`BCOZ OF U

i nid a new hairstyle.lol.okk.randomm.

hai.slept frm 11-1 dis afternoon.n bcoz of dat.my ipod n hp gt confiscated.damnn.oh well.im still survivin :D haha.so bcoz of dat.blasted my music damn loudly lahh.den i gt loads of new songs 2dae (: abt 50++ ba.so damn happyy lohh.lol.yayyy :D wahh.siann.so late still doin hw.im really doin hw at a really slow rate lohh.can stare at e blank piece of paper 4 so many hrs de.hai.

hw :
; eng compre
; chi compo
; lit fa
; hist pt
; prack guitar
; prack piano

wahh.tmr like so MUSICAL.lol.hv a feelin dat i cannot finishh.oh well.PRACKIN GUITAR IS MY TOP PRIORITY TMR (: since i still hv mon 2 prack my piano n do pt.haha.hopefullyy i can play e guitar properly by tmr.

smhow i miss e old me.

wen will dis end.

wen ur gone.

# blind #

11:57 PM; iloveu Y

`XHAUSTED

im like so totally nt bimb lohh XD

hahaha.jkjk lahh.

finee.im bimb.

okok wadeva.2dae.accordin 2 zhenling was officially BIMB dae.so we both were like reallyyy bimbb :D

blur pok me 4gt 2 bring my clips 2 schh.damnn.haha.i hv like 10 clips on my dae lohh.classmates tot it was a 'hairband' onlyy 2 realise dat ive so many clips on my head.hahaha.okk.so hist teacher din cm.yayy.slept 4 like 1/2hr.haha.gt yrbk.so cutee seein how ppl looked last yrr.lol.math was super siann.luckily dun hv e full lesson (: den after dat.realised i 4gt 2 bring my tiee.how 2 go 4 phototakin lahhh.stupidd.went round borrowin ties.resultedd in a really stupid stomachache.hai.lol.THANK YOU ZHENLING!MELISSA!CHERYL! hahaha.oh well.in e end gt e tie lahh.so phototakin.yes.u guessed it.IM NXT 2 ZHENLING AGAIN :D hahaha.4 every photo since sec 1.ive been standin nxt 2 her.lol.yayy.so waited 4 1hr 2 take photo.skipped speech n drama.haha.photo was damn funny lahh.zhenlingg lohhh.suddenly giggle.den coz i stand so close 2 her can feel e 'vibration' mahh.so started gigglin too.den yinghui nxt 2 me also giggle.lol.yaaa.den we did spiderman posee.as in my grp lahh.haha.zhenling.huiying.manee were damn obssessed over spiderman lahh.'psst' here 'psst' dere.lol.damn funnyy.physics was quite okk lahh.learnt center of gravityy thingy.1st time finish wksheet so fast.lol.assembly was head prefects elections speech thingyy.haha.still dunnoe who 2 vote 4 ba.went 2 collect guitar tickets.gt bullied by juniors again.haha.dey damn funny lahh.after dat went 2 eat lunchh.wahhh.chloe.qiqi.n joanna i tinkk.haha.were tellin me abt all e scandals lahhh.damn funnyyy.aiyooo.SCANDALOUS MAN.den go hm le lohh.was still havin e stupid stomachache.hai.

go hm.slept frm 5-9. abt dere ba.i was really tiredd.yayy.luckily gt nth on tmr.no math olympiad.no rs.but loads of hw 2 complete.

hw :
; eng compre
; chi compo
; lit fa
; hist pt
; math wks
; physics journal
; prack guitar
; prack piano

siann.haha.im so proud of myself.din sleep durin ani lesson dis entire wk X) randomm.

thank God its friday (: thank you God for guiding me through the first week of school.it was really fun and happy except for certain issues but i know that You will always be there to guide me along the way (: thank you.

damn tired.shall go sleep soon.haha.ghost whisperer is really nicee :D

how fast things can change in a sec.

juz by a few words.

guess u will nv noe.

# unforgettable #

11:56 PM; iloveu Y

`DELUSION

m i juz deceivin myself.

was really sleepy 2dae.math was kinda siann.teacher ask me answer question i was like huh huhh.abit de slow lahh.thanx zhenling 4 answerin it 4 me (: mep was okk lahh.hist is really really nicee :D e teacher is so funny lohh.haha.shes really nice.watched tom n jerry n listened 2 sm famous film music.jerry so cute lahh.haha.harmony was still okk.was doin chords thingyy.until VIOLIN.damn.im beginin 2 hate dat instrument wich is makin me kinda hate music.haha.ARGHH.MUZ SO BLOCK DAT THOUGHT OUTTA MY MIND.oh well.i cant seem 2 play ani instrument well.my piano sux.my guitar sux.my violin sux e most :/ chi was damn stupid.shes really startin 2 piss me off.haha.sorry lahh.but i SO PREFER e OLD teacher MUCH MORE.so sad she left.my chi sure drop loads de.i liked my pri 6 math teacher lots.den sec 1 math teacher was stupidd.so my grades dropped loads.dun listen in class.hist repeats itself.im startin 2 so switch off durin her class.haha.was doin mep wks wif zhenling :D den damn funny lahh.e class was askin her really funny questions dat she tried 2 xplain over n over again until e bell rang.oh well.den went 2 do com studs project.so skipped lunch.was late 4 lit.time passes really slow durin lit lahh.siann.after dat go 4 rtc wif yu jin.haha.hoy is really nice lahh.we took a kinda long time 2 do our reflection.den frm 1hr bcm like 2hrs.was chattin n crappin awayy.after dat hv individual talkin stuff.haha. so glad i din cry X) after dat she was so nicee.know we nv eat lunch den gave us sm biscuits.yummyy (: den go hm le lohh.hai.

'by nature ur kind.too kind in fact.dat others bully n take advantage of u.until dey climb ontop of u.u still dunnoe.'

'deres nth wrong wif ur integrity.its juz ur common sense 2 manage impulsivity.'

YAYYY.I LOVE KISS E RAIN N RIVER FLOWS IN U BY YIRUMA :D haha.shall learn 2 playy dem smdae (:

over it - katherine mcphee

i'm over your lies
and i'm over your games
i'm over you asking me
when you know i'm not okay
you call me at night
and i pick up the phone
and though you've been telling me
i know you're not alone
oh ...

that's why
(your eyes)
i'm over it
(your smile)
i'm over it
(realize)
i'm over it
i'm over it
i'm over

wanting you
to be wanting me
no that ain't no way to be
how I feel
read my lips
because i'm so over
moving on
it's my time
you never were a friend of mine
hurt at first
a little bit
but now i'm so over
i'm so over it

i'm over your hands
and i'm over your mouth
trying to drag me down
and fill me with self-doubt
oh ...

that's why
(your words)
i'm over it
(so sure)
i'm over it
(i'm not your girl)
i'm over it
i'm over it
i'm over

wanting you
to be wanting me
no that ain't no way to be
how i feel
read my lips
because i'm so over
moving on
it's my time
you never were a friend of mine
hurt at first
a little bit
but now i'm so over
i'm so over it
oh ...

don't call
don't come by
ain't no use
don't ask me why
you'll never change
there'll be no more
crying in the rain

(im over it)
wanting you
to be wanting me
no that ain't no way to be
how i feel
read my lips
because i'm so over
moving on
it's my time
you never were a friend of mine
hurt at first
a little bit
but now i'm so over
i'm so over it
i'm so over it
i'm over it

wanting you
to be wanting me
no that ain't no way to be
how i feel
read my lips
because i'm so over
moving on
it's my time
you never were a friend of mine
hurt at first
a little bit
but now i'm so over
i'm so over it

if dats e way u wan it 2 b.

i will gt over it.

# cold war #

11:45 PM; iloveu Y

`HEARTACHE

2dae was kinda okk lahh.nt really much better but ya.

woke up wif a cold n asthma again.lol.hcl was quite erm siann.supposed 2 write compo.yay.i asked 4 xtension.but oh well i finished it (: physics was sadd.haha.i seem 2 fail all my quizzes lohh.diee.i only hv 1 quiz left.MUZ PASS!! haha.pe was kinda freaky.managed 2 climb e rock wall.but den wen fall dat time.damn scaryy lahh.haha.screamed like siao.i was swinging around in circles.luckilyy nv hit ani1.dey were like tryin 2 catch my legs.haha.den i culdnt stand.legs were so wobbly.so sat on e ground.lol.THANK YOU ALL WHO CHEERED 4 ME :D haha.den huiying climb rite.she fall.i screamm.den every1 look at me.lol.SCREAMIN IS FUN LOH X) jkjk.ate 1/2 a hashbrown 4 recess.haha.yu jin so nice treat me (: din eat breakfast but din feel like eatin lahh.geog was copyin notes lohh.haha.ehh.i actually pay attention horr :D com studs was wahh.xhaustin.was supposed 2 record e songg.so manee n huiying were singin while i playy.haha.dey so cute lohh.WELL DONE!! (: den after dat din use e song.used reflections wich happened 2 b in my thumbdrive.no time eat lunch le.haha.but wasnt really dat hungry lahh.went 4 mep malay wkshop thingyy.was quite funn.angklung so nice lohh (: den was doin bodywave or rather neckwave.haha.after dat rushed back hm.thinkin i had piano lesson.but in e end dun hv.so gt more time 2 prack my violin loh.

wahhh.i so do nt like e violin cann.i mean i like wen pro ppl play lahh.i play it like shitt.tmr sure kena scolded like siao de.hai.im mentally prepared (: so played guitar n pianoo.e songs i like lahh :D lol.better start prackin le lo.

i always seem 2 do e wrong stuff at e wrong timee.wen deres silence ill make a funny sound.wen teachers r seriously scoldin me.ill really feel like burstin in laughter.haha.dats me X)

E PASSION 4 MUSIC (: i used 2 hv a stupid dream.2 b able 2 play all e instruments in e world.lol.

'u hv e aptitude but nt e attitude' -.- shall nt tell who said dat.haha.

time seems 2 pass much slower nowadaes ...

guess it was all wishful tinkin.

how long more will it last.

dat very feelin sux.

# kiss e rain #

11:06 PM; iloveu Y

`HATRED LOVE

I SO DISLIKE 2DAE.

wad a stupid horribly emo dae its been.all bcoz of u

woke up wif a stupid asthma n stomachache.left my ipod on e whole nite.lit teacher kept starin at me as i was dozin off.was emoin 2 keep myself awake.culdnt do rock climbin 4 i dunnoe wad reason.my hands n legs juz din hv ani strength.hit e right side of my back on e rock wall.it kinda startled every1.lol.gt back eng results.hai.din bring math wks.was really really tired.culdnt playy guitar pieces at all.hai.wad a dae.

hopefully tmr wuld b much better. i so doubt it

juz gt so much stupid stuff 2 do.so many activities.so much hw.prack 3 instruments.wth.

SORRY but IM MOODSWINGIN LOADS NOW.

arghh.hai.EMO ME.

haha.but ventin my emotions on e piano really helps (: i can playy RIVER FLOWS IN YOU - YIRUMA.dat song is SO SO NICE.

勇气 - 梁静茹

终于做了这个决定
别人怎么说我不理
只要你也一样的肯定

我愿意天涯海角都随你去
我知道一切不容易
我的心一直温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃

爱真的需要勇气
来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定
我的爱就有意义

我们都需要勇气
去相信会在一起人
潮拥挤我能感觉你
放在我手心里
你的真心

如果我的坚强任性
会不小心伤害了你
你能不能温柔提醒
我虽然心太急
更害怕错过你

爱真的需要勇气
来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定
我的爱就有意义

我们都需要勇气
去相信会在一起人
潮拥挤我能感觉你
放在我手心里
你的真心

yy cant e tears stop flowin.

i hate u.yy did u hv 2 give me hopes juz 2 dash it.

juz go away.n dun eva cm back.

# breakin down #

11:09 PM; iloveu Y

`EVERYTIME

so 1st dae of sch rite.haha.gt hw le lohh.
; eng compre
; physics graph
; rs project
; prack guitar

haha.2dae was quite okk lahh.xcept 4 e stupid stomachaches.deres like smth seriously wrong wif my stomach lahh.haha.kinda gt scolded lahh.okk nt reallyy but yaa.4 TALKIN N LAUGHIN 2MUCH.lol.sorryy lahh.but den really very funny wadd.aniwaes.if i dun talk and laughh.will fall asleep de lehh.haha.so THANK YOU ALL WHO KEPT ME AWAKE :D

was bein abit de highh n siaoo 2dae.lol.i tink my grp suffered e mostt.lol.THANK YOU ZHENLING.HUIYING.KANGJIE.PRIYA.MANEE :D so lessons were okk lahh.wasnt really payin attention :X changed chi teacher ): hai.my chi grades r so gonna dropp.old teacher so nicee lohh.dis teacher.dunnoe yt lahh.haven really started teachin.but 2 her.im known as 'BAI SE YAN JING' -.- haha.oh well.dats how things r.

guitar was shit.hai.i only hv a few more daes 2 buck up.im like seriously bhind.so gonna die 4 concert ...

hai.im so tiredd.its only e 1st dae of schh.damnn.

JIAYOU GRACE.

every melodyy.

a memoryy.

hv it ur wayy.

stop takin me 4 granted.

# my song #

10:09 PM; iloveu Y

`CONFUSION

hai.last dae of holz le.damn sad ):

I SO DREAD TMR.

e holz wasnt veryy gd or veryy bad lahh.but overall it was GD (: so sadd it has 2 cm 2 an end.damn fast cann.cant wait 4 e nxt holz.

arghhh.I WAN AN MC.haha.

hai.e harsh reality.

thank you God for blessing me with such an enjoyable holiday.i pray that you will give me wisdom and patience and guide me through this journey.

天灰 - S.H.E

如果你不再出现
我的世界还有什么可贵
可惜不够时间
让我们试验什么叫永远

想念变成怀念 心动变成心碎
偏偏还会关切 你最后属于谁

我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯早已经全都熄灭

如果你从没出现
我会不会觉得快了一些
可惜残忍时间
总要把诺言一点点摧毁

想念变成怀念 心动变成心碎
偏偏还会关切 你最后属于谁

我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯早已经全都熄灭

我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯早已经全都熄灭

i seem 2 cry myself 2 sleep nowadaes

ive totally given up all hope on u.

its over.

# shattered #

9:09 PM; iloveu Y

`THE END

okk.dis is a rather late post.oh well.dis is gonna b quite a long n borin 1.lol.tryy 2 keep it short lah.

here goes ...

MY HOL IN MSIA :D

quite fun lahh.abit disappointin though

i had stomachache thruout ):

camwhored quite abit

day 1 - kl (16/06)

so drove 2 kl.reached at abt 2+ 3 ba.spent my time sleepin n listenin 2 my ipod (: checked in at e ascott.walked over 2 klcc n kinda shopped around.den met relatives 4 dinner.haha.yayy.ive grown taller :D lol.nickyy grew taller too.haha.still very big diff lahh.went back.chit chat wif dem 4 a while.haha.i look more TEENAGE GAL now.LOL.

day 2 - kl (17/06)

kinda overslept.haha.went 4 breakfast.din really eat much lahh.gt stomachache after datt.sadd.haha.went 2 klcc 2 shop 4 e dayy.wahh.my sisters gt loads of stuff lahh.i only gt 2 shirts.dey had like shoes.shirts.wallets.pencil cases.blah blah blah.lol.quite alot of stuff lahh.juz dat i cannot buyyy.took e lrt 2 meet my relatives.kinda small n slow compared 2 e mrt.had seafood 4 dinner.went 2 deir house.I LOVE MTV :D hahaha.i always watch it wen i go overseas X) so chit chat againn.den damn funny lahh.mummyy tried 2 pay aunty back 4 smth she bought 4 us lahh.so aunty dun accept mahh.den mummy gave it 2 nickyy.he also dun accept.mummy tried 2 leave it in e house.den aunty kept givin it back.so me.nicky.joyce n ashley decided 2 kinda join in e game lahh.daddyy n uncle juz stood n watch us.so e money was like goin here n dere here n dere.lol.in e end.nicky accepted it lahh.haha.so took lrt back hm.wahh.den had 2 squeeze out in e end.ouch.e door banged on2 mummys head.daddy was still inside.joyce.ashley.me were outside.mummy was neither here nor dere.but in e end.all came out lahh.haha.slept at like 12+.

day 3 - kl / kuantan (18/06)

overslept again.haha.din go eat breakfast.spent my time watchin mtv :D so nice lahh.all e nice nice songss.wad ive done.give it 2 me.wad goes around.loads moree.haha.den went back 2 klcc 2 shop a while more.i was still considerin my crumpler.I DID NT GT IT IN E END.hahaha.dunnoe whether i did e right thing.aiya.e colour nt really nice lahh.denn.so ex.n i hv quite a few bags le.nt as many as mummyy.she has 40++so ya.I DID NT GT MY CRUMPLER.lol.bought a jacket though.a nice white 1 (: haha.left 4 kuantan kinda late lahh.reached abt 8+ le.stayed at HYATT yt again.haha.go everywhere also stay at hyatt de lohh.haha.juz dat kl e hyatt was bought over so dunnoe bcm wad le.so stayed at ascott.loads of memories in kuantan :D haha.history repeated itself.waited so long 4 dem 2 upgrade e rm again.stupid lahh.last yr upgrade.e rm gt seaview but den nt club rm.dis time.is club rm.no seaview.stupidd.haha.oh well.e furniture all looks newer.so stayed in village 3.mummy n daddy brought us back 2 e places where we ate last yr.lol.so ya.had dinner den slept quite early ba.

day 4 - kuantan (19/06)

woke up kinda earlyy.wanted 2 watch sunrise lohh.but den stupid clouds.arghhh.haha.so nt dat nice lohh.e security guard said dat if it rained 2dae.den tmr very nice sunrise.lol.after dat went 2 e beachh.yayy.e tide so low.so wrote loads of stuff lohh.haha.picked shells.took pictures.yayy.love e beach :D ate a typical hyatt breakfast.haha.nice lahh.den went 2 playy at e playground.so kiddy rite.aiya.its fun bein a kid X) played 4 quite long.haha.i love e swing XD after dat.went 4 lunchh at e same place as last yr.nt bad lahh.went shoppin at parkson.yayyy.i gt loads of stuff.haha.shoes.belt.tank tops.bags.yaa.my sisters din gt so much dis time.lol.bought 12 movie dvds lohh.daddy did dat 2 stop me frm goin 2 watch movies.lol.so bought.mr beans holiday.night at e museum.de javu.200 pounds beauty.just follow law.next.blood diamond.spiderman 3.pirates of e carribean 3.oceans thirteen.fantastic 4.haha.wonder wen im eva gonna watch dem.was quite late le.went back 2 hyatt.had tea.i took 3 servings lohh.greedy me :D but really very nice wadd.haha.i was so full.every1 was.so dun nid eat dinner le lohh.went back 2 rm n played wif poker cards.haha.damn fun lahh.played 4 super long.was rainin outside so cannot go out mahh.daddy n mummy bought satay back.yummyy.haha.den played smmoree (: e cheat game lasted e longest lahh.haha.den soon.go 2 bed le lohh.

day 5 - kuantan / singapore (20/06)

so it rained rite.so tried 2 go see sunrise again.wahh.2dae even worst.nth at all.was super pissed.haha.e clouds were like all overr.oh well.gt over it soon lahh (: ate hyatt breakfast again lohh.haha.love hot chocolate :D went 2 e beach 4 e last timee.haha.I LOVE E BEACH (: went back n played poker cards againn.haha.went 2 eat lunch at e same placee.opp e hotel.den after dat drove hm le lohh.so saddd.haha.hol so fast over le lohh.but e drive back damn funn lahh.coz daddy was speedin n overtakin loads of cars.all e singapore cars were overtakin all e other cars.den dey tried 2 overtake each other smmore.lol.yaa.so reached hm le lohh (:

END OF HOL.BEGININ OF SCH :/

i tink u all wuld hv fallen asleep by now.lol.

SORRY ALL WHO SMSED ME N I TOOK A SUPER DUPER LONG TIME 2 REPLYY!!! :D

haha.e netwk damn slow de lahh.n it always gts cut off.lol.

NT SO GD STUFF ABT E HOL ):
; ntwk
; stomachache
; no sunrise

lol.but i bought loads of stuff (:

MY HOL PREZZIES :D
; 1 bag {brown.white}
; 1 belt {heart-shaped.white}
; 2 pairs or earrins {silver.stars.spirals}
; 3 tank tops {brown.blue.pink}
; 4 shirts {red.orange.black.white.purple}
; 4 pairs of shoes {silver.black.white}

yayy.haha.my 'sports' stuff will b bought by mummy wen she goes 2 e states in julyy. dats if she rmbs

dats abt it ba.my super long n borin outdated postt.haha.

hmm.shuld i post e pics? lol.

our hands are meant to hold the ones we love and never let them go.

# beauty #

3:51 PM; iloveu Y

`STARRY NITE

where eva we r.

we r lookin at e same sky.

haha.smhow i dun feel like goin lehh.gonna miss my bedd (: lol.n obviously every1 here lahh X)

9:50 PM; iloveu Y

`DREAMZ

reallyy e opp of reality?

yy cant i stop dreamin of u.

tried 2 shut u out.

tried 2 run awayy.

but u still remain.

only in my dream.

wahhh.2dae damn stupid lahh.woke up wif headache n runnin nose.after dat still gt stomachache.haha.so woke up at like 12.den eat lunch le.tried 2 do rs n hist.totally cannott.head damn pain.so went back 2 sleep.woke up durin dinner time.ate dinner.den watch tv.haha.so slack ritee (:

SLACK . SHOP . SLEEP .

yayy.can go malaysia le :D if nth happens lahh okk.go sleep le.tmr still gt sl.hai.

my doom dae tmr.hp bill comin.i tink.

thank you God for answering my prayers and making everything go smoothly ending well (: i pray that we will have a great and enjoyable time in malaysia.amen.

IM SO IN LOVE WIF PIRATES OF E CARIBBEAN SOUNDTRACKS!! :D

i still feel like watchin it again :X

i love walkin in e rain coz no one noes im cryin.

will dreamz juz remain as dreamz.

every song sings a memory.

# reflection #

11:30 PM; iloveu Y

`BRAINDEAD

IM OFFICIALLY BRAINDEAD THANX 2 MY MATH REMEDIAL XTRA PRAC HW -.-

I SPENT 6 HRS DOIN 134 ALGEBRA N INDICES SUMS.LOL.

IM PROUD 2 SAY DAT IVE FINISHED MY MATH HW!!! YAYYY!!! ego me

DAMN DAMN HAPPYY :D

hai.left hist pt 2 finish.i only hv tmr 2 finish it or else cannot go hol.even if i finishh.also mayb cannot go ):

wahh.dat math hw ahh.damn waste time lohh.i wasted 8 1/2 pieces of fulscap despite cuttin short my wkins X) waste my ink.pencil lead.eraser dust.lol.oh ya.electricity also.haha.my com was on thruout e 6 hrs.BLASTIN MY MUSIC SO I CAN DO MY MATH MAHHH :D

now gt stupid headache. duh hand abit numb.neck damn pain.l8ter piano lesson sure die.haha.BRAINDEAD.

oh well. I FINISHED MY MATH HW XD

THANK YOU GOD FOR GIVING ME THE WISDOM AND THE PERSERVERANCE TO COMPLETE MY MATH :D

THANK YOU PPL WHO TAGGED MY TAGBOARD KEEPIN IT ALIVE!! :D

shall go prack piano now (:

e distance grows greater by e daes.

# what ive done #

5:38 PM; iloveu Y

`PAINFUL JOY

IT HURTS 2 SMILE WEN UR BLEEDIN INSIDE.

wahh.stupid headache noww.haha.kinda chiongin theoryy.seriouslyy.i dun tink i can finish my hw b4 i go on hol ):

kinda woke up late 2dae.daddy sent me 2 schh.nt bad lahh.5 mins late only.lol.me n my stupid bad habit X) wahh.den 1st thing we do.CHANGE STRINGS.my goshh.my poor fingers nearly broke.THANX ZHENLING.VALERIE.JEANNETTE.WEISHAN 4 helpin me.haha.i was so freakin slow lahh.den zhenlings guitar was so ARGH.haha.e knob thingyy so tight lahh.so we were takin turns 2 tune it.den instructor wahh.juz turn it so easilyy.lol.juniors r so pro lohh.haha.i tink dey r gonna overtake my batch soon :X after dat prack prelude lohh.goshh.i still cant play it (: haha.

went 4 lunch wif wen yan n magdalene.was supposed 2 buy kfc meals 4 valerie.debbie.jeannette.xinmin.haha.so wen yan wanted 2 eat subway cookies so went subway 1st lohh.in e end i ended up buyin e choc chip wif m&ms :D haha.wen yan gt e double choc chip n white chip wif macademia nuts.went upstairs 2 eat chicken rice.haha.met instructor on e wayy.den wen we were leavin.met instructor again.haha.debbie was smsin magdalene askin us 2 hurryy up.instructor was lookin 4 smth spray thingyy.den i was like hair spray ahh.lol.so he walked past 77th street.'wahh.wait.so many sprays.' 'ermm.all hair spray lahh.' in e end.he say i curse him far east only gt hair spray lohh.ehhh.but really wadd.lol.instructor decided 2 give us a ride.we went 2 buy kfc meals while he went 2 gt his carr.so magdalene bought 4 valerie n debbie.had 2 wait 4 e zinger burger.lol.e seniors were really hungry le.SORRYY!!haha.so i bought 4 jeannette n xinmin.while waitin.went wif wen yan 2 buy her bubble tea.since she was CRAVIN 4 it.lol.culdnt see instructor lehh.so collected e food n waited 4 himm.den decided 2 call seniors.HE WAS BACK IN SCH.lol.we were like omg.haha.so hurry rush back 2 schh.we were super late.

went past e canteen.n heard screamss.rite.e seniors.hahaha.so honoured lohh.like GOH like datt.so ya lohh.passed e fooddd.den go back n prack le.lesson time.haha.my poor fingers so pain lahh.gt blister le ): lol.so played etude.romance de amor.minuet.e entertainer.twinkle twinkle little star wif zhenling n wen yan.yayyy.so fun lahh.den we played scales too.laughed like siaoo :D haha.wahhh.now gt alot of stuff 2 learn lehh.entertainer.flamenco.prelude.haiyoo.my guitar sounds really weird noww.i still like my old strings!! (: play play 1/2wae den hit wrong string.damn loud lahh.so zhenling n i started laughin.den wen yan was still singin.after dat zhenling also playy wrongly le.so we both started laughin den cannot play le.but dere wen yan was.still singin awayy.lol.funny demm.

walked wif priscilla 2 e bus stop.she ran 4 105 but still missed it.haha.poor gal.den xin min n jeannette were dere too.lol.so went back hm le lohh.stupid lehhh.at mrt station.tapped my ez link card.den only 1 side of e 'door' open.wahlao.haha.luckily still can go thru :D after dat.at yck dere.i tripped.heng ahh.nv sprain my ankle.but damn pain n loud lahh.haha.unwanted attention.so ya lohh.went back hm.siann lahh.

thank you God for helping me overcome my pain (: it felt much better.

i miss sngs

hai.a few more daes 2 go.JIAYOU GRACE.

we r lookin at e same skyy.

love me.

# insecurity #

10:02 PM; iloveu Y

`GOODBYE

10:30 PM; iloveu Y

`THE BEGINNIN

IM SO DEAD.

; nile river
; math assignment
; readin activity
; hist pt
; mep pt
; theory
; prack piano
; prack guitar

haha.die die rite.haiyoo.SLACKER wad.wad do u xpect X)

nth much happened 2dae lahh.juz slacked around lohh.fallin sick le ): siann.dunnoe me or e weather lahh.but its really SUPER HOT.mayb im havin fever or smth.haha.den gt stomachache n headache smmore.hai.hope 2nite sleep le tmr gone le lahh :D

YAYY.GETTIN MY IPOD NANO TMR.HOPEFULLY.if nth happens again.abit slow rite.but oh well.at least im gettin it XD

song without words.

my rainbow fairytale.

# far away #

8:23 PM; iloveu Y

`MUSIC IS MY LIFE

yayy.after 2 piano lessons.im kinda happyy le (: haha.nt really really happy but ya.juz happyy :D

smhow my pieces r gettin worst n worst.xcept 4 my emo piece.lol.LOVE MY EMO PIECE :D

aural.hmm.im like damn xtra cann.every1 sing back rite.I PLAY BACK.hahaha.my teacher is still tryin 2 convince me 2 sing back lahh.but oh well.i shall b XTRAORDINARY n PLAY XD yayy.confirmed my perfect pitch :D n i still LOVE C MAJOR.lol.

scales still as stupid as eva.sight readin is still okk lahh.

MY RHYTHM IS GOIN HAYWIRE!! ARGH.

my theory results ): hai.

oh well.MUSIC IS MY LOVE :D

single - natasha bedingfield

ah yeah that's right
all you single people out there
this is for you

i'm not waitin' around for a man to save me
(cos i'm happy where i am)
don't depend on a guy to validate me
(no no)
i don't need to be anyone's baby
(is that so hard to understand?)
no I don't need another half to make me whole

make your move if you want
doesn't mean i will or won't
i'm free to make my mind up
you either got it or you don't

this is my current single status
my declaration of independence
there's no way i'm tradin' places
right now a star's in the ascendant

i'm single
(right now)
that's how i wanna be
i'm single
(right now)
that's how i wanna be

ah yeah uh huh that's right

don't need to be on somebody's arm to look good
(i like who i am)
i'm not saying i don't wanna fall in love 'cos i would
i'm not gonna get hooked up just 'cos you say i should
(can't romance on demand)
i'm gonna wait so i'm sorry if you misunderstood

this is my current single status
my declaration of independence
there's no way i'm tradin' places
right now a star's in the ascendant

i'm single
(right now)
that's how i wanna be
i'm single
(right now)
that's how i wanna be

everything in it's right time everything in it's right place
i know i'll settle down one day
but till then i like it this way
it's my way
eh i like it this way

make your move if you want
doesn't mean i will or won't
i'm free to make my mind up
you either got it or you don't

till then i'm single

this is my current single status
my declaration of independence
there's no way I'm tradin' places
right now a star's in the ascendant

this is my current single status
my declaration of independence
there's no way i'm tradin' places
right now a star's in the ascendant

i'm single
(right now)
that's how i wanna be
i'm single
(right now)
that's how i wanna be

nice catchy song (:

the memories etched in my mine.

# inner beauty #

10:24 PM; iloveu Y

`BEAUTY IN THE BREAKDOWN

the worst day ever - simple plan

6 a.m.
the clock is ringing
i need to spend an hour snoozing
cuz i don't think i'm going to make it
i punch in
i'm still sleeping
watch the clock
but it's not moving
cuz every day is never ending
i need to work
i'm always spending

and i feel like
i'm living the worst day
over and over again
and i feel like
the summer is leaving again
i feel like
i'm living the worst day
i feel like you're gone
and every day is the worst day ever

yesterday was the worst day ever
and tomorrow won't be better
it's history repeating
summer plans are gone forever
i traded them in for dishpan water
and every day is never ending
i need to work
i'm always spending

and i feel like
i'm living the worst day
over and over again
and i feel like
the summer is leaving again
i feel like
i'm living the worst day
i feel like you're gone
and every day is the worst day ever

it's so long
i can't go on
it's so long
i can't go on

and i feel like
i'm living the worst day
over and over again
and i feel like
the summer is leaving again
i feel like
i'm living the worst day
i feel like you're gone
and every day is the worst day ever

dis song so totally describes my life.

yeah.i shuldnt b emoin but bcoz of dat stupid mentality dat now wen i break down.I REALLY BREAK DOWN

**** **** **** ****

breakin down.

all coz of a stupid mistake.

my tears hv run dry.

my heart has broken.

its over.

**** **** **** ****

my life is screwed.

thanks 2 u.

sick n tired of anythin.

n everythin.

**** **** **** ****

pickin myself up.

movin on.

frm e bottom of my heart.

i thank you.

4 bein dere.

wen i most needed u.

**** **** **** ****

deres still dis slight ray of hope

dat u will return

# hurt #

10:24 PM; iloveu Y

`ROMANCE DE AMOR

can i eva hate sm1 whom i once loved.

woke up like 1/2hr late 2dae.okk.actually i woke up le lahh.but wanted 2 sleep smmore mahh.so in e end woke up at 8.e latest i culd leave my house was 815.lol.i left at 825.luckily i removed my nail polish :X stupid lahh.wore my broken tracks out.den had 2 go back n change.2 my old yucky 1s.haha.mayb i shuld wear my GLITTERY shoes tmr.LOL.so kinda rushed 2 schh.was abt 15 mins late.while walkin 2 j blk.saw zhenlingg.haha.so went wif her 2 pb rm.den back 2 j blk.i was like 1/2 late.yayy.instructor din say anithin.teachers werent dere too.haha.wahh.E PRELUDE PIECE AHH.ARGHH.oh well.my poor fingers dats all i can sayy.ill nv make it

went 4 lunchh wif cheryl.anna.magdalene.celestine.mary.maria.charis.haha.ate chicken rice.nice cheryl treated me :D haha.coz i give her 1 neoprint.LOL.nt bad lahh.BETTER DEN FASTFOOD X) so was walkin around in far east since it was so earlyy.'err.wo zai na ge you hen duo green green thing de di fang' LOL.dis sentence said by sm gal sent me n maria laughin like siao.more me lahhh.so in e process wen we were laughin.mary blowed her nose.dunnoe yy.but dat made us laugh even moree.in e end dey said i ended up DANCIN -.- hahaha.but it was damn funnyy lahh.went wif cheryl 2 chamelon 2 buy her hairties.so dat i culd hv mine back (: shun bian went 2 watsons.I STILL WAN 2 COLOUR MY HAIR :D haha.e rest decided 2 go back 2 schh.so cheryl wanted 2 buy sweets den followed her 2 lido isetan.wahhh.she cannot tell e diff btween lido n wisma lahh.haha.so she bought after eight (: n dis grape sweet thingyy.in order 2 waste more time.she decided 2 look 4 my temp hair spray colour thingy.lol.finally left lido at 125.we had like 5 mins left.we strolled 2 e bus stop.yayy.she gave me 3 after eights :D yummyyy.so went back 2 sch.went canteen coz cheryl wanted 2 buy 100+.we were like 15 mins late.instructor wasnt in e rm.haha.

broke 4 level prac.minuet is such a nice song lahh.my grade 1 piano piece lehh.haha.romance de amor is a super duper nice song.IF IM NT PLAYIN IT :D yaa.like seriously.if i can eva master it.dat will b like a million yrs later or smth.zhenling n i were kinda bored u see.she was entertainin me wif her SCANDALOUS SLC STUFF.LOL.so ya.we were bein spastic n stuff.

e convos below may sound xtremely bimb.stupid.spastic.so u can choose 2 skip it X)

LAST TIME.
zhenling: do u buff ur nails.
me: huhhh.like wad.soak in e bathtub or smthh.lol.
zhenling: duhh no.u buff ur nails usin e buffer.it makes ur nails shinier.
me: ohhh.i dun.
zhenling: omg.u dun.i feel so bimb.
me: hahaha.
zhenling: okk.i shall teach u in june.
me: orhhh.

CONTINUATION 2DAE.
me: oh ya.u haven taught me how 2 buff my nails lehh.
zhenling: oh ya.do u hv a buffer.
me: ermm.no.
zhenling: ohh.i dun too.
me: huhh.den how u buff ur nails de.
zhenling: i used to.i threw mine away.
me: orhh.cheyy.i tot u used e bathtub or smth.
zhenling: -.- my bathtub is white n shiny.
me: LOL.
(both starts laughin)

zhenling: (instructors name) is rather whinyy u noee.
me: ya.e gal in him.
(both burst out laughinn)

zhenling: i din xpect him 2 b so ugly u noe.
me: u mean worst den e pic.
zhenling: ermm.yaa.but i tot ppl look worst in deir pic.
me: aiya.u shuld hv sm xin li zhun bei de mahh.
zhenling: but den hes like so EWWW.he looks like an egg.
me: like hard boiled egg.lol.
zhenling: hahaha.ya lahh.wen he said.im **** frm ****.i turned n gt a shock of my life.
me: awww.lol.so sad he din recognise u lahh.
zhenling: rite.i wuld xpect him 2 say like.ohhh.does ***** still hv dat beautiful figuree.
(CENSORED IN CASE I GT INTO TROUBLE :D)

zhenling: u noe wadd.i tink im gonna really miss rg.i dun wanna go rjc lohh.
me: haha.yy nt.
zhenling: i dun like e erm.male species.ya noe.
me: lol.dats y ive been in e gal sch 4 7+ yrs.
zhenling: hahaha.ehh.u nv noe lehh.u may b sittin nxt 2 **** in rjc.
me: oh plss.dun curse me like dat horr.im nv so unlucky de lohhh.
zhenling: hahaha.u nv noee.
me: he may nt go 2 rjc wadd.okk.his grades can gt him dere i tink.but denn.
zhenling: hahaha.imagine if **** goes 2 rjc.
both: imagine if ***** goes 2 rjc (both start laughin)
zhenling: lol.aiya it wuld b better if ***** goes 2 ***.
me: but den she wun de lahh.she still has her ** ******** waddd.
zhenling: oh ya horrr.imagine if all her bfs go 2 rjc.
(both start laughin again)

hahaha.so yaa.we were bein really stupid n stufff.wahhh.but no more spastic convos tmr.dat zhenling gt pb stuff.NT FAIR ): lol.

so ya lohh.after dat took mrt hm le lohh.OUCH.MY POOR FINGERS ):

wahhh.ive 10 daes b4 my holidae in kuantan + kl.3 daes taken 4 guitar.2 daes 4 piano.5 daes free.but denn.i haven included rs meetin daes yt lehhh.abt 3 daes ba.so I ONLY HV 2 DAES FREE.MY GOSH.hai.JIAYOU GRACE.

no matter how hard i try.

it ain gonna work out.

i guess its over.

its hard to let go.

bittersweet love.

# one last breath #

5:56 PM; iloveu Y

`DELUSION

hai.mayb wad zhenling said was right (:

ive finally learnt my lesson.I SHALL NT LEND PPL $$ FRM NOW ON.haha.ya.so dose who hv always been borrowin $$ frm me.im sorry but i shall nt lend u ani animore.like really lahh.wadeva i lend ur.i dun seem 2 gt it back.xcept sm lahh.n i THANK dose ppl :D but ya.i either gt back lesser or totally nt gt it back at all.

hai.at dis rate.im like so freakin dead lahh.ive barely $10 in my wallet now.stupid.yy e hell did i b nice n lend ppl $$ arghhh.i shall mind my own business nxt time oh well.once bitten.twice shyy.

SORRY 4 E RATHER PISSIFYIN POST.

haha.oh ya.I JUZ REALISED DAT DERES SO MANY SONGS DAT I CANNOT FIND LOHH ): haiyoo.

MUSIC RAWKS MY WORLD :D

yayyy.blastin music really really helps.dats only if im hm alone

till the next sunrise.

# beautiful lies #

10:53 PM; iloveu Y

`SHOOTIN STAR

haha.juz love e word - STAR :D

aniwaes.went 2 church.learnt quite abit.'do NOT put God to the test' ' be CONTENTED with what you have' lol.hard rite.hai.TRY TRY.we always seem 2 demand 4 things.our desires take control of us.'forbidden fruit is always the sweetest' we never seem to consider the consequences or e ppl around us.its juz ME.ME ALONE.neglectin e love dat ppl shower on us.the blessings that God showers on us.He showers love to both the JUST and the UNJUST.the greatness of God's MERCY and GRACE.

wahh.very bored lehh.haha.oh ya.had a damn freaky dream lahh.i dreamnt dat i broke every rule in sch lohh.i dyed my hair.smoked.took drugs.pierced dunnoe how many holes.played truant.hung out at pubs.fought in sch.it wasnt until i murdered sm person in my sch.dat i woke up.my gosh.1030.i was supposed 2 b up at like 10.lol.STUPID DREAM.

haha.i suddenly hv e urge 2 watch pirates of e caribbean again lehh.its nice wadd.e effects.e backgrd musicc.lol.siao siao me.as a matter of fact.IM STILL BROKE.hai.but its nice de lohh.funnyy.scaryy.haha.e part wen dat frozen toe was broken off was seriously sickk.denn another part.jack was like did any1 save me coz dey missed me.or smth like datt.hahaha.i wanna watch again lahh (:

oh well.shall go slack or smthh.BORIN SUNDAY.

shuld i or shuld i nt

lack of courage.

our fates are always intertwined.but never joined.

# destiny #

3:56 PM; iloveu Y

`MY LOVE

emo me randomin again

hai.i juz realised.dat im REALLY REALLY TOTALLY TOTALLY B-R-O-K-E.ya.like seriously broke.my xpenditure dis mnth horr.is like so so gonna hit e roof mann.my phone bills.shoppin bills.transport bills.blah blah blahh.hai.save me sm1

me n my immaturityy.still unable 2 hand stupid situations like dese.hai.guess dats juz me.i nv seem 2 grow up aniwae.

dat place juz reminds me of u.dat very time.dat very moment.yt now its all a thing of e past.

the long awaited day has arrived.yt im still at a loss of wad 2 do.wuld sm1 pls give me an answer.

is this all worth it.r u really worth the wait.e time.e effort.r u really worth it.

past memories juz seem 2 flood my mind.

dwellin in e past.wen will i pick myself up n move on.

wen will i eva hv e courage.

this love is killin me.

# heartache #

11:30 PM; iloveu Y

`RAINBOW

yayyy.a rainbow after e rain (:

haha.seems dat after i prayed n vented out all my emotions.everythin turned out okk (: GRACE IS A HAPPY GAL NOW :D

thank you God for answerin my prayers.i pray God that everthing will go as planned.amen.

distance makes the heart grow fonder.

# starry nite #

10:34 PM; iloveu Y

FALLIN APART

hai.feelin like shit now.

yy everything happens at once de lohh.hai.all gd things happen at once.dey all end tgt.bad things happen tgt.yet dey nv seem 2 end.

left alone.ignored.in my rm.no one cares

wait for you - elliott yamin

i never felt nothing in the world like this before
now i'm missing you & i'm wishing that
you would come back through my door
why did you have to go
you could have let me know
so now i'm all alone
girl you could have stayed but
you wouldnt give me a chance
with you not around
it's a little bit more then i can stand
and all my tears they
keep running down my face
why did you turn away

so why does your pride make you run & hide
are you that afraid of me
but i know it's a lie what you keep inside
this is not how you wanted to be

so baby i will wait for you
cause i don't know what else i can do
don't tell me i ran out of time
if it takes the rest of my life
baby i will wait for you
if you think i'm fine it just aint true
i really need you in my life
no matter what i have to do
i'll wait for you

it's been a long time since you called me
(how could you forget about me)
you got me feeling crazy (crazy)
how can you walk away
everything stays the same
i just can't do it baby
what will it take to make you come back
girl i told you what it is & it just ain't like that
why can't you look at me
your still in love with me
don't leave me crying

baby why can't we just start over again
get it back to the way it was
if you give me a chance i can love you right
but your telling me it wont be enough

so baby i will wait for you
cause i don't know what else i can do
don't tell me i ran out of time
if it takes the rest of my life
baby i will wait for you
if you think i'm fine it just aint true
i really need you in my life
no matter what i have to do
i'll wait for you

so why does your pride make you run & hide
are you that afraid of me
but i know it's a lie what your keeping inside
thats not how you wanted to be
baby i will wait for you
baby i will wait for you
if it's the last thing i do

baby I will wait for you
cause i don't know what else i can do
don't tell me I ran out of time
if it takes the rest of my life
baby i will wait for you
if you think i'm fine it just aint true
i really need you in my life
no matter what i have to do
i'll wait for you

i'll be waiting

e distance dat seperates us.

# winter love #

3:39 PM; iloveu Y