunch on fri.haha.

hai.collectin report bk tmr.like duh im gonna cry.shitty results

thank you God for carrying me through.You are Above All.

shape of my heart - backstreet boys

hmm yeah yeah

baby please try to forgive me
stay here don't put out the glow

hold me now don't bother if
every minute it makes me weaker
you can save me from the man
that i've become oh yeah

lookin' back on the things i've done
i was tryin' to be someone
i played my part kept you in the dark
now let me show you the shape of my heart

sadness is beautiful loneliness is tragical
so help me i can't win this war oh no
touch me now don't bother if
every second it makes me weaker
you can save me from the man i've become

lookin' back on the things i've done
i was tryin' to be someone
i played my part kept you in the dark
now let me show you the shape of my heart

i'm here with my confesion
got nothing to hide no more
i dont know where to start
but to show you the shape of my heart

im lookin' back on things i've done
i never wanna play the same old part
i'll keep you in the dark
now let me show you the shape of my heart

lookin' back on the things i've done
i was tryin' to be someone
i played my part kept you in the dark
now let me show you the shape of my heart

lookin' back on the things i've done
i was tryin' to be someone
i played my part kept you in the dark
now let me show you the shape of my heart

show you the shape of my heart

that very feelin.

# illusion #

8:54 PM; iloveu Y

GIVE ME A BREAK.

i shuldnt b typin dis but ya.i nid 2 VENT IT OUT.b4 i XPLODE.

like heyy.did u ppl realise.IM A HUMAN TOO.i nid love.care.concern.nt dat u all dun nid.but ya.smtimes i dun really show wad i feel on my face.but denn.do ur like care.no.all ur do is juz BOMBARD ME wif UR TROUBLES.okk.nt really troubles.but in a wae ya.like PLS LAH.r ur tryin 2 change e wae i look at ppl.

EVERY1 LIKE TELLIN ME DIFF STORIES OF OTHER PPL 4 I DUNNOE WAD REASON.guess its diff perspectives.but DAMN IRRITATIN can.UR EITHER TELL ME DIFF THINGS.OR TELL ME THINGS INDIRECTLY.OR TELL ME 1/2WAE.WAH LAO.IM NT A GENIUS OKK.I CANT READ UR MINDS.

my gosh.yy e hell m i sayin all dese.

oh well.but can ur try 2 tink frm MY perspective.MY FRENZ ya noe.U ALL R.yt ur tellin me ALL E DAMN stuff abt each other.wad do ur xpect me 2 sayy.u cant xpect me 2 like SPLIT myself into so many parts rite.yy does dis hv 2 repeat every yr.hai.yy cant every1 b like FRENZ wif each otherr.e reality of e ugly world i suppose.

so ya.if ur eva read dis.dun b offended nt ur still can like tell me lahh.but ya.its juz MY PERSPECTIVE of stuff.although ur wun really care.

e realityy of e uglyy worldd.

# incomplete #

5:53 PM; iloveu Y

LOL.

so went 4 guitar prac 2dae.was supposed 2 wake up at 7.in e end.woke up at 745.lol.was only abt 5 mins late 4 guitarr (: so guitar was kinda okk lahh.i still dun like our concert piece.so freakin hard 2 playy.siann.luckily gt zhenling 2 crap to.haha.went 4 break.ate my breakfast.koped cheryls food.went back 2 guitar.abit de borin rite.

went 4 lunchh.ate kfc.was dere wif cheryl n guitar juniors.lazy 2 name all.haha.WE WERE LIKE A TOTAL DISGRACE.SCREAMIN E KFC DOWN.hahaha.all thanks 2 CHERYL KOH.she seriously has eatin probs.i was sittin bside her smmore.she can spit out mash potato.milo.wadeva she was eatin.lol.den i wanted 2 xchange seats wif mary.she grabbed my hand wich was holdin e pepsi.guess wad.it spilled.so e 2 GRACES SCREAMED.lol.both very high pitched de mahh.so ya.dat sent e ENTIRE KFC into SILENCE.my goshh.hahaha.juniors were so scared of cheryl dey rushed 2 e basement of far east plaza.leavin poor me dere 2 eat wif cheryl.lol.cheryl went 2 collect her green nike bottle while i finish my food.cheryl wanted 2 buy fried mars bars.so went wif her.met juniors dere.dey were like so scared of cheryl.lol.den brought dem 2 take neos.MY GOSH.DERE R SERIOUSLY FUNNY LAH.we were screamin n runnin around like total idiots.hahaha.so yuppp.took neos.lazy 2 scan dem here.denn we were late 4 guitar.cheryl left her fried mars bars dere.JUNIORS CHIONGED OUT OF FAR EAST.RAN ALL E WAY 2 E BUS STOP.damn funny lahh dey all.nv late b4 lahh.so me n cheryl strolled dere.hahaha.e bus still haven cm.after dat.gt off e bus.DEY CHIONGED AGAIN.until i had 2 SCREAM 'STOP!!!!WALK!!W-A-L-K!!' LOL.so ya.walked back.saw zhenling on e wae.haha.aiya.teachers also nv sayy anithin.dey were like HENG AH.lol.FUNNY JUNIORS.

so went back 2 guitar.played sm nice nice pieces.i tink lesson pieces r much nicer den concert pieces lohhh.lol.oh well.crapped smmore wif zhenling.den went 2 find juniors 2 distribute neos.guitar teacher was like so interested in dem lahh.like kept askin where u take ahh.wen u take ahh.lol.weird.so after dat.took mrt hm.haha.walked wif zhenling 2 e bus stop.saw jeannette dere too.hung around in far east 4 a while.den went 2 j8 2 gt my hp cover.how stupid of me 2 buy a cracked cover -.- den went hm le lohh.

tmr skippin guitar 4 math olympiad compeition thingy.i shall take dat time 2 sleep ya.dats abt it.

i still hv dis PILE of UNDONE HW.hai.

u nv seem to notice.

# only one #

5:36 PM; iloveu Y

BEAUTIFUL LIES

went 2 church.haha.I CANNOT COMPLAIN.MUZ LEARN TO COUNT MY BLESSINGS (: lol.in times of troubles.HAVE FAITH IN GOD FOR HE WILL CARRY YOU THROUGH (: yaa.dats kinda e summaryy.thank you God for all that you have done for me.wen will u eva stop avoidin it

had lunch at subwayy.amk hub.no badd lahh.haha.was really really pissed decided 2 go shoppin :D daddy agreed.lol.yayy.so went hm.packed my rm.kena scolded daddy drove me 2 yck n told me 2 b back by 6.wahh.only had 3 hrs.

lol.still haven decided where 2 go.so in e end tot aiya.bugis lahh.E MRT IS LIKE DAMN SCARYY.juz 2dae.i hv witnessed 2 ppl bein like SQUASHED wen e door closes.haha.nt really squashed lahh.but dey r like 1/2 in 1/2 outt.den ppl had 2 like PULL dem out.haiyoo.aniwaes.went 2 bugis.bought daddys gift frm dere.haha.i tink i used up quite abit of my callin mins.lol.called like siao 2dae.called joyce n ashleyy loads of timess.haha.den called my cuzzies.spoke 2 3 of dem at once.haha.YAYYY.GOIN OUT ON THURS WIF DEM :D GALZ ONLYY.WATCHIN PIRATES OF E CARRIBBEAN N SHOPPIN FRM MORNIN TILL EVENIN :D YAYYY.hahaha.okk.im siao.I LOVE SHOPPIN LOADS :D okk.so took mrt 2 orchard.walked 2 far east.went 2 bus stop n 77th street.HAD 2 SHIRTS FRM DERE DAT I LOVE.N GUESS WAD.NO MORE.HMPHH ): stupid stupid stupid.i shuld hv bought last time lahhh.ARGHHH.oh well.in e end.bought another bus stop shirt.I SHALL GO BACK 2 FAR EAST 4 MORE SHIRTS :D hahaha.at dis rate.ILL B BROKE.hai.ANI1 WANNA SPONSER ME X) so after dat took mrt hm le lohh.was on time 4 once (: dats abt it ba.

LOOKIN 4WARD 2 THURS.collectin results on wed.i noe it will b damn bad so oh well.THURS IS 4 ME 2 CHILL OUT :D

i noe deres LOADS of HW but juz cant seem 2 rmb or rather i choose nt 2 rmb haha.oh well.i shall slack 4 e rest of 2nite.deres still GUITAR tmr 4 DAMN LONG.hai.I CANT WAIT FOR THURS.

is it all juz self-deception.

# longing #

7:29 PM; iloveu Y

LOVE FOR SHOPPIN FOOD :D

haha.played guitar until quite late.i was like OH SHIT.im gonna b LATE AGAIN.im LATE 4 EVERYTHINso hurry bathe change.daddy sent me 2 yck.almost took mrt 2 marina bayy.haha.luckily realised in time.so took mrt 2 jurong east.den on e wayy.mabel smsed me sayin she will b late.haha.phew.im nt e only 1.den by e time i reached dere.I WAS 1ST.how amazing.like 4 once lahh.so walked around jurong entertainment centre or smth like dat.IM BROKE.so cannot buy anithin.haha.I WANNA GO ARCADE.I WANNA TAKE NEOS.hahaha.

soon yu jin came.so went wif her up 2 e libraryy.picked a nice corner.she was like splashin water at me n takin pics of me lahh.we were both laughin like siao.haha.sian sian.soon mabel n kelly came wif french fries.so while we were eatin french fries.we were really LOL.alot of unwanted attention lahh.LAUGHIN OUT LOUD LIKE TOTALLY.hahaha.damn funny lahh.yu jin n her saliva.she n her ghosts.kfc mann.blah blah blah.haha.mabel was like.if u blow into graceys earrins horr.sure gt bubbles de.LOL.so ya.our entire rs meetin was filled wif spastic laughters.YAYYY.finished earlyy.abt 8+.

so yupp.walked 2 jurong east mrt.walked thru e pasar malam (dunnoe how 2 spell) lol.ITS BEEN A DAMN LONG TIME EVER SINCE I WENT DERE.dats e bad thing wen u stay in a terrace.haha.u dun gt 2 enjoy dese stuff.so culdnt resist all e food.spent $4.i had barely ani $$ left.bought chicken hotdog waffle.taiwanese sausage (AHEM KELLY) chocolate tutu kueh.hahaha.YUMMYY FOOD (: so yu jin n mabel left 1st since kelly n me were sittin down enjoyin our nice foodd.hahaha.KELLY TSENG.U ARENT SO INNOCENT AFTER ALL X) LOL.damnn funny lahh.i was laughin like SIAO.really really siao.accordin 2 kelly.i was laughin like a HYENA -.- aniwaes.it really attracted UNWANTED ATTENTION.ppl walk past n STARE.coz of dose damn stupid sick jokes.hahaha.

took mrt back.WE SAW A GAY.like REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY GAY.he SITS.SPEAKS.STANDS XACTLY like a GAY.hahaha.kelly was observin how he crosses his legs like me.lol.KELLY has more DETAILS.haha.so went 2 j8.walked around.abit de borin lahh.coz shops were like closin.den met dat kinda donation thingy again.haha.I RMB MY LESSON MAN.ONCE BITTEN TWICE SHY X) lol.KELLY has more DETAILS as well.so ya lohh.took mrt back.change bus ya.walked e long wae again.

I JUZ LOVE E STARRY NITE SKY :D

thank you God for letting me start off the holidays with much joy and laughter (: hopefully this holiday would be a fruitful one.

the ignorance of you.

# silence #

10:41 PM; iloveu Y

FATE or DESTINY

yayy.I LOVE MY GUITAR (: haha.was playin ABOVE ALL n I WILL WAIT FOR YOU e whole of last nitee.kena scolded like siao haha.BOTH SONGS R SO SO NICE LOHH :D mummy tinks i treat e house like a pub at e rate i blast my music -.-

haha.so went 4 open house 2dae.daddy dropped me off at bishan mrt.wahlao.i HATE wearin sch u sch related clothin 2 sch lahh.lol.every1 will like SCAN u frm HEAD 2 TOE.hai.haha.aniwaes.reached sch juz on time.guitar booth was kinda dead.juniors damn cute lahh.haha.JUNIORS RAWK!!so was kinda sian.walked around rgs.was kinda LEGAL 2dae.haha.i dun wan animore bookins mann.saw huiying.jiayi.seryee.cheowying.yinghui.daphne.brintha.huiqing.kelly.yunshu. yuxi.blah blah blah.alot lahh.haha.went 2 mep booth.lol.nxt 2 pe booth again.juz dat dis yr pe booth gt nth 2 playy wif.last yr damn fun n funny lahh.haha.

went back 2 guitar booth.slacked a while.grace.mary.anna.were makin stickers.nice nicee.haha.so debbie.zhengpei.valerie.yingjie.dora.gracia.haha.came.den played e guitar wif zhengpei.YAYY.so damn fun lahh.den after dat let valerie playy.so i went 2 gt another guitar wif mary.wahh.she run like siao lahhh.lol.borrowed doras guitar.played wif zhengpei n valerie.soon.anna.shiyin.ying yun came alongg.yayy.played loads n loads of songss.wif diff guitar strummin techniques coz every1 strum differently mahh.so nice lohhh.haha.wahh.i play until my fingers also pain liao.so yupp.guitar booth bcm more lively.wasnt so borin animore.played.SYF PIECES.QING TIAN.CANON IN C.LIAN AI ING.TONG HUA.DANG NI GU DAN.ZEN ME BAN.hahaha.alot lahh.valerie was like 'ehh.zhengpei.y u always use same c major chords de' hahaha.easier 4 us also.wahhh.still cannot play HAVE A NICE DAY.HERE WITHOUT YOU.hahaha.i cannot change chords n notes so fast ): den valerie tried teachin us BIAN HAO 89757.lol.gave up mann.yupp.so fun lohh.but my poor fingers.

haha.play until overshot time.die.supposed 2 reach yck at 1230.i reached far east at 1225.so called daddy.told him i culdnt make it.kena scolded again.haha.so i was 2 settle my own lunch n b at yck by 1415.walked along orchard.lol.was smsin juowi.den we realised dat we were walkin in e same direction juz on opp sides of e rd.haha.decided 2 eat macs.sian lahh.haha.so finished eatin.brought my coke along n walked along orchard again.lol.was walkin past paragon.den saw rgs ppl in front.dunnoe whether pit or prefect or wadeva.i was very very bookable mahh.hahaha.so i waited 4 dem 2 cross 1st.stood dere like sm dummy.lol.den juowi walked past wif his frenz.'e look of recognition' - kelly.haha.so ya.we kinda recognised each other.den confirmed it later on.haha.walked around in heeren 4 a while.hai.shoppin sux wen ur broke.lol.decided 2 b a guai gal n reach yck early.so walked 2 somerset mrt.reached yck at 2.daddy also reached early.so ya lohh.go hm le.

wahh.later still gt rs at jurong regional library or smth like dat.lol.my sat is gone juz like dat.haha.i seem 2 meet ppl whereeva i go lohhh.lol.siann.I WANNA GO OUT!!

haha.shall gt back 2 playin my guitar :D

were dey juz mere coincidences.

# e reason #

3:31 PM; iloveu Y

& dancer within

its juz so amazing how songs can make u smile.cryy.laugh.e beautiful lyrics wich flood ur mind wif memories of e past.inspirational lyrics wich encourage us to move on.pick up frm where we hv fallen.beats n rhythm dat juz makes us wanna dance to the music.catchy tunes wich makes us sing along.a piece of music is really hard 2 compose.a beautiful piece of music wich remains etched in our hearts takes even more time.2 achieve dis.E MUSIC MUZ CM FRM THE HEART.E EMOTIONS FRM WITHIN.nt many ppl can actually achieve dis.HEAVENLY MUSIC IS HARD TO CM BY :D

above all - lenny leblanc

above all powers above all kings
above all nature and all created things
above all wisdom and all the ways of man
you were here before the world began

above all kingdoms above all thrones
above all wonders the world has ever known
above all wealth and treasures of the earth
there's no way to measure what you're worth

crucified
laid behind a stone
you lived to die
rejected and alone
like a rose
trampled on the ground
you took the fall
and thought of me
above all

above all powers above all kings
above all nature and all created things
above all wisdom and all the ways of man
you were here before the world began

above all kingdoms above all thrones
above all wonders the world has ever known
above all wealth and treasures of the earth
there's no way to measure what you're worth

crucified
laid behind a stone
you lived to die
rejected and alone
like a rose
trampled on the ground
you took the fall
and thought of me
above all

like a rose
trampled on the ground
you took the fall
and thought of me
above all

dis song really touched my heart (: ya.i teared Gods unconditional love towards me.His mercy and His grace.the blessings that he showers upon me.Thank You Lord for all that you have done for me.

# bliss solitude #

8:46 PM; iloveu Y

HOLZ AT LAST :D nt xactly but ya

hai.damn busy dis holz lahh.once i figure out my hw.shall list dem at 1 by 1.lol.

tied SCORPION 2 sch 2dae.lol.e diff reactions ...

'ehh grace!!turn aroundd!!wahhh.nice nice mann.nt so bimb animore'
'wahhh.so rare harrr.much nicer now lohh.shuld tie dis more often'
'wahh.grace.ur hair really nice 2dae lehh'
'omg.ur hair sux.no e hairstyle sux.but looks gd on u'
'i still tink ur ponytail suits u better.now u look more matured.last time cuter'
'ehh grace.2dae how cm change hairstyle ahh'
'haha.wad did u do 2 ur hair'
'new hairstyle ehh.nt so bimb le'
'heyy.i like ur hair.so nicee'
'my goshh.how cm ur hair so long de.i tot it was very short wann'

LOL.n others dat i cant rmb lahh.okk.so i guess my scorpion kinda nice lahh.haha.re-tied it like 5+ times 2dae.gts lose easily mahh.smmore my hair layered.so ya lohh.i still hate my hair gonna cut it soonn.i still wanna rebond oh well.woke up early 2dae.so instead of my usual high bimbponytail.i tied scorpion.aniwaes.after i cut my hair again.sure cannot tie de.haha.so yupp.went 2 sch wif scorpion lohh.den whole dae gt all e funny reactions lohhh.

last dae sittin wif my grp (: hai.dun wanna change seats mann.haha.

so e whole mornin i was seein teachers.hai.saw 3 teachers in total.haha.always kena trouble de.lol.okk.so saw my lit teacher 1st.saw me random questions.gt dose stupid awkward silences.I HATE AWKWARD SILENCES.haha.den saw e hod (i tink) 4 like 1+hr.in e place where i had my dsa interview.fond memories of e past.lol.cried yt againhaha.she said dat i was rather honest.all e bad things all admit chu lai.lol.wahhlao.she use damn chim eng lahh.den i kept givin her e blank look.had 2 keep askin her wad she meant.haha.maluatin.duhh.i failed my eng wadd.okk.

so went 4 chi.i guess sm ppl culd tell dat i cried n knew where i went lah.hai.yayy.managed 2 finish compo after sch.haha.i tink our chi teacher is really nicee.

eng.borrowed e bk 'ugly' frm yu jin in e mornin.coz as usual i 4gt 2 bring a storybk.den priya tell me my form teacher was lookin 4 me urgently.hai.saw 2 teachers straight.n now yt another 1.so tried 2 look 4 her.cannot find.i bumped into my ex hist teacher again.saw him at 1st at e go.he saw me sittin wif my lit teacher den gave me dat 'HUH' blur look.lol.den saw me again.'u gt no class ahh' blah blah blah.lol.din really wanna go back 2 class.so went toilet re-tie my scorpion.den saw huiying.haha.GET WELL SOON GAL!! wahh.now so many ppl fallin sick.so yaa.den went back 2 class.

geog.was erm rather slack.used e time 2 write my chi compo.2 crapp.haha.yaa.supposed 2 do sm project on e nile thingyy.wahh.like seriously.deres loads of hww.so ya.geog was relaxin timee (:

went 2 meet my form teacherr.wahhh.guess wad.MATH REMEDIAL.goshh.i really nv eva tot i wuld land up in dat hai.gt dis entire stack of math questions 2 do.ANI1 WANNA HELP ME?!?! lol.

physics.haha.quiz sure flunk again de.din even understand wad dey were askin.did sm wks thingyy.kinda borin lahh.abit slack coz gt 2 crapp.haha.

com studs.was supposed 2 tink of emo lines.hahaha.all wrong context de.sorry lahh.ITS JUZ ME :D so ya lohh.all e emo emo stuff.lol.dat was abt it lahh.

after schh.met mep teacher.wahh.mep pt smmore.hai.my HOLZ is GONE.finished up chi compo.den went 2 put in teachers locker.took mrt.saw yinghui.yvonne.ser gin at e bus stop.damn funny lahh deyy.haha.decided 2 b xtra illegal 2dae.LAST DAE OF SCH MAH :D heehee.luckily din see ani pits.prefects.bought PEPPERMINT CHOC ICE CREAM :D LOVE IT LOADS!! haha.its been a long time eva since i ate it le.still rmb i used 2 sneak eat it wif joyce.coz mummy dun allow.but we still hurry finish eatin b4 goin hm X) so missed 1 265.took e nxt.haha.juz after i finish eatin.den it came (:

yayy.so here im.SLACKIN.its de last dae of sch ITS E START OF MY DOOM HOLZ.

thank you God for guiding me through these 6 mnths of my sec 2 year (:

RANDOM STUFF (:

MY FAV 6 WORDS (203 ppl shuld noe wad dis is) GRACE ; LOVE ; DREAM ; FREEDOM ; MUSIC ; SKY :D

yayy.love e colour of e sky lohhh.damn nice cann.esp in e mornin.afternoon also nt bad lahh.at nite only can see e stars n moon (: e colours blend so well lohhh.haha.

my hair is damn curly now.like maggie noodles like dat.lol.

wonder wad will happen if i put BODY TATTOOS.DYE MY HAIR.PIERCE ANOTHER EARHOLE :D nice mann.hahaha.i tink every1 wuld FREAK OUT if i go out wif dem like dat.i dun tink i even hv time 2 go out ):

MY HOLZ R TOTALLY PACKED ): I WANNA GO OUT!!!!LOADS OF STUFF 2 DO.LOADS OF STUFF 2 BUY.hai.deres no such thing as holz in rgs

hai.tmr still gt open house.after dat still gt rs meetin.sats gone le.

my hair is straighter at e top.but den 'stickin out' loads at e ends.hahaha.

i nv seem 2 figure out wads goin thru ur mind.

i do anything - simple plan

another day is going by
i'm thinking about you all the time
but you're out there
and i'm here waiting

and i wrote this letter in my head
cuz so many things were left unsaid
but now you're gone
and i can't think straight

this could be the one last chance
to make you understand

i'd do anything
just to hold you in my arms
to try to make you laugh
cuz somehow i can't put you in the past
i'd do anything
just to fall asleep with you
will you remember me
cuz I know
i won't forget you

together we broke all the rules
dreaming of dropping out of school
and leave this place
to never come back

so now maybe after all these years
if you miss me have no fear
i'll be here
i'll be waiting

this could be the one last chance to make you understand
and i just can't let you leave me once again

i'd do anything
just to hold you in my arms
to try to make you laugh
cuz somehow i can't put you in the past
i'd do anything
just to fall asleep with you
will you remember me
cuz i know
i won't forget you

i close my eyes
and all i see is you
i close my eyes
i try to sleep
i can't forget you
nanana (....)
and i'd do anything for you
nanana (....)

i'd do anything
just to hold you in my arms
to try to make you laugh
cuz somehow i can't put you in the past
i'd do anything
just to fall asleep with you
will you remember me
cuz I knowI won't forget you

i'd do anything
to fall asleep with you
i'd do anything
there's nothing i won't do
i'd do anything
to fall asleep with you
i'd do anything
cuz i know
i won't forget you

LOVE DIS SONG (:

keep ur hands off my gal guyy.

# disconnected #

5:56 PM; iloveu Y

TIME FLIES

yupp.almost 1/2 my sec 2 yr is gone le.6 mnths full of xtreme ups n downs.6 mnths filled wif tears of sorrow.tears of joyy.6 mnths full of laughs n smiles.6 mnths filled wif hugs n love.my sec 2 life in rgs is.hai.smth dat cant b describe wif words.etched in my mind.e memories of dis yr.

i guess dis is e yr whereby i shed e most tears ba.e painful xperiences wich ive gone thru.my frenz who hv always stood by me.ive grown.matured but yt its still nt enuff.my grades r still droppin.like shit zhenling asked me.hv i eva tried my best.like my really really best.nope.i hv nv done dat.nt in rgs.the spastic conversations.e laughs of joy frm within.e moments of breakdown.e times wen we had each other 2 lean on.

gosh.im tearin yt again

e times i sleep in class.e times i land into trouble.e times wen i had private talks wif teachers.e times wen i crap during lessons.e times wen i emo durin lessons.

really really dun wanna change seats lohhh.I LOVE MY GRP N E PPL AROUND ME (: haha.DEY NV FAIL 2 PUT A SMILE ON MY FACE :D

memories of the past ; a scar on my heart

9:47 PM; iloveu Y

TEARS STREAMIN DOWN MY FACE

haha.no lahh.im nt emoin.its TEARS of JOY (:

kena scolded like siao lahh.but im still fine.lol.lessons 2dae were kinda borin.thanks 2 zhenling.qiqi.huiying.kangjie who made it super funnyy.manee din cm 2dae.mathh ahh.was as usual nt really payin attention.fallin asleep le haha.so yupp.wrote my lyrics stuff 2 keep me awake.mep was ermm.okok lahh.history was watchin jurassic park.crappin wif huiying at e back.lol.den did grpwk.yvonne.yinghui.daphne.huiying.me.haha.damn funny lahh.poor yvonne culdnt laugh.GET WELL SOON GAL!! (: harmony was rather xtreme.both happy n sad lahh.happy coz i was bein random n bo liao.i was drawin on huiyings armm.she was like.im gonna b BOOKED.so had 2 go wash off mahh.den we already went toilet once.so cannot go again.den she go say we were fightin den knock against e wall.gt bruise.LOL.so in e end went toilet.met our ex pe teacher.damn funny lahh she.hahaha.den after dat violin.SHIT.wahlao.she wan us play 1 by 1.n i totally sucked lahh.after finish playin den i teared.hai.wan me pluck like guitar can lahh.wan me 2 play usin bow.SHIT.lol.chi was writin compo lohhh.sian sian de.was practically laughin wif kangjie.huiying.zhenling.yayyy.MY GRP RAWKS!! :D lit was kinda okk.was supposed 2 read a bk.i ended up readin appreciatin poetry coz huiying took e harry potter bk i borrowed frm priya.zhenling was readin sm LOVE story ROMANCE bk.lol.luckily teacher 4gt dat i had 2 present XD

goin 2 go hm le.wahh.suay mann.BELT BROKE AGAIN.lol.so pinned my clip dere lohh.den damn lose lahh.nice nice zhenling lent me her ultrabig clip.yayy.thanks gal!! (: so ya.went hm le lohh.on e bus.sick yvonne was sleepin.haha.den i saw dis damn funny thing lahh.dis guy rite.dunnoe 4 wad reason.go sch also carry luggage de.so he put his luggage where ppl r supposed 2 stand lahh.den he go sit down.dis cute little innocent p5 (i tink) gal gt up e bus.she stood bside it.den kept starin at it.after a while.she go tell e bus driver smth.dunnoe wad lahh.den she went n picked up e luggage.e guy who was readin n listenin 2 his mp3 hurry go stop her.in e end.he stood nxt 2 his luggage.n e gal gt off.lol.e xpressions on deir faces damn funny lahh.

so teacher din say anithin abt e parents meetin thingy.so i tot nth lahh.reached hm den wahhh.teacher n mummy both called me at e sm time.lol.dey were all lookin 4 me.sorry lahh.so tmr.kena sai le lahh.nid 2 sign thingy tmr mornin.haha.i tink e teacher nt dat bad animore lahh.lol.

thank you God for all the great friends that i have (: they who always seem to put a smile on my face no matter how down i am.they who always stand by me.they who make me who i am.thank you God (:

I CAN SURVIVE TMR

THANK YOU 2 PPL WHO SILENTLY READ MY BLOG N ENCOURAGE ME! THANK YOU 4 ALL UR HUGS.ENCOURAGEMENTS.LOVE :D (zhenling.do NT b amused) LOL. (u all noe who ur rite) haha.REALLY REALLY TOUCHED (: THANK YOU!!!! LOVE UR LOADS (:

EMO GAL MOVIN ON :D

the art of falling in love.

# so sick of love songs #

4:37 PM; iloveu Y

UR MUSIC IS E REASON I LIVE :D

haha.like seriously lohh.wonder how ill eva live a life w/o music.

yayy.piano lessons nv fail 2 make me happier (: i realised dat 2 play a music MUSICALLY.lol.75% is based on ur feelings.only 25% is based on ur hard work.haha.my everchangin mood always seem 2 affect my pieces loads.so played my xam pieces n scales 2dae.barely pracked againas usual.scales sucked lahh.i hv nv liked dem since young.haha.so a:3.supposedly a very lively piece.i was bein rather emo 2dae.so e whole piece sounded totally weird.my teacher told me 2 tink abt e HAPPY stuff in my life.she went like 'JUNE HOLZ'.i was like 'erm.i barely hv anidae free in june' lol.so tot of e HAPPY moments in my life (: yayyy.for once a:3 sounded really really nice.haha.b:5.my emo piece.yaa.it rawked mann.coz i was emo mahh.lol.but den gt abit of changes 2 e pedal part coz i always like 2 hold my pedal dere 4 very long till i gt dat BLUR n DREAMY effect.lol.typical me.in e end.b:5 sounded really nice too :D c:2 was weird too.a fast piece.but den coz i was emo.so it sounded really heavy.haha.but after dat it was nt bad too (: yayyy.yupp.kinda proud of myself.haha.ego me.

MUSIC IS MY LIFE.

haha.im on my 4th sheet of fulscap.its like filled wif songs.lyrics.titles.emo phrases.blah blah blah (: really nice wayy of ventin my emotions.helps me 2 keep awake durin lessons too :D lol.

tmr = my doom dae.parents meetin principal hai.ATTITUDED.sadly i cant change dat fact.I DUN GIVE A DAMN.bad bad me.

i can survive e last 2 daes.i can.i can.i can.

random p6 stuff (:

holy spirit, be behind me to support me.
holy spirit, be in front of me to guide me.
holy spirit, be beside me to hold my hands.
holy spirit, be above me to grant me wisdom.
holy spirit, be within me to remind me never to give up and to live life fully.
holy spirit, give me a strong foundation in the values of the gospel

There is no need to worry. But if there is anything you need, pray for it. asking God for it with prayer and thanksgiving. And that peace of God which is so much greater than we can understand, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus.

-chij st nicholas girls school :D

yupp.sngs p6'05 wuld kinda recognise dis.haha.dis was given 2 us as an encouragement 4 psle.i still keep it in my wallet lohh.yupp.as a form of encouragement 4 myself (:

true frenship cms wen silence btween 2 ppl is comfortable.

leave get out - jojo

i've been waiting all day for ya babe
so won't cha come and sit and talk to me
and tell me how we're gonna be together always
hope you know that when it's late at night
i hold on to my pillow tight
and think of how you promised me forever
(i never thought that anyone)
could make me feel this way
(now that you're here boy all i want)
is just a chance to say

get out (leave) right now
it's the end of you and me
it's too late (now) and i can't wait for you to be gone
cause i know about her (who)
and i wonder (why) how i bought all the lies
you said that you would treat me right
but you was just a waste of time (waste of time)

tell me why you're looking so confused
when i'm the one who didn't know the truth
how could you ever be so cold
to go behind my back and call my friend
boy you must have gone and bumped your head
because you left her number on your phone
(so now after all is said and done)
maybe i'm the one to blame but
(to think that you could be the one)
well it didn't work out that way

get out (leave) right now
it's the end of you and me
it's too late (now) and i can't wait for you to be gone
cause i know about her (who)
and i wonder (why) how i bought all the lies
you said that you would treat me right
but you was just a waste of time (waste of time)

i wanted you right here with me but
i have no choice you've gotta leave
because my heart is breakin
with every word i'm sayin
i gave up everything i had
on something that just wouldn't last
but I refuse to cry
no tears will fall from these
eyeee-eeee-eeees
ooooh ooooh
get out

get out (leave) right now
it's the end of you and me
it's too late (now) and i can't wait for you to be gone
cause i know about her (who)
and i wonder (why) how i bought all the lies
you said that you would treat me right
but you was just a waste of time (waste of time)

get out (leave) right now
it's the end of you and me
it's too late (now) and i can't wait for you to be gone
cause i know about her (who)
and i wonder (why) how i bought all the lies
you said that you would treat me right
but you was just a waste of time (waste of time)

get out (leave) you and me
it's too late (too late) you ohh
bout her (who why)
you said that you would treat me right (noooo)
but it was just a waste of time (waste of time)
ohhhh oh oh oh oh ohhh

MY ALL TIME FAV :D

the gift of life is ever so precious.

# drifting away #

10:09 PM; iloveu Y

hai.was really really tired 2dae.all thanks 2 e breakdown ytd im quite okk now le lahh.juz abit down still.but overall ya lahh.hai.teachers seriously like 2 hv private talks wif me

GET OUT OF MY DAMN LIFE

thank you God for helping me to get rid of the 'sin' in my thoughts last night.thank you for helping me to move on and not making implusive actions.

perfect - simple plan

hey dad look at me
think back and talk to me
did i grow up according to plan?
and do you think i'm wasting my time
doing things i wanna do?

but it hurts when you disapprove all along
and now i try hard to make it
i just want to make you proud
i'm never gonna be good enough for you
i can't pretend that
i'm alright
and you can't change me

cuz we lost it all
nothing lasts forever
i'm sorry
i can't be perfect
now it's just too late and
we can't go back
i'm sorry
i can't be perfect

i try not to think
about the pain i feel inside
did you know you used to be my hero?
all the days you spent with me
now seem so far away
and it feels like you don't care anymore
and now I try hard to make it
i just want to make you proud
i'm never gonna be good enough for you
i can't stand another fight
and nothing's alright

cuz we lost it all
nothing lasts forever
i'm sorry
i can't be perfect
now it's just too late and
we can't go back
i'm sorry
i can't be perfect

nothing's gonna change the things that you said
nothing's gonna make this right again
please don't turn your back
i can't believe it's hard
just to talk to you
but you don't understand

cuz we lost it all
nothing lasts forever
i'm sorry
i can't be perfect
now it's just too late and
we can't go back
i'm sorry
i can't be perfect

cuz we lost it all
nothing lasts forever
i'm sorry
i can't be perfect
now it's just too late and
we can't go back
i'm sorry
i can't be perfect

ACE the RACE wif GRACE.

# lips of an angel #

5:42 PM; iloveu Y

Dear God,

Please give me the strength and the faith to trust in you. Knowing that you will never leave me nor forsake me, help me to believe that with you, i will pull through. Lord, you will never allow sufferings which are too hard for me to endure. This is just another chapter of my life. Another learning experience for me. Although it will be painful, and sometimes seem hopeless. Help me to always take comfort in your word. God, grant me the wisdom to control my emotions and actions and not letting it affect the people around me.

Teach me Thy Way oh Lord. Teach me Thy Way.

If God is for us. Who can be against us.

Amen.

# amazing grace #

11:08 PM; iloveu Y

IM AN EMO GAL

okk.dis post is gonna b emo.like really really emo.

tears juz seem 2 roll down my face

im like so damn confused now lahh.m i e gal dat i wanna b.compared 2 e sngs me.its totally 2 diff ppl lahh.e hardworkin n guai me.2 e pai n I DUN GIVE A DAMN gal.i now hv 3 betas.3 rtcs.1 2hr dc.1 meet e parents meetin.1 bookin.im nt surprised if i land up hvin 2 go 4 counsellin or mayb even b expelled hopefully i will dat may nt b such a bad thing afterall.

ive tried 2 b strong.ive tried 2 move on.it all aint workin.

no one ever understands.

like seriously lahh.who does man.

u.definetely nt.

ya.im like a total disgrace 2 u.u can like so DISOWN me.so b it lahh.hv u eva tried understandin me.no.nv eva.yes.u gv me all my material needs.but ya.dats it.i noe i hv like totally disappointed u.im sorry lah.u culd hv juz aborted me wadeva.

wth.my tears nv seem 2 stop.ive been cryin 4 so long.yt u dun even noe

deres juz like so much bottled inside.mayb its time i left dis damn world things dat juz cannot b xpressed.kept inside.its drivin me crazy.e scar on my heart juz nv heals.where r u wen i nid u most im over all ur stupid lies.

mayb SNGS wuld hv been a better place.

wth did i choose rgs.now ur blamin me frm goin dere.

smtimes ppl r juz so blind n sensitive.ya.includin u.cant u see me bleedin.is it so nt obvious.or r u juz pretendin u din see it.1 min u seem so close.yt e nxt ur so damn cold.wth is wrong wif u man.

its all too late.juz leave.gt out.leave me alone.wastin my life awayy.

shut e hell up will u.juz gt out of my damn life.

i guess ill nv understand life.its far too complicated beyond my imagination.

lost in e darkness ; no one truly understands

soon.ill leave dis ugly world where all my troubles will b gone.

i pray God that you will help me pull through this very difficult stage of mine.

e stars dat were shining so bright.all of a sudden.dey seem 2 hv disappeared.

my life has cm 2 an end.

# its over #

8:47 PM; iloveu Y

yayyy.IM A LUCKY GAL :D okk.mayb nt dat lucky

haha.so was rather sleepy 2dae.brought my new pouch 2 schh.haha (: wore my high socks.lol.den no assembly.haha.aniwaes.as usual.pits & prefects were lookin out 4 MY SOCKS -.- haha.oh well.shuld b quite pleased rite.im like such a guai gal nt okk.

pe was rather erm TIRIN.after dat 3 daes of shoppin.i was made 2 demonstrate by climbin on dat WEIRD but FUN rock wall.wahhh.climbed until i was really exhausted.but managed 2 gt 2 e 2nd 1.was SCREAMIN like siaoo.haha.SORRY!!kept fallin onto 2 crash mat.haha.its fun lahh.nt painful de :D yayy.oh ya.KELLY TSENG.im a GUITARIST.NT a GYMNAST.NT a DANCER.so ya.im nt dat FLEXIBLE unlike U.haha.so duhh.i cant do dose FUNNY FLEX stuff lahh.

chi was rather funny lahh.yayy.teachers so nicee.let us play sm game thingy.supposed 2 match e 'fan ti zi' 2 e chi words now.our grp was as usual 1st frm e BOTTOM :D ehhh.but we had like loads of funn lohh.LAUGHIN OUR HEADS OFF (: so had 2 go pick prize.yayy.i picked doritos :D so yupp.shared wif every1.nice nice mann.

lit was ermm.kinda borin.sorry lahh.but i was dozin off like usual.den suddenly zhenling was tellin me how our form teacher tink she distracts me.i tot it was more e other wae round lahh.den she said smth abt e teacher dat made me LOL.so like 1/2 e class turned n stared at me.oppss.haha.after dat.sadly.I WAS CALLED.how lucky is dat.VERY LUCKY :D coz i was SAVED by e BELL.haha.was supposed 2 present sm annotated thingy wich i totally didnt do.so ya.gotta present nxt wk.wahlao.she every lesson cm stand bhind me.like observin me like dat lahh.cannot sleep.cannot doodle.cannot talk.haiyoo.sad lifee.haha.

OKK.HERE CMS E DAMN FUNNY PART.I WAS LAUGHIN TILL I KINDA TEARED WEN I WAS BOOKED.AS IN I WAS LAUGHIN REALLY HARD LAH.

here goes ...

haha.coz my new pouch wadd.so every1 cm xplore lohhh.so zhenling.renci.priya.were xplorin my pouch.i had my medicine.my motorola v3i (wif my other smaller pouch).my wallet.tissue paper in my pouch.so dey poured everythin out lahh.priya knew my hp was onn.so she din touch e small pouch containin my other hp.renci was like.y din u put ur hp in here.haha.i juz kept quiet.so she opened e small pouch.she saw dat my hp was on.so she zipped it back.began xplorin smth else.LOL.FUNNY ZHENLING took my small pouch n opened it.

zhenling: ehh.u bring 2 hps 4 wad ahh.
me: dis 1 4 music mahh.
zhenling: ohh.(realises dat she can see e time on my hp)
me: (no dun open it.zhenling.dun open it.dun open it.)
zhenling: ermm grace (flips open my hp) OMG.
renci.priya: OMG.
grace: OMG. (starts jumpin up n down) oh shitt.
ALL START LAUGHIN LIKE LUNATICS.
qiqi: (still starin into space)
renci: (whispers 2 me) now i see y u keep ur other hp in ur pocket.haha.

LOL.so ya lahh.we were laughin like madd.while zhenling was bookin me lahh.'wad a unique xperience.4 e 1st time ur laughin wen ur booked.sure rmb 4 a lifetime' - renci.hahaha.so ya.we were talkin abt it non-stop durin hist.zhenling xpected me 2 snatch it back frm her since my hp was on.but i din.so she tot it was off lahh.lol.funny her lahh.aiya.its in a diff catergory aniwaes.so ya.now i hv 2 betas n 1 bookin.LOL.

history was YAMASHITA & PERCIVAL.lol.manee = mrs yamashita :D shes yamashitas 1st love ya see.lol.damn funny lahh.was laughin all way thru also.MANEE n HER LOVE!! (: okk.so by dis time qiqi already noes abt e hp incident.

qiqi: (opens big pouch) i see ahh.
grace: orhh.see lohh.i off le.haha.
qiqi: ehh.grace ahh.can i see ur hp.
grace: ermmm.u really wanna see ahh. (mouths e words 'its on')
qiqi: tsk tsk.
grace: haha.i show u durin lunch lahh.
qiqi: orhh.k lohh.

haha.yayy.so nice.dey both din double book me.haha.but damn funny lahh.now everytime i open my pouch i tink of dis.lol.

eng was SLACK.at e library.hai.i shall read spiked.sadlyy.i hv no choice but 2 read a book.so was crappin wif zhenling.qiqi.kelly.DAMN FUNNY CAN.WAS LAUGHIN THRUOUT E WHOLE THING LAHH.hahaha.2 listen 2 ppls life stories damn interestin de lohhh.lol.shuld hv dis more oftenn.hahaha.

went 4 guitar.was kinda siann lahh.my fingers already totally ache frm rock climbin.so no much energy 2 playy.haha.mean zhenling pon guitar 4 sm wkshop thingy.lol.had junior senior bondin.in a wae.wahhhh.GUITAR JUNIORS R DAMN CUTE N DAMN FUNNY LAHH.hahaha.but i dun rmb bein dat guai wen i was sec 1 X) okk.so had phototakin.wen yan was like carryin me lahh.my goshh.haha.as usual i was standin bside.YUP U GUESSED IT.TEO ZHENLING :D hahaha.im like stuck 2 her 4 everythin.WE STOOD BSIDE EACH OTHER 4 EVERY PHOTO EVA SINCE SEC 1.hahaha.until now.ITS STILL E SAME XD haha.den after phototakin.guitar/lit teacher spoke 2 me lahh.okk.shes isnt dat bad lahh.juz irritatin at times.n super duper borin.but overall kinda okk lahh.juz asked me 2 take it easy i so m lahh! and juz mug harder nxt term lohh.2 pull my grades back up.lol.went 4 break.no m&m ice cream so ate twisties n marshmallow :D haha.so ya lohh.guitar kinda ended late again lahh.

walked 2 e bus-stop opp rgs.saw my mortal gina.haha.damn cute lahh she.saw xinmin too.lol.took mrt back.ya.dat was abt it.reached hm le lohh.wahlao.my mum tot i go shoppin smmore.haiyoo.im like so nt guai lahh.lol.

wahhh.damn tired lohh.shall sleep early 2nite.gotta finish theory 1st.haha.

thank you God for making me so lucky and happy today (: its been a long time since i laugh so much in a day :D

I BELONG TO ME - jessica simpsoni

i belong to me...

it's not that i don't wanna share my life with you baby
it's just that i'm the one i need to be true to baby
and i won't give up me to be part of you
it's not that i don't wanna have you in my life baby
it's just you gotta know that it's got to be right baby
before i open up my heart to you

don't need somebody to complete me
i complete myself
nobody's got to belong to somebody else

i belong to me
i don't belong to you
my heart is my possession
i'll be my own reflection
i belong to me
i'm one not half of two
and if you're gonna love me
you should know this baby
i belong to me

i gotta let you know before i let you in baby
that who i am is not about who i am with baby
that don't mean i don't wanna be here with you
i do

i don't need somebody to complete me
i want you to know
i'll give up my love but i'm not giving up my soul

i belong to me
i don't belong to you
my heart is my possession
i'll be my own reflection
i belong to me
i'm one not half of two
and if you're gonna love me
you should know this baby
i belong to me

oh yea

love don't mean changing who you are to be
who somebody wants you to be
nobody's got to belong to nobody

i belong to me
i don't belong to you
my heart is my possession
i'll be my own reflection

i belong to me
i don't belong to you
my heart is my possession
i'll be my own reflection
i belong to me
i'm one not half of two
and if you're gonna love me
you should know this baby
i belong to me

LOVE DIS SONG LOADS MANN :D

i nv felt nth in e world like dis b4.

# y did u turn away #

9:30 PM; iloveu Y

MY LEGS R GONNA BREAK ...

wahh.slept late ytd.haha.finished math assignment.cannot study 4 physics quiz coz left stuff in sch wuld i study aniwaes lol.

went 2 church.lesson was rather encouragin.on how God parted e red sea.drowned e egyptians.etc.e very big diff btween darkness & light.christians & non-christians.haha.SING 4 E LORD WIF ALL THY HEART :D

'the Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.'

so went 4 lunch at vivocity.mummy picked e wrong restaurant lahh.peranakan food.haha.nt very nice lahh.i still prefer my WAFFLES WIF MAPLE SYRUP XD lunch was okok lahh.walked around vivo 4 abit.was supposed 2 go hm wif daddy n joyce.den i said i wanted 2 go bugis.mummy was like.u either go hm or u follow me.in e end follow her lohh.walked around vivo.saw a jacket like shirt frm gap.mummy said she wuld CONSIDER.hai.mummy asked me 2 look 4 nike/addidas shoes dat i like.now dun hv nice 1s de lohh.so i wanted a nike shoe bag.dat material sm as my puma bag.lol.mummy say wen she go new york den she buyy.okk lohh.asked me 2 choose a guess watch.dun hv nice 1s also.lol.walked around smmore.ashley wanted 2 go toy'r'us.no choice but 2 tag along.I STILL LIKE E GLITTERY FLOOR OF VIVO :D haha.so took mrt down 2 bugis.went 2 e wallet shop 2 gt my pouch.i saw another pouch dat i liked but mummy was so against it.dis was wad was written on both pouches (in my short form X) )

e 1 dat i gt : a gal is like a tea bag; u cant see how strong she is until u see her in hot water.i dun suffer frm insanity.i enjoy every minute of it.todae has been a total waste of make-up.sm women gt xcited abt nth and den marry him.

e 1 dat mummy was against : im nt a rulez kinda gal

LOL ritee.hai.i still prefer e other pouch.oh well dis 1 isnt dat bad also lahh.haha.went 2 buy ashley macs ice-crem den went 2 bhg wich was originally seiyu.walked around.ashley gt 2 shirts.i was kinda bored lahh.hello?!i was in a kids section ya noe.lol.but dey gt cute little stuff lah.haha.den after dat looked 4 joyces clothes.so mummy picked a green shirt 4 joyce.lol.no more white.i saw dis really nice surfers paradise shirt lahh.so asked mummy if i culd buy.den i saw another 1.mummy ask me go try den she see how.okk.so after dat she said okk.PICK 1.aww mann.both so nice lahh.i preferred e green 1.but den mummy n ashley said e pink 1 was nicer.aiya.both nt bad lahh.eventually went wif e pink 1.
took mrt 2 j8 again.lol.mummy wanted 2 buy her blouse frm dere.i had 2 go buy my hp case.coz it broke wen i accidentally dropped my hp ytd.lol.i picked a black transparent 1 n din noe lahh.so buy le.den had 2 go back n change.lol.too sleepy le lahh.had pizza 4 dinner (: nice nice.haha.so here im lohh.

thank you God for all the blessings that you have showered me with (:

yayy.e tot of no hw is so nice lahh.oh wait.i still hv theory.haha.oh well :D die lahh.tmr still gt rock climbin.my legs really no energy le lohh.hopefully i dun hv 2 climb tmr.

wahh.im such a spendthrift lahh.haha.mummy was calculatin how much she had spent 4 us dis 2 daes.me - $85+. joyce - $10+. ashley - $15+. LOL.wad a big diff.she was like.'all my daughters lehh.yet spend on u e most.see everythin also like.also muz buy' hahaha.nt my fault ritee.everythin is so nice de mahh XD if i add my neos.hp case.clips dat kinda thing.easily $100+ le.haha.in 3 daes.$100+.lol.ehhh.so sad lahh.in june horr.at 1st 6 daes free rite.now NO daes free lahh.wth.3 daes 4 rs.3 daes 4 sl.damn.hai.I SHALL PON SM.HECK CARE.I WAN 2 WATCH MOVIES N GO SHOPPIN!!!!arghh.so sickening.a 1 mnth hol wif no free daes.wad crap is dat lahh.goshh.

random & outdated pics (:

okk.shall upload learnin jouney pics in june :D

baby i will wait 4 u.

# complicated love #

10:07 PM; iloveu Y

unwanted attention

wahh.damn tired now.legs achin like siao.

okk.woke up at like 750 coz gt rs at 830.decided 2 b weird 2dae.so yupp.tried 2 mix n match weirdly X) was late by 15 mins.but kelly was later.haha.so decided 2 go 2 bishan library instead of bishan park instead :D yayy.bishan library so nice lahh.haha.1st time dere.aniwaes.it only opens at 10.was only 9.so sat outside n waited.was quite sian.so early in e mornin.haha.yu jin was doin funny stuff like pullin my shoelaces.haha.her daddy said dat kelly looked mature n i looked cute in e neos.lol.ugly but adorable.haha.gt kinda bored.so walked wif yu jin 2 j8.e food looked so temptin lahh.but we both din bring our hps n wallets.lol.so walked around abit.yu jin had nv been 2 dat part of j8 b4.haha.decided 2 go back.library still haven opened.dis time i took my hp n we went back 2 j8.walked around smmore.j8 gt loads of sales lahh.haha.so went back 2 library lohh.picked a nice spot upstairs.started on e project.every1 was kinda sian sian de lahh.so did project until like 11+.wahh.really braindead le lohh.haha.was talkin 2 loudly den e librarian told me 2 keep my volume down.lol.so ya lohh.went wif yu jin back 2 j8.kelly came after dat.mabel stayed in e library 2 do her french stuff.yu jin n i wanted 2 share french fries.but we were both broke after ytd.4gt 2 take $$ 2dae.so i had $1.50. she had $0.50. den small fries was kinda little.but den medium fries nid $0.10 moree.i was like.so many raffles ppl here.u wear sch u smmore.go ask whether can borrow lahh.lol.we were standin dere tinkin wad 2 do.den yu jin was like 'can pay wif ez link card wadd' hahaha.so in e end i paid lohh.wahh.im really really broke.i nid 2 collect $$!!haha.so kelly returned me $2.yayy.so i had $3.50.lol.so damn little lahh.aniwaes.kelly had 2 go 4 gym so she left.yu jin n i walked around j8.saw e lighter clips dat i saw ytd.decided 2 buy e star shaped 1s (: haha.so i only had $0.50 left.LOL.sad ritee.can see cannot buyy.haiyoo.yu jin was tellin me how she gts carried away wen im wif her.haha.i finally convinced her 2 tuck out her hadley shirt n fold her cullottes (: i also convinced her 2 shop more often.haha.bad influence ehh.so she was like tellin me sick jokes.haha.den 1230 she nid 2 go le.walked her out.saw mabel.haha.'ur still here ah?!' lol.so i still had 15mins left.wanted 2 b crazy again.so dis time pinned 6 rainbow star shaped clips on my head :D ehh.nt bad lohh.lol.dun eva go out wif me den after dat left 5 mins.went 2 bossini since my mum wanted me 2 go dere.she gt 40% discount mah.wahh.so daddy picked me up.den all go 4 lunch lohh.

after lunch.mummy told me dat joyce n her was goin shoppin.asked if i wanted 2 cm along.haha.so okk lohh.aniwaes.go out wif her sure gt 2 buy loads of stuff de X) went back 2 j8.lol.i told her gt loads of sales mahh.so went 2 bossini.yayy.i liked dat pair of shorts.mummy liked it too.den so sad.e shirt dun hv my size ): haha.so mummy said l8ter also cmin back mah.so buy later.lazy 2 carry.lol.took mrt 2 orchard.went 2 taka 2 gt joyces autograph bk since precious thoughts dun hv.haha.joyce took a super duper long time 2 choose her book lahh.lol.saw e hp keychain wich i wanted 4 quite a long time.mummy bought it 4 me (: yayy.shall gt my ipod n dat pouch frm wallet shop soon mann.den can hang my key chain :D den after buyin dat.mummy wanted 2 try out e massage chairs downstairs.lol.so went down lohh.went 2 bossini after dat.culdnt find e shirt i like.in e end.i found another shirt wich i liked even more :D culdnt decide btween grey or purple thought.but bought grey instead lahh.i realised im very weird lohh.my clothes r usually on e dull coloured side.like grey.black.smtimes white lahh.yaa.usually dese colours.den my accessories wuld b like.glittery.bright.silver.dat kinda thing.haha.weird me.den culdnt buy shorts dere.coz dun hv my size.lol.was walkin 2 e mrt station.mummy saw a pair of slippers dat she liked.so bought lohh.went back 2 j8.joyce culdnt rmb where she saw e bag dat she wanted.so went n bought my shorts.mummys shorts nided 2 b transferred coz no more stock.lol.went hm hv dinner le lohh.

yayy.wad a nice dae 2dae.haha.as usual I gt e MOST stuff AGAIN :D still goin shoppin at vivo tmr.hopefully.nth crops up man.haha.my poor legs lahh.SHOPPIN IS LOVE! :D

wahh.i gt only like 6 daes free in june lehh.sad sadd.i wanna watch at least 5 movies smmore lohh.i nid 2 gt quite abit of stuff too.lol.june doesnt seem like a holidae animoree.heck care lahh.at most i pon abit of stuff.luckily no rs.haha.cant wait 4 nxt wk 2 end.I WAN MY HOLZ!! XD

THANK YOU DADDY N MUMMY 4 ALLOWIN ME 2 GO SHOPPIN SO OFTEN N BURNIN LOADS OF HOLES IN UR POCKETS!! X)

thank you God for all the happy times i have had so far.thank you for giving me hope when i thought all was lost.thank you for also helping me to control my temper (:

PISCES :
imaginative & sensitive
compassionate & kind
friendly & charitable
intuitive & self sacrificial
romantic & sentimental

dun speak.
i noe wad ur sayin.
so pls stop xplainin.
dun tell me coz it hurts.

# unconditional love #

10:50 PM; iloveu Y

haha.okk.i was kinda bored.went blog surfin.found dis n decided 2 type it out ...

A - loves 2 flirt but in a way of jokin
B - popular wif all types of ppl
C - weird
D - has one of the best personalities ever
E - freakin beautiful
F - ppl wild n crazy adore u
G - never let ppl tell u wad 2 do
H - easy 2 fall in love wif
I - loves 2 laugh
J - freakin rowdy
K - really silly
L - best smile
M - makes datin fun
N - 1 of e best damn bf/gf ani1 culd ask 4
O - loved by every1
P - popular wif all types of ppl
Q - hyprocrite
R - gd bf/gf
S - the best person ani1 culd eva hv
T - great kisser
U - gts hugs
V - nt judgemental
W - very broad-minded
X - never let ppl tell u wad 2 do
Y - is a freak wen it cms 2 parties
Z - lives life 4 fun

G - never let ppl tell u wad 2 do [yup yupp X)]
R - gd bf/gf [lol.how wuld i noe]
A - loves 2 flirt but in a way of jokin [-.- dats 4 u 2 decide]
C - weird [haha.smtimes ba]
E - freakin beautiful [-.- no way]

e rest of my name is in alphabetical order :D

E - freakin beautiful [-.- no way]
G - never let ppl tell u wad 2 do [yup yupp X)]
H - easy 2 fall in love wif [dots]
(2)I - loves 2 laugh [LOL.]
K - really silly [at times only lahh.more blur X)]
N - 1 of e best damn bf/gf ani1 culd ask 4 [lol.like real.]
O - loved by every1 [nt true lohhh]
T - great kisser [ahem ahem]
U - gts hugs [haha.who doesnt]
Y - is a freak wen it cms 2 parties [yayy.parties RULE]


rumours - lindsay lohan (:

why can't you just let me
do the things I wanna do
i just wanna be me
i don't understand why
would you wanna bring me down
im only having fun
im going live my life (not the way you want me to)

im tired of rumors starting
im sick of being followed
im tired of people lying
saying what they want about me
why can't they back up off me
why can't they let me live
im gonna do it my way
take this for just what it is

haha.songs r really nice lohh.smtimes i wonder how cm LYRICS r juz so BEAUTIFUL lohh.amazingg :D

my heart is my possession.

# i belong to me #

11:40 PM; iloveu Y

yayy.feelin happyy now (: THANK YOU KELLY & YU JIN 4 GOIN SHOPPIN N TAKIN NEOS TGT!! :D haha.dis post is gonna sound emo bimb X)

okk lahh.mayb nt dat badd.haha.sorry 4 e bad scannin but sm were really small.oh well.IM A HAPPY GAL :D <33!!>

silence is gold.music is platinum.

# beauty within #

7:17 PM; iloveu Y

hai.sad dae man.but yayy.i din cry (:

THANK YOU ZHENLING 4 UR ENCOURAGEMENTS!!! :D

wahh.wanted 2 finish at least my chi compo ytd.but fell asleep.surprisingly woke up at 4+.i was like oh shit.fall asleep again.checked my hp.410.aiya.wake up n finish hw ba.so yupp.finished my chi compo.tried 2 do math.only managed a few sums.i was so sleepy mahh.how 2 tink.lol.wished my mummy HAPPY BDAE :D she was so surprised i woke up so early.'such a gd gal' LOL. so sad cannot go out 4 lunch lahh.nid 2 stay back in schh wadd ): hai.

went 2 schh.was quite sian lahh.haha.nice xinmin din book me but juz asked me 2 pull up my socks again :D tried doin my mathh.okok lahh.math lesson was quite slack.yayy.teacher said i made great improvement (: i din noe lahh.until peixin.zhenling.manee told me.lol.mep was quite okk lahh.sat wif zhenling.qiqi.peixin.huiqing.kelly.joy.huiqing was like 'grace ahh.wen i 1st knew u horr.u were like so innocent n nice lahh' den dey all din agree dat i still was.wahhh.lol.was recallin e old daes wif peixin n zhenling.haha.im like STUCK wif dem since SEC 1 (: lol.kelly kinda calculated my overall gpa.2.she told me cannot go rjc le.hai.after dat watched harry potter.haha.funnyy mann.results were okk lahh.abit disappointin though.oh well.its over.haha.sat nxt 2 ser gin.she was so scared i cryy.violin was sucky as usual.chi was a free block.was kinda done.supposed 2 do assignment.but den ended up playin guitar wif zhenling :D played our sec 1 pieces.syf pieces.yayy.memories of e old daes.haha.I MISS SEC 1!! class party was nice.thank you teachers! (: ate a slice of pizza n a chicken wing.was still kinda down so ate m&m ice cream again :D yummy.lit was kinda borin.was fallin asleep again.luckily she din call me.results were kinda okk lah.but hai.

was waitin 4 132.juz missed it.yay.valerie came n talk 2 me.haha.she was so happy dat her violin class was cancelled.so asked abt results.told her it was sucky n i culdnt make it 2 rjc.she said dat below 2 den cannot go in.below 2.8 will only affect ur subject combi.lol.i was like WAD?!?!haha.so yupp.den 132 came le.changed bus 2 265.gt down le.SAW RACHAEL!!! (: haha.yayy.we both stared at each other den said hello.lol.so ya.dat was my dae.

i suddenly hv e urge 2 play tennis.haha.still hv math assignment n cle journal.hai.hopefully can finish early.

dis post is short coz damn blogger deleted it n im lazy 2 retype X)

results 4 mep n lit ...

mep - history.2.8. 3.6 harmony.3.6. 4.0 practical.3.2. hai.deproved mann. overall.3.6. dunnoe whether 2 b happy or nt.but i tink its my best sub so far (: okk.i shall b HAPPY :D haha.kinda teared lahh.but din cryy.

lit - 2.4.but sadly.my report bk will show 0.8.hai.4 bands diff leh.hai.oh well.cant blame anibody but myself.cant believe my lit actually beat my hist n eng.hai.

wad screwed results i hv

sm things r juz beyond xplanations.r u back 2 give me hopes only 2 dash dem in e end

the cruel reality of life.

# fairytales #

4:35 PM; iloveu Y

okk.im kinda gettin over it le (: juz dat my parents keep harpin on e fact dat i failed my eng THANKS EVERY1!! REALLY U ALL MADE MY DAE :D

din prack piano at all.was fallin asleep durin theory.practical only scales.sight readin.aural.scales were shit.my goshh lahh.totally mental block.cannot play at all.haha.sight readin was okok lahh.was kinda sleepy though.aural was quite gd.haha.anihow guess also right :D so yayy.piano lesson made me happier.haha.although e teacher realised dere was like smth wrong wif me.lol.

ITS OKAY :D ITS OVER.I SHALL MOVE ON X)

die lahh.still gt chi compo.math wks.cle journal.hai.hope i can finish 1 2dae.or mayb ill juz go 2 sleep.lol.

mayb ur juz so insensitive

haha.im bein so random.yayy.sweet stuff really makes me happyy.ate ice cream after eng paper.wich is after i cried lahh.nice nice.i feel like eatin chocs n sweets lahh.but den sure kena scolded.muz REN.haha.

im sorryy.its ur bdae tmr.yt my prezzie 2 u is my shitty results.im really sorryy.but i really hope dat u will at least try 2 understand me instead of makin matters worse.

oh yaa.found dis on kellys blog.

'grace makes a gd bitch'

haha.i so agree wif u kellyy (: oh well.dats me.lol.

e HARDEST thing ever.is 2 FORGIVE urself.

# ill stand by u #

10:39 PM; iloveu Y

okk.im damn tiredd.like really tiredd.of everythin around me.

my results r shit 'gd' enuff 2 make my tears run dryy.

cried 4 all papers xcept e 1st.like im such a loser lahh.i spent 1+hr starin at e ceilin.tellin myself i muz nt cryy.wad happened in e end.i cried regardless of it bein bad or gd.but duhh.most were badd lahh.hai.

results in order of xams ...

hist - 2. 3.2 juz passed wadd.failed section b.i was quite okk wif it lahh.i nv listen wadd.smmore last min.so was quite sadhappy dat i passed.haha.was lowest among zhenling.yvonne.huiqing.kelly.pro ppl mahh.

eng - failed.hai.i was tryin 2 ren de lohh.den went toilet wif yvonne.saw huiying n yiyang.so dey were like i juz passed.hai.so went toilet den juz culdnt control my tears.so all cm flowin outt.den saw my guitar senior amanda in e toilet.yayy.shes so nicee.

chi - 3.6. 4.0 at 1st huiqing.yvonne saw as 57 1/2. den in e end yvonne.zhenling looked closer.onlyy 51 1/2.aiya.im quite happy wif dat le lahh (: so ya.but i still cried.lol.

geog - 3.6. failed was quite unxepected.but ya.was quite happy also lahh.still cried.lol.lay on e floor.den zhenling was like.its abit dirty u noe.lol.

math - 3.6. 2 was quite happy n sad at e same time lahh.although i improved quite abit.if u compare 2 sm ppl.it sux lahh.okok.cried e most.

FINAL CRY AT E END OF EVERYTHIN.seriously im dead beat tired.after all dat emoin n cryyin.went 4 lunchh.ate polar snacks.

was late 4 rbd rehearsal.hurry changed den went 2 rehearse.was quite successful.made e judges laugh.hopefully we gt into top 3.supposed 2 wear 'disco clothes' on fri.lol.

so after rbd.went 2 kschee 2 find huiying.crapped wif her.din wanna change so was wearin dat 'bimb' outfit walkin around in rgs.wif ppl starin at u wif dat weird look.haha.oh well.den gt dis rjc gal meiyi came n chatted wif us.tellin us how long e rjc skirts r.haha.so dat was abt it lahh.

took mrt hm.yay.love goin hm in hm clothes.sch u sux but den e heels damn uncomfortable lahh.i still like my flip flops.so ya.later still gt piano lesson.im like so freakin dead.

lit - confirm 0 no matter wad i gt.hai.

mep - im countin on it tmr.

philo - im satisfied wif a juz pass.

seriouslyy.cryin really made me feel better.although 1/2 e time i dunnoe yy was i even cryin.hai.juz 2 let out my emotions ba.

THANK YOU !!!!

God for helping me with all my exams.without God, i would have failed all my exams.thank you God for the wisdom and the strength that helped me pull through.

PPL 4 CHEERIN ME UP.GIVIN ME HUGS.ENCOURAGEMENTS :D
;huiying.zhenling.yvonne.kelly.huiqing.renci.peixin.seryee.mabel.yujin.amanda. yinghui.rachel.chloe.magdalene.cheryl.kangjie.supraja.sarah.*SORRY if i left u out* THANK YOU!! (:

PPL WHO PRAISED ME 4 RBD :D
;zhenling.qiqi.anu.brintha.yvonne.yinghui.peixin.huiying.sarah.cheryl. * SORRY if i left u out* THANK YOU!! (:

LOVE YA ALL LOADS (: THANK YOU SO SO MUCHH (:

JIAYOU 2 DOSE WHO DIN DO SO WELL!!

CONGRATS 2 DOSE WHO DID REALLY WELL!!

hai.i tink i nid a break.a break frm all dese stupid stuff.i cant seem 2 change back 2 my old self.everything seems so hardd.

u nv seem 2 understand.ya ya.i nid tuition.i nid counsellin.WTV.I DUN GIVE A DAMN.hai.

i suck like shit

my tears hv runn dryy.its overr.nth can change it.MOVE ON GRACE.

uve disappointed me time n time again.i give up

deep down in my heart.ive died

# failure #

5:11 PM; iloveu Y

2dae was kinda.ermm.aiya.dunnoe how 2 sayy lahh (:

went 2 schh.romance de amor rawks mann.i suck at it wahh.e xam pieces damn hard cann.die le lahh.so yupp.pracked guitar wif priya in e mornin.den 1st block.lit.hai.i was damn sleepy lahh.so was dozin off in class.teacher was standin bside me.so cannot doodle.lazy 2 take down notes.started fallin asleep.told myself 'CANNOT CANNOT FALL ASLEEP' i tink i was sleepin wif my eyes open.lol.but still culd tell dat i was dozin off lahh.so u noe wad she did.she POKED me.wahlaoo.anihow TOUCH me.LOL.jkjk.she poked my shoulder lahh.so hard smmore.hmphh.haha.oh well.pe was kinda okk lahh.din really do anithin muchh.see ppl climb rock wall lohh.haha.eng was rbd.wahh.im actin tmr.anu gt napfa.hai.actin as a bimb again.lol.i realise i always end up gettin dat role.haha.so yupp.muz stay back tmr.math was slackk.was emoin again.lol.nt really emoin but yaa.writin out songs n lyrics 4 funn :D cle was writin credit slips.haha.yayy.so yupp.rs was ermm.okok lahh.kept digressin though.

guitar was kinda okok lahh.haha.was crappin like siao wif zhenlingg.yayy.wahh.learnt new concert piece lehh.damn hard lahh.sittin bside zhenling e pro even worse.haha.prelude by J.S. Bach.so had 2 learn dis hard partt.den zhenling playy 4 instructor.instructor say gd.wahh.den i gt so many mistakes lahh.my finger rest on e guitar.den like dat nt professional.like cm frm e streets like dat.nv train.play wif wrong fingers smmore.sad sadd.hai.haha.but after dat still gt thumbs up (: lol.aiya.haha.ok nvm.

so after dat take mrt back hm lohh.lol.take bus den missed my stop.haha.so had 2 walk up st.nicholas view.haha.nt so badd lahh.walk along sngs :D den started emoin again.haha.oh well. I LOVE SNGS!!

okok.funny stuff dat happened 2dae.yu jin was tryin 2 kick rebecca rite.in e end she fell flat on her butt.ouchh.haha.but ya.e 3 of us were laughin like siao.den another 1 is e geog mapwk question.natural vegetation of india rite.i dunnoe wad i was tinkin lahh.go write BANANAS.hahaha.stupid ritee.oh well.caused kelly.yu jin n me 2 LOL.mabel had dat ERM look.hahaha.

haiyoo.random but yaa.i ate like 2 packs of twisties.tomato n chicken.as well as 2 long tubes? of marshmallow.nice nice nice mann.but my sore throat kena lahh.hai.hope it recovers soon man.

thank you God for helping me to stay happy today (: i pray that you will help me to control my tears as everything that happens tomorrow is planned by you and its the best for me.amen.

wahh.2dae so many ppl 'pour out' 2 me in dat sense.haha.JIAYOU EVERY1!! (: i suck at cheerin ppl up de lahh.so yaa.hope i din make u sadder or smth.haha.

hai.smhow everything seems so DARK.wheres e LIGHT man.relationships r eva so complicated.nt referrin 2 bgr.but yaa.frenships.kinships.blah blah blah.hai.i feel so tired.

random stuff (:

ZHENLING AHH.CHEER UP GAL!! IT WILL BLOW OVER SOON (: EVERYTHIN WILL TURN OUT FINE KKAYES :D ITS NT UR FAULT!! ITS JUZ A MISUNDERSTANDIN (: JIAYOU!!

HUIYING AHH.ITS OKK DE!!U WILL PULL THRU (: CHEER UP GAL!! DERES STILL NXT TIME.N NXT NXT TIME YA NOE!! HAHA.MUZ REALLY GO CHILL OUT IN JUNE MAN :D JIAYOU!!

hai.gettin results back tmr.I CANNT CRY. I MUZ NT CRY. hai.
lit - O ):
chi - pretty gd (:
math - passed (:
hopefully e rest aint 2 badd.tmrs gonna b a long emo dae.once again.i sleep wif my chi compo undone.

the feelings dat r bottled up inside wich ill nv b able 2 xpress.

# attitude #

10:14 PM; iloveu Y

原来爱情这么伤 - 梁咏琪

我睁开眼睛 却感觉不到天亮
东西吃一半 莫名其妙哭一场
我忍住不想 时间变得更漫长
也与你有关 否则又开始胡思乱想

我日月无光 忙得不知所以然
找朋友交谈 其实却帮不上忙
以为会习惯 有你在才是习惯
你曾住在我心上 现在空了一个地方

原来爱情这么伤 比想像中还难
泪水总是不听话 幸福躲起来不声不响
太多道理太牵强 道理全是一样
说的时候很简单 爱上后却正巧打乱

只想变的坚强 强到能够去忘
无所谓悲伤 只要学会抵抗
原来爱情这么伤

原来爱情是这样 这样峰回路转
泪水明明流不干 瞎了眼还要再爱一趟
有一天终于打完 思念的一场战
回过头再看一看
原来爱情那么伤
下次还会不会这样

yayy.nice nice song (:

haha.okk.abt 2dae ...

was super duper sleepyy.haha.as usual.damn sian lahh.so went 2 schh.tried 2 do my lit fa.THANK YOU PEIXIN 4 LENDIN ME URS 2 CAN KAO :D mornin assembly was kinda borin.eng was rbd.haha.din really do much.finished up my lit fa (: chi was ermm.juz doin dis chi compre wich i din finish.hai.muz go do l8ter.like seriously I WRITE SLOW.way slower den zhenling lahh.oh well.geog was watchin video.haha.tink teacher is kinda upset wif us.slept durin e video.hai.sorry lahh.was really really tiredd.most of e class was aniwaes.so i tink dat was y she was kinda disappointed.physics hmm.okok lahh.quiz was SHIT.haha.zhenling was surprised dat im still all bubbly n happy durin guitar although I REALLY REALLY FAILED it.haha.IM A HAPPY GAL.I SHALL STAY A HAPPY GAL :D mock spa was okok lahh.so left 2 quizzes.hai.juz pass 1 can le (: hist was e SLACKEST.huiying.priya.kang jie were crappin abt how i look like a jap.leadin on 2 me bein a jap plant.photosynthesisin.havin stomata n all.LOL.zhenling had dat ERM face thruout.manee was concentratin on hist but was kinda listenin.so she gt rather confused.hahaha.so ya.seriously.IM NT FRM JAPAN.NEITHER DO I LOOK LIKE A JAP XD

guitar was quite funn lahh.laughed thruout wif cheryl.zhenling.wen yan.magdelene.yayyy.oh yaa.priya kept askin if i was photosynthesisin lahh.lol.yaya.i still m -.- haha.so thruout guitar it was mainly on e E major scale n learnin how 2 play slurs.yaa.den wen yan was actin like sm piglet.haha.zhenling was harry potter.lol.funny ppl.yayyy.fun fun guitar.haha.durin break.made a bet wif cheryl dat magdalene wuld nt pon guitar.in e end she didnt.yayy.so magdalene n cheryl were baby talkin.den suddenly we started playin wif cheryls 100+ can.like throwin it around.lol.den i took cheryls wallet n bet wif her dat if i culd throw it into stall 1 in e cafeteria.she wuld give me $10 (: so she said.if u throw it into dat red basket in stall 1.so i tried a few times.cannot.finally nid 2 go le.i throw 1 more time.it landed INSIDE stall 1.LOL.cheryl was so maluated lahh.she went n collect e wallet wich landed rite nxt 2 dat uncles feet.he was puzzled n probably tot cheryl was siao accordin 2 herr.haha.so in e end i gt $0.60 frm cheryl -.- hahaha.CHERYL U OWE ME HORR :D so magdalene.cheryl.me were laughin all e wae back 2 class.seniors tot we were like kinda siao.lol.so ya.dat kinda ended guitar.took mrt back hm.

hai.still hv 1 chi compre n compo 2 do ): sadd sadd.dun nid 2 sleep le 2nite.haha.

my guitar xam may clashh wif my piano xam lehh.howw.my nails cant b short n long as n wen i wan it riteee.arghh.smmore gt guitar concert b4 piano xam.hope my piano teacher doesnt pop a piano concert 4 mee.arghhh.3 pieces 4 guitar xam.im like so gonna fail.sad sadd.oh well.see how it goes ba.

wahhh.my sore throat is like gettin worse.haha.nt surprised since i eat everythin 2 worsen itt.lol.ate oheya n marshmallow 4 recess.haha.ehh.e marshmallow thingy is nice lohh.although it makes me look like a big babyy.but ITS NICE :D after sch.bought 2 packets of roller coaster.haiyoo.cm back hm.ate tutu kueh :D yayy.yummy.haha.see lahh.how can sore throat dun worsen de.lol.

thank you God for making me so happy todayy.although i was rather sleepyy.but yupp.it was a happy dayy (:

random stuff (:

huiying - IT WILL ALL TURN OUT FINE OKK GAL!! so yupp.TREASURE E TIME NOW N MAKE FULL USE OF IT :D MUZ CHERISH HORR!! XD

zhenling - CHILL GAL!! like SERIOUSLY CHILL.haha.REN REN REN REN :D U CAN DO IT DE LAHH.KAN KAI YI DIAN.lol.

oh ya.WHO CALLED ME HP TWICE 2DAE?!?!?! tell me asap horr.SORRY I DIN PICK UP X)

okk.shall go do wk le.hai.

the light at the end of the tunnel.

# romance de amor #

8:10 PM; iloveu Y

as e raindrops hit e ground ...

hai.nth much happened 2dae lahh.

woke up kinda late.abt 11 ba.ate lunchh.den went n see doc/my uncle.haha.i feel so erm TALL (: yaa.sm of u shuld gt it lahh.so i gained 1kg.nt 2 bad lahh.muz eat medicine.yuck yuck yuck yuck.so tasteless.so bitter.so bleahh.yupp.cm hm.culdnt resist.eat a choc stick.n now im gonna eat choc cake (: yayy.although my sore throat is gonna gt worse but heck care lahh.

dunnoe whether 2 go shoppin or nt.still hv lit fa n chi compo.smmore rainin n im broke.oh well.mayb ill still end up goin shoppin :D haha.

i pray God that you will be able to help me control my emotions and guide me to the correct path.amen.

its driftin away.u n i both noe it.once gone.it will nv return.let it go.

my heart will go on.

# ignorance is bliss #

4:34 PM; iloveu Y

hai.dun really feel like bloggin so shall make dis a short post (:

dragged myself 2 sch 2dae.e rain was really nice 4 me 2 sleep lahh.but oh well.im such a guai gal 2 go 2 sch despite bein sick.lol.jkjk.so yupp.slept in air-con wif my music again :D it was so cold lahh.ice palace.lol.daydreamin again.haha.air-con wif rainn.quite okk lahh.coz it was like SO HOT.4 i dunnoe wad reason.n my fever had gone down.so i dunnoe y still so HOT.

oh well.reached class.abit sian sian de.haha.nt goin 4 ORA tmr.i seem 2 b e only 1 nt goin.IM SICK LOH.so all who r tryin 2 PERSUADE me.GIVE UP XD

went 2 kschee 4 sm RA & CCA talk.BORIN.haha.i was sleepin thru abit of it.BULLIED 4 E REST.i always victim de lohhh.hmphhh.MABEL.YU JIN.KELLYY.UR SO MEAN!!!haha.jkjk lahh.I WAS ROBBED OF $22.mabel - $20. kelly - $2.lol.i was only left wif $10 lahh.see how broke i was.shall gt back all my debts soon.haha.den dey were like hittin me.blah blah blah.wahhhh.haha.im so damn bullied.so i was bein very random.takin stuff n ya.haha.SORRY MABEL N YU JIN 4 HITTIN UR HEADS AGAINST EACH OTHER!!lol.mabel was like 'dis is rs grp bondin.lol.' den kelly said 'we r like e outcasts of our class.so qiao always sit 2gt.haha.' randomm.so mabel n yu jin were like huggin my bagg.wahh.my poor bag is in such a pathetic state le loh.haiyoo.so yaa.dat was borin talks.but was quite ok lahh.

traditional games.was ERM.haha.was playin wif e chaptek?(however u spell dat thingy) haha.den me.yinghui.yvonne were like tryin 2 kick dat thingy.pro yinghui did 2.me n yvonne only managed 1.haha.den i keep hittin yinghui.yvonne was like 'jackpot!!' LOL.SORRY!!so we tried aimin at e bookshop stand.gt abit borin.so random me tried hittin mutiple chapteks 2gt (: haha.den it flew like everywhere.lol.had dis attacker n defender thingy after dat.okok lahh.screamed quite abit.so ya.made my sore throat worse.hai.den went 4 recess le lohh.

talks at e hall.music piracy & skin n e sun.lol.okk.was kinda crappin wif kelly.qiqi.cheryl.michelle.janine.bernice.priya.haha.made quite alot of nice though.yaa.i download music frm internet lahh.dunnoe whether its illegal or legal.most likely illegal though.haha.been doin it 4 so long le.lol.oh well.MUSIC STILL RAWKS :D so was takin cheryls jacket 4 funn.kelly n i were goin on abt whether blue or jesse was hotter.DUH JESSE LAH.qiqi was like.no comment.lol.kept playin wif qiqis waterbottle (: i was bored mahh.den michelle kept makin my belt higher n higher.lol.janine was actin bimb.e other side of janine!hahaha.bernice was goin on abt e skin cancer thingy.haha.funny ppl lahh.priya was like 'ur gonna end in jail 4 illegal music downloadin' or smth 2 dat effect.haha.yaa.dats wad made e BORIN talks REALLY FUN :D

so after sch.went canteen 2 eat.sad lahh.cannot go outt.ate burger.haha.chloe was goin on n on abt ****.lol.den varsha n renci came along.we were eatin.laughin.crappin.blah blah.den varsha noticed dis sweet lyin on e table.renci n i were like 'open it open it!' chloe was like 'dun do it!' lol.in e end we all ate it.n renci was like 'if we all gt stomachache.we wuld noe yy (:' hahaha.qiqi n zhenling came along.waved 2 dem.den chloe said dao dem coz dey were late.in e ended.varsha was e only successful person in daoin dem.haha.so chloe started talkin abt **** n renci n qiqi started talkin abt ****.LOL.dey din realise dat dey were talkin abt diff ppl until i said so.haha.den chloe was like 'harrr.im outdated le ahh.' -.- haha.funny ppl lahh.so zhenling n i were crappin.she culdnt open her prawn cracker thingy.haha.our convo.

zhenling: ehh.im eatin dis thing again.
grace: huhh.wad.wad gayy.
zhenling: im eatin dis thingy again lahh.
grace: cheyy.i tot said u were gayy.
zhenling: ur gayyer.
grace:lol.i so m nt lahh.im like so straight.(bursts into laughter)
zhenling: (xamines grace frm head 2 toe) u sure or nt
grace: duhh.haha.so we both gayy ahh.dat means we r sittin wif e bunch of gayys lahh.
(both starts laughin like siao)
(chloe.renci.qiqi stares)
LOL.sudden outburst of crappin mahh.nv crap wif her 4 so longg.lol.lame ritee.haha.but sm ppl r wayy lamer lahh.rite kellyy.lol.

so after dat went hm le lohh.shall nt do hw yt (: SLACK 1ST :D guess dis ain such a short post eh.haha.

hai.hopefully my sore throat gts better soon.its KILLIN me!

thank you God for the happy and crappy times today! (:

im like really tired.really really really tired.hai.guess u juz dun see it.e fog.yeah.its wads blockin our view.juz gotta let u it go.

# faded wif time #

4:17 PM; iloveu Y

yayy.slept frm 2am till 330pm :D woke up at 6+ 2 wish joyce all e best 4 her hcl xam (: so nice ritee.haha.jkjk.daddy came on off my radio n air-con lohhh ): nxt time i shall lock my door again.lol.ate my lunchh so late.haiyoo.sure cannot eat dinner de lohh.

wahlao.EVERYDAE ALSO KENA SCOLDED DE.DAMN U LAH.

hai.my stupid stupid sore throat is killin me.haha.ate chocs.cotton candy.all sorts of funny stuff mahh.hai.runnin a slight fever.N ALL DESE R NT ENUFF 4 ME 2 GO SEE DOC N GET AN MC.wth.i tmr go schh kena asthma 4 u 2 see lah.hmphh.

i really dun wanna go 2 sch lehh.ya lahh.bcoz of my stupid sore throat.n i haven finished my hw lahh.sick until like dat still nid 2 write 2 essays.damnn.hai.wad a sad sad lifee.

lookin back on the things ive done.i was tryin 2 b sm1.

# a gal like me #

4:11 PM; iloveu Y

haha.okk.so i pracked my piano 4 1/2hr.composed dis J.S.Bach chlorale thingy 4 10mins.lol.i was practically crappin.haha.okk.so had no time 2 eat dinner.i wasnt hungry aniwaes.despite nt eatin breakfast.lunch was cotton candy n coke (: im nt ano lol.

so went 4 piano lesson at like 720.heehee.late again.y m i nt surprisedhaha.so teacher xtended my lesson by 1/2hr.so yupp.did theory.dat chlorale thingyy.heng ahh.she said it was GD!! :D lol.did double suspensions w/o even noticin.den decorated it abit too much.haha.but still it was gd.yayy.was almost fallin asleep wen she was teachin me abt piano sonatas.lol.piano was ermm.okok lahh.played all my xam pieces (: a:3 was ermm.weird.suddenly played so slow.so had 2 replay.lol. b:5 was rather broken at e 1st part.finally found e correct emotions at e back.emo song wadd :D c:2 was hmm.okok lahh.still abit funny funny de.but yaa.haha.she wanted 2 xtend another 1/2hr lahh.i was likee.harrr.i juz finished xam n i haven eaten my dinner lehh.haha.she was like.harr.orhh.ok lohh.yupp.so lesson ended le.

daddy came n pick me.gave me a long long long long talk abt my attitude 2wards my damn studies.haha.ya.i dun give a damn :D okk.so watched abit of tv.den had my dinner at like 1030.lol.late sia.oh well.im still wasnt hungry.

yayy.tmr holz.SLACKIN N SLEEPIN.i shall BLAST my MUSIC in e MORNIN :D no1s at hm wadd.sadly i juz realised dat fri gt damnschh.was post myas activities.so i gt no choice but 2 finish my hww.chi compo + lit fa.luckily im nt goin out.or else i die.haha.sadd lahh.mummy wanted 2 take us out 4 nice nice lunch tmr.but den i gt sore throat.ashley gt fever.hai.aniwaes.SHALL ENJOY MYSELF TMR.NO STRESS.NO STRESS!! XD

wahhh.so late le.12 lehh.haha.nice nice qiqi was talkin 2 me.SO RARE LOH.STAY UP 2 TALK 2 ME.hahaha.oh yaa.QIQI.TAG WEN U READ MY BLOG!!! (: lol.okok.i realised every1 is havin post mya effects.all bein random n siao.we culdnt decide on a topic 2 talk abt.so we were randomin frm pics of ppl frm her pri sch.2 ermm.ppl frm my pri schh.ppl frm her french class.2 ppl frm our class.2 HARRY AKA JAMES FRANCO.SHUAI RITE!!haha.even qiqi agrees :D so yaa.we were randomin abt him.den 2 stuff like LOSER.n I LOVE U.hahaha.funnyy mann.den sadly she had 2 goo.awww.haha.

wahhlao.my sore throats really really bad lahh.haiyoo.hurry gt better mann.cant stand it animoree.I NID 2 SCREAMM.TALK.LAUGH.lol (:

oh ya.IM NT IN LOVE PPL! :D haha.dose stuff were juz random stuff.ya noe ya noe.

God.give me the serenity to accept what i cannot change.give me the courage to change what i can.most importantly.give me the wisdom to tell the difference (:

hmm.hope tmrs a beautiful dae.

every1 has a choice 2 everythin!

# i wanna love u #

11:32 PM; iloveu Y

YAYYY!!!!MYAs R OVER!!!! :D

okk.slept at abt 12+.i intended 2 sleep at 10 lahh.but den i only finished my stupid dinner at 1130.haha.managed 2 finish eatin it lah.so slept in air con wif my radio onn :D im nt supposed 2 do dat lahh.but heck care (: kinda gt scolded by daddy in e mornin.haha.nt really scolded lah.but ya.dunnoe y lohhh.it was like so HOT wen e air con was so COLD.lol.so went 2 sch.ZHENLING was also COMPLAININ it was HOT.ALTHOUGH it was COLD.lol.weird rite.so ya lohh.HOT HOT HOT HOT.oh well.din touch math at all.hai.every1 was like muggin like siao.n dere i was STONIN.haha.b4 e paper.went out n enjoyed e sky n clouds again.emo emo.lol.

stupid sore throat.keep makin me cough.arghh.okk.math paper.hmm.nt say easy lahh.it was OK 2 ME.although many of u said it was EASY.haha.managed 2 finish it.left 15 mins.yayy.I WAS SO HAPPY I FINISHED (: but ya.skipped steps here n dere again.okk.i wun do very well but i will pass :D e 1st part.hai.always muz tink like siao de.dunnoe y lohh.e back part always easier.haha.so was tryin 2 do e fastest i culd in case cannot finish again.den after dat i had 3 blank questions wich i culdnt do.haha.last 2 questions lehh.i was like die die also muz solve.so stoned dere at e 3 questions.left 1/2hr.i was like panickin like siao.tearin liao lohh.hai.so said a prayer to God for him to guide me and to calm down.n yayyy.God answered my prayer.q9.e question whereby my dad solved it 4 me on skype last time.lol.it was like at midnite.so i was barely listenin.finally realised how 2 solve it.abit slow lahh me.okk.so although my signs were wrong 4 part a.heck care lahh.juz put dere (shown) :D sure minus marks but at least gt answer rite.den part b lehh.gt e answer.but wad.supposed 2 find total time 4 whole journey.i only found 1/2 lahh.n i din even realise.so went on 2 q10.STUPID ME.read question also can read wrongly de.dumb dumb dumb dumb.haha.so ya.in e end solved it.i almost cried lahh.dun b wrong.it was tears of joy (: q6.e 1st part 1.i noe i cannot solve questions of e 1st part of e paper de lohh.weird.but ya.dats me (: haha.so gt minus square root dunnoe dunnoe wad.heck care dat 1.sure wrong de.haha.so yupp.yayy.finished my paper.still hv 15 minsdin dare sleep lahh.so flip thru once.twice.makin sure i did every question.lol.stoned.n started daydreamin again.haha.den i tot.aiya beta check lahh.left 5 mins wadd.okk.so checked.omg.gt mistake lehh.e front.luckily found outt.so changed it.haha.careless me.den found another mistake.dat journey thingy lahh.stupid.only left 1 min.den my stupid pen no ink.but luckily still can see e answer lahh.haha.so yupp.managed 2 change it.answer correct.but den i tink workin wrong.lol.yayy.math test over le :D lol.wad a long paragraph abt math.

so missed hist video thingy.all thanks 2 huiying.haha.went 2 see a teacher.while waitin 4 a teacher.she went 2 another teacher.wahhh.so i fell asleep waitin 4 herr.haha.by e time she finished.1hr had passed.oh ya.dere was dis weird teacher.he came in lookin 4 dis other teacher.den i told him she had left a while ago.he was smilin like siao lahh.haha.guess he was in a gd mood.so after a while.he came in wif e other teacher.smilin like siao again.lol.den wen he left.he gave me e thumbs up.i was like haha.ok....lol.so ya.den huiying had 2 see another teacher.haiyoo.okk.so went wif her.den saw my chi teacher.haha.hv private talk wif me while huiying was talkin 2 e other teacher.wahhh.teachers really LOVE 2 hv PRIVATE talks wif ME lahh.lol.so it was abt me nt sleepin early n eatin so little.haha.funny lahh.okk.so finally we culd go.took 190 2 dhoby ghaut 2 meet yvonne.ying hui.yiyang.yuxi.yupp.met dem at plaza sing gv.yayy.myas over mahh.huiying was like high n bo liao.lol.let down my hair.den smart yvonne.ying hui.yiyang brought clothes 2 change.bought spiderman 3 tickets.cotton candy.popcorn.coke.THANKS HUIYING 4 TREATIN ME :D haha.so de rest went window shoppin while huiying n me stood dere n eat.wahhhh.den dis prefect had 2 cm along.saw my hair let down.wanted 2 cm n book me den dora dragged her away.yayy.nice nice senior.THANK YOU!! (: so she signalled 2 me 2 tie up my hair.hai.so ya.tied it upp.haha.luckily lahh.or else i gt another BETA n DC.haha.dey also bought spiderman 3 lehh.same time.lol.den dora walked over wif her frenz.damn funny lahh she.haha.luckily e prefect din book me.okk.so crapped wif huiying 4 a while.damn bo liao lahh she.lol.

went into e cinema.haha.SPIDERMAN 3 RAWKS!! (: yayyy.haha.nice nice lahh.harry was so much more shuai den peter lohh.n at one part.dey were both damn irritatin lahh.so ARGH.lol.MUZ GO WATCH HORR!! :D i aim 2 watch at least 5 movies in june lohh XD but i doubt can lah horr.haha.okk.so thruout e movie.huiying was like grabbin my arm really tightly.lol.huiying ahhh.shuld grab *ahem ahem* lohhh.hahaha.okok.den after e show.yvonne was tryin e take pic of e spiderman 3 poster.lol.funnyy herr.so had 2 go hm le lohh.i still had piano lesson.den dunnoe where huiying n yiyang disappeared to.took mrt wif yuxi.let down my hair again.haha.luckily no rgs ppl live near me (: so ya.hm le lohh.hai.so saddd.muz cm hm.haha.oh well.shall spend tmr slackin n sleepin!! (: save my money 4 june.lol.damn.gt scoldin again.hai.shall nt give a damn abt it.

okk.better go do my theory n prack piano le.ashleys sick.so my piano lesson push 4ward 1hr.haiyoo.no time lahh.still slackin.playin my guitar.msnin.lol.

thank you God for granting me the wisdom to finish my math paper and for being able to survive all my papers (: hopefully i pass all of them.thank you God for answering my prayer when i was about to break down (:

yayyy.wad a nice nice dae.although it aint very nice lol.cant wait 4 tmr.I WANT 2 SLEEP.SLACK.SHOP :D

# here in ur arms #

5:27 PM; iloveu Y