`LOST

hai.2dae abit sadd lahh.but im okk (:

haha.told myself i wuldnt cryy.yayy.im proud of myself (: i din cry at all. teared abit though

gt back math paper.hai.xpected lahh.tmr still muz go meet teacher 2 talk talk again.mep was rather borin lahh.haha.den went back 2 class 2 pack my stuff.went 4 piano xam le lohh.go dun tell me go lahh.sayy wad my parents muz sign blah blah.lol.ite still let me off (: gt abit drenched den went hm le lohh.

piano xam was screwed okk lahh.abit disappointin though.

scales - im confident of passin dis (: haha.coz it was kinda easy.much easier den i tot.1st scale was D MAJOR.haha.was damn happyy lahh.afterdat ya gt stuff like Ab MAJOR. contrary motion gt C MINOR (: den no diminished.gt others lahh.4gt le.haha.i tot dey wuld give like Eb minor or Bb minor or F# minor dis kinda stuff but nope (:

a:3 - was okk lahh.phrasing n dynamic contrasts wasnt so great.but manage 2 sustain tempo (:
b:5 - wasnt emo enuff lohhh.but okk lahh.tripped abit here n dere but still gt xpression (: i tstill tink will score e highest (:
c:2 - nt much dynamic contrast.tripped on e very last chord :/ so freakin obvious.but managed 2 sustain tempo (:

sight readin - missed a few flats.but quite gd overall (:

aural - playback was okk lahh.but i tink my rhythm abit off.singin was okk xcept 4 my rhythm again.cadences was funny.suddenly xaminer play wrong note.den covered his eyes.i tot he was like gonna cry or smth.lol.den he put down his hands 'its been a long day' haha.den i was like 'yaa' so he played a few notes den said 'ill give u another one or else it will b unfair 2 u' haha.so dat was easyy.period n style one also easy lahh.but my rhythm abit off again.lol.wads wif my rhythm man :/

hai.2dae juz gt no mood lohh.arghh.oh well.ITS OVER.

my distinction fly away le.hai.hope at least a merit ba (:

hai.now muz prep 4 CONCERT + GUITAR XAM + VIOLIN XAM + EOYS :/

JUZ ONE MORE TERM GRACE.JIAYOU! (:

bio pt was yayy.haha.my worst pt yt e highest mark ;D haha.eng essay was quite okk lahh.quite few ppl picked my question sayin it was very chim.'there are only two tragedies in life: one is not getting what you want, the other is getting it.' lol.juz pass can le (:

yayy.tmr sch end early.den goin back 2 sngs :D haha.

thank you God for bringing me through yet another term.for helpin me grow stronger each day (: I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me (:

THANKS ALL WHO WISHED ME WELL 4 PIANO EXAM!! FOR ALL E ENCOURAGEMENTS . LITTLE NOTES . HUGS!! LOVEYA ALL LOADS!! :D

TO ALL WHO R STILL SADD OVER XAMS N STUFF.CHEER UP KKAYES!! (: 'DERE WILL ALWAYS B A RAINBOW AFTER E RAIN!! :D' SMILEE PPL!!

'grace is the beauty of form under the influence of freedom' - Johann Friedrish Von Schiller

underneath this smile.

# love me again #

5:39 PM; iloveu Y

` GET HIGH

yayyy.2dae was damn sick + tired + highh.hahaha.abit de contradictin ritee.oh well.here cms my rather long blog post X)

sat ...
din do very much ba.went 4 rs at subwayy.den so many rgs galz.coz gt css at nite mahh.aiyo.damn funny lahh.mabel + yujin + me were kinda makin alot of noise lahh.loll.so ya.random stuff.den went hm.wahlao.huiying scared me like siao cann.coz i gt off at yck mrt station mahh.den she suddenly cm n hit me frm e back.lol lahh she.saw me den gt off e train.haha.n ya lahh.SHAWN WON! (: aiya.ALL DID VERY WELL lahh :D

sun ...
went 2 church.afterdat had sushi 4 lunch den rushed 2 mabels house 4 rs.brought my baby laptop along (: haha.so mabel + yu jin + me were randomin again.haha.like yujins laptop is daddy.den mabels is mummyy.den mine is baby :D lol.yayy.i like huggin pooh X) haha.ya lahh.so laughed alot while rs-in (: wahh.afterdat kena sore throat.oh ya.kelly came.so did rs until like abt 8 den mabel nid 2 rush 4 violin lesson.haha.yayy.so yujins parents sent e 3 of us 2 westmall.den took mrt wif kelly hm lohh.wahh.MRTS AHHH.TSK TSKK XD

mon ...
hmmm.nth much happened ba.gt back my chi.nt very li xiang but pass lahh ): den kinda lost my guitar le ): hai.cannot find lohh.hopefully its in 1 of e guitar cupboards ba.or else i really die.haha.so ya lohh.went 4 guitar.was rather slack lahh.sian sian de.at nite kena headache smmore :/

2dae :D

DAMN SICK.U MAY WISH 2 SKIP E FOLLOWIN CONTENT.OR SIMPLY B GROSSED OUT BY IT X)

haha.okk.so went 2 schh.xtremely freakin cold cann.haiyo.was super duper tiredd.despite sleepin early.so durin bio.dozed off like siao.my goshh.really culdnt concentrate lohh.eng was quite okk lahh.coz kept movin around.so cannot really sleep.lol.den seryee went n hug me lohh.say i very warmm.anihow touch touch.tsk tsk.haha.geog was quite okk lahh.culd kinda keep awake (: afterdat.class party.bcm super high lohh.i tink every1 was lahh.so was eatin wif qiqi.zhenling.rachel.we were bein really random lohh.

rachel: qiqi.yy so stone.
me: u rawk.
qiqi: thanks ahh.i noe i rawk.
me: i meant rachel.lol.
rachel: hahaha.
qiqi: -.-
me: (points 2 zhenling) pebble.
qiqi: den wad r u.
me + qiqi: boulder!
(every1 starts laughin)
zhenling: waddd.
rachel: ur pebble.all e frogs hop on it de.
me: yaa.den can find frog prince!
(qiqi was laughin n laughin)
zhenling: e pebble cannot kiss e frog waddd!!
me: obviously e frog kiss e pebble lahh!!
rachel: ya lohh ya lohh.dunnoe kiss where lehh!!
qiqi: rachel u damn sick cann!!
(every1 started laughin like siao)

den seryee.kelly.huiying came alongg.kelly started tellin abt my sensitive spots blah blah blahh.den kelly.huiying.rachel.seryee.renci all started bullyin me lohhh.zhenling.joy.qiqi were pang guan zhes.LOL.ya lohhh.dey purposely go touch meee everywhere.esp my neckk.so i use my jacket cover.den dey squeeze deir fingers in lahh.SICK SICKKK.my goshh.haha.den afterdat had cle.sat nxt 2 huiying n seryee.kena mo again.wahlaoo.SICK LAHH.front back everywheree.haha.den math was kinda borin.was dozin off le.finally ended.den bcm high again :D

so rushed 2 canteen 2 eat mahhh.den coz i was still wearin my jacket.YAYY.I LOVE MY PURPLE VELVET JACKET :D so yvonne n yinghui wanted 2 hug me lohh.coz wearin jacket very warm mahh.so i was randomin abt how dey dunnid jackets coz dey very hot le X) haha.den dey were kinda pullin me here n dere.afterdat met huiying.we told her smth abt lao po lao gong or smthh.den coz yinghui + me + yvonne had deir hands over my neck n i had mine over deirs mahh.den huiying was like 'wo ye yao!' n PU XIANG WO LEHH.my goshh.SO I SCREAMED.natural reaction mahh.yess i noe my scream is super ear piercin so it sent LOADS OF UNWANTED ATTENTION.every1 like eatin den all turn n stare.loll.super maluatin lahh.den ppl were tellin me how loud my scream was.MALU MALU.so ate ice-cream despite feelin super cold.

yvonne + yinghui: yy u eatin ice-cream ahh.
me: coz sweet mahh (:
yinghui: orhhh.tian mi mi ritee.
yvonne: haha.like ur bfs riteee.
me: WAD?!?!
(starts laughin againn)

loll.den yujin n mabel came 2 sit wif me.huiying was bein super sickk lohh.haha.coz yujin was kinda pushin me up n down.so i made e 'ouch ouch' sound mahh.den huiying was like 'she doin wif u frm e back ahh' O.o coz huiying claims dat wadeva sound i make it sounds like sex sounds O.o hahaha.so we were all like ERMMM.den mabel was pushin me backwardds.so i stretch my leg 2 keep balance mahh.haha.yu jin was likee.can u both dun b so obscene.LOLL.SICK SICKK.so went 4 rs in ks chee.borin lahh.cheryl n huiying keep whackin me lohh.afterdat huiying keep touchin meee.SICKKKK.haha.so started touchin her also.shes more sensitive den me de XD yaa.so was crappin wif her thruout rs.SICKK SICKK.lol.afterdat.saw wilson at e foyer.told priya.jessica.rachel.april.dey all dun believe me lohhh.so ask dem go see 4 demselves.dey were like 'OMG OMG' esp priya.HORR PRIYAA.hahaha.shes obsessed wif wilson lahh.oh well.den she tried 2 follow him lohh.but ite lost him.haha.so i told her go canteen n find.wahhh.she was STUCK at e canteen can.took so long 2 meet me back in e foyer.loll.ite din go 4 guitar lahh.was super sleepyy.

took 132 hm wif qiqi n priya.haha.1st time dey take further den me.coz qiqi go see doc den priya go amk mrt.haha.we were randomin abt our hps to wilson to shoes to movies to where we lived.etc etc.hahaha.funny funnyy.EHH QIQI.CANNOT HATE ME LOHH :D HATE RENCI 1ST.LOLL.haha.shall take 132 wif dem more often :D so went hm.used com a while.den cannot take it le lahh.went 2 sleep (: haha.din wake up until like 8+.so had 3+hrs of sleep.but i still sleepy lohh.lol.went n prack piano.die le lahh.totally no moodd.so pracked abit of pieces n scales den started bloggin le lohh :D

haha.hope dis high-ness lasts till e end of e wk.bein les once in a blue moon also damn funnyyy lohh :X haha.yayy.3 more daes till end of sch.2 more daes till piano xam.1 more dae till eng essay sa.wich is tmr.lol.yayy.tmr gt 2 free blocks.shall bring my theory n do (:

okk.shall go sleep early :D

hope u ppl haven fainted frm readin dis SICK long post.hahaha XD

i juz wanna b me.

# hear me #

10:47 PM; iloveu Y

`SECRET

haha.okk.so ytd sch was quite okk lahh.1st block was slack.den geog watch video.mathh sian sian.haha.teacher tot i was nt okk or smth.speech watch video also.hist was kinda slack.assembly was cao borin.although i was havin fun disturbin huiying n cheryl (: ya.so thruout e dae kinda tired ba.dunnoe yy lohh.slept 4 so long still cao tired.oh well.

went 2 watch secret wif cheryl.it was a last min thing lahh.met her outside e hall.

cheryl: ehh.i damn bored lahh.
me: haha.same here.ehh u wanna go watch secret?!
cheryl: lol.okk!!

haha.so she treated me 2 taxi.rich kid sia (: den e taxi driver damn funny cann.

cheryl: ehh.din we overshot ahh.
me: ermm.uncle ahh.isnt it like dere.
uncle: there block up already.bcm 1 wae.singapore very funny.always changin wan (starts laughin)
(we start laughin)
uncle: ur goin 2 catch movie ahh.
us: ya.
uncle: hairspray?
cheryl: hairspray?!?!
me: out already ahh.
uncle: ya.out ytd.
cheryl: i wan watch hairspray!!!
me: watch secret!!!
(uncle starts laughin)

lol lohh.so ite managed 2 convince cheryl 2 watch secret (: caught e 235 show.i tot nobody de lohh.wahh so freakin crowded.aniwaes brought lunch n coke inside :D SECRETS DAMN DAMN NICE CANN!! (: OMGG.I WANNA WATCH AGAIN!! :D haha.oh well.E PIANO PIECES DAMN DAMN COOLL LOHH.lol.okk.im bcmin siao.den e ppl so cute n funny de.haha.thruout e show cheryl was like.huhhh i dun gt it.haha.so ite din eat my lunch coz din feel like eatin.so went hm le lohh.cheryl nided 2 go 4 her electric guitar lesson.n she was still tryin 2 fix dat cube.

went hm.bathed.den nid 2 go 4 dinner le.din really feel like eatin dinner also lahh.so din eat much.went 2 visit my aunty.omgg.e baby is so freakin cute lohh!!!haha.den mummy was goin on n on abt how she xin xin ku ku brought us up frm so small blah blah blahh.n me n joyce were juz stonin at her X) haha.den my cuzzies also so cute lohh.1st time so well behaved de.okk nt very lah.better den normal (: afterdat go hm le lohh.haha.

yayy.woke up late again :D aiyo.gt rs at orchard l8ter.haha.okk.shall go play secret again.haha.damn hard 2 play can.lol.supposed 2 b prackin my xam pieces.instead im playin everythin xcept dat XD lol.

dats e way i like it.

# illusions #

11:00 AM; iloveu Y

`BUBBLES

yayy.happy gal now :D slept 4 3+hr but still feelin sleepy lehh.shall sleep early 2nite (:

OH YA.4GT 2 BLOG ABT MY AMAZIN LUNCH.note e sacarsm.lol.poor me was bein bullied again lohh :/

hahaha.oh well.kinda fun lahh.coz i was like really down.so bought dove ice cream + fluffy long neck marshmallow + cola gummy sweets :DD

kelly was like 'u juz buy 10 packets of each 4 graces' bdae can le' LOL.quite true lehh.hahaha.den ser yee so smart lohh.juz now hug me so tight nt enuff now wanna feed me.(she had an ulterior motive) 'u wanna take advantage of grace rite' quoted frm fuxin.hahaha.aniwaes.ser yee took my fluffy long neck marshmallow n started bouncin it up n down.den dun wanna give it back 2 me unless i let her feed me.so ya lohh.let her feed me.den coz its so long rite.kelly n ser yee wanted it 2 bounce back at my face.LOL.varsha was sittin at e side dere lookin so innocent.haha.'grace ahh.u dun wan can give me.i wan (:' -varsha.lol.so damn funny lahh.once i bite on2 e marshmallow den kelly n ser yee will pulll like really hard.haha.but ite i gt hold of e marshmallow.wahhh.den both cm n attack me.lol.okk.attracted alot of unwanted attention.coz ya.we were screamin n all.so stuffed all of it in2 my mouth.hahaha.den i refused 2 let ser yee feed me cola sweets :D okk.so dat was my rather.ermm.interestin lunch X)

yayy.tmr can go out 4 dinner.afterdat go visit my aunt :D wahh.dat means i only hv 4hrs if i wanna go out lehh.den muz rush hm.aiyo.hmmm.see how ba (:

THANX EVERY1 WHO ENCOURAGED ME 4 CHI PT!! :D LOVEYA ALL LOADS!! (: WELL DONE EVERY1!! (:

thank you God for your guidance and love that saw me through all my tests and exams (: even though i didnt do so well in some but it is the experience that counts.not the results (:

okk.shall go sleep soon.aiyo.e rain stopped le.saddd.juz now rain so heavily damn shiok 2 sleep lohh.haha.rain rain :D

its juz a matter of perspective.

# familiar stranger #

10:47 PM; iloveu Y

` SHADOW

hai.2dae was damn screwed cann.

stuff i 4gt 2 bring ...
; pencil case O.o
; chi pt scoresheet O.o

aiyo.so kinda tried out new hairstyle 2 schh.sm ppl tot i cut my hair.sm ppl tot i chopped it off wif a knife :/ haha.sm said my hair looked like a heart shape (: oh well.realised i 4gt 2 bring my pencil case.hai.was super angry wif myself.how 2 take tests w/o my pencil case -.- thanks manee + huiying + priya 4 lendin me stationery :D had math quiz.lol.din noe how 2 do at all.anihow guess.was kinda borin lahh.siann.crapped wif zhenling again XD haha.'if you start smth ... its hard 2 end it ...' lol X) mep hist was quite okk lahh.was bein really lame wif huiying XD den after dat so suay.had stupid stomachache.mep harmony quite okk lahh.hopefully no mistakes lohh (: hmmm.still tinkin whether 2 put violin or guitar as 2nd instrument.lol.chi pt was kinda screwed.ya lahh.so crapped.oh well.heng over liao.bio was kinda okk lahh.made sm dna thingy.ite no reaction.haha.yayy.took bus hm wif qiqi.loll.its been so longg XD okk.super duper tired.shall go take a nap soon :D


yayy.can relax le (: haha.hope i din fail ani tests lahh :D hmmm.watch secret.or dun watch ahh.aiyo.'to be or not to be, that is the question' LOLL :D

the grey sky.

# far away #

4:26 PM; iloveu Y

`EXPRESSIONS

sparkling crystal diamond stones (:

# so yesterday #

11:48 PM; iloveu Y

`INFLUENTIAL

wings to soar-

# fly away #

6:07 PM; iloveu Y

`COLOURS OF THE WIND

haha.sorryy lack of posts n replies of tags due 2 emoin n ya.was kinda busyy.so yupp.dis is gonna b a long borin post :D

THANX LOADS 4 EVERY1S ENCOURAGEMENTS KKAYES!! :D HAHA.YES I NOE I EMO REALLY REALLY OFTEN.BUT YA.THANK YOU ALLL!! :D LOVEYA LOADS!! (:

so spent almost e entire dae in sch.all thanx 2 speech dae.reached at abt 8 was supposed 2 reach at 730 den pracked 4 a while.after dat.we had 2hrs of free time.wahlao.cannot go out.lol.so went wif cheryl 2 e canteen.haha.saw rachel n sarah.wahhh.dey always trick me wif deir poker cards magic tricks lohh.lol.so played speed/stress wif dem :D crapped aroundd.smsed.blah blah blah.den we were playin cheat horr.wen weite told us we werent supposed 2 b playin cards in schh.haha.saddd.while sittin dere waitin 4 like 1++h.sang songs.played random notes.loll.den performed.wahh.3 rounds of e same 5 songs.my butt already achin lo.haha.okk.den ate lunch lohh.food was okk lahh.went hm at 3.

damn suay or can b counted luckky lahh.sm random stuff.

RAN IN2 HOY TWICE N SHE TOLD ME 2 TUCK IN MY HOUSE SHIRT.hai.1st time (i was walkin wif cheryl 2 j blk) - 'grace ahh.ur shirt abit long rite.muz learn like cheryl 2 tuck it in.oh wait.cheryl u muz tuck in ur shirt as well.(her shirt was folded)' 2nd time (was walkin wif cheryl 2 e canteen) - 'grace ahh.i see dat u hv folded ur house shirt.' MY GOSH.HENG SHE NV BOOK ME LOHH.haha.THANK GOD.or else i kena like 6 bookins 4 attire.lol.

was 1/2 hr late also.but den walked in2 canteen wif instructor so teacher didnt say anithin :P after dat went wif cheryl 2 put her stuff n take guitar.cm back.kinda kena scolded lahh by teacher lahh.she say went 2 find us cannot find.aiyo.we took our time wadd.den she culdnt do anithin.lol.

haha.coz i was wearin sngs shorts wif house shirt wif my kinda strikin shoes.lol.den i asked amanda if i was like bookable if i walked out like dat coz wrong shorts mahh.loll.'actually im quite scared 4 u lehh.coz no coloured shoelaces.its a formal schdae.' 'oh shit.' haha.so i had 2 wear court shoes 2 go n change.in e end i looked really weird.so after performance.again.i was in house shirt.court shoes.n sngs shorts.denn priscilla was like 'wahh.u really look very weird lehh.hahaha.' jeanette also went 'new fashion sense lehh' lolll.

instructor was sayin how cm i look so tired 2dae.haha.so i told him coz last nite go watch firewks den went hm quite late.past few nites also slept quite late.blah blah blah.n smhow linked 2 my 3 instruments xam.loll.weirdd.

randomm.okk.here cms e nt so happy stuff.

bio.disection of sm mammals heart.my goshh.I TOTALLY TOTALLY FREAKED OUTT.haha.yes.it showed on my face.lol.ehh but seriously lahh.my grps was e most BLOODY heart.its like other grps.u pump water thru e artery den out cms water.ours pump in water.cm out fresh red blood lohh.gross.haha.thank God i din choose 2 take bio.but afterdat.okk le lahh.haha.dared 2 touch n hold it (:

screwed mep project.sorryy ppl.hai.it was really really bad lahh i noe.but oh well its over.shall get over it soon (:

kena cut on my finger.haha.at de joint dere smmore.pain pain.lol.at 1st cannot do much stuff lahh.but its healin le (:

sl.my 1st session teachin.A TOTAL EYE OPENER.okk.im a really really really really lucky gal :D ya.so had 2 teach math.chi.eng 2 3 galz.ehh.no fair lohh.huiying n ser yee only had 2 teach 1.okk.at sm point in time i really felt very hopeless.ya.its like okk.i dunnoe how 2 xplain.lol.so had quite sm fun lahh.although i gt kicked.hit.n called names haha.hopefully nxt sl session will b more enjoyable (:

now 4 my tests :/

maths.i tink i flunk le lahh ): haha.but HOPEFULLY.IM REALLY REALLY HOPIN.I PASS.i really dun wanna rite report :/

geog.haha.quite happy wif it lahh.although it aint very gd (: but ya.still maintained.so chose 2 take doubles nxt yr.geog.hist.chem.physics.mep.yes.i noe im so freakin dead.MUGGER NXT YR.hai.haha.2nd choice - triple science + geog + mep.3rd choice - chem.physics.geog.lit.mep.lol.ehh.my lit better den my hist de lohh.juz dat i cant stand readin bks.so ya.chose hist instead.i may nt gt my 1st choice aniwaes.MUG MUG MUG.haha.

PRACTICAL MOCKK :DD

i tot i wuld flunk it lohhh.but ya.passed wif merit.argh.missed distinction by 1 mark.haha.

a:3 - 26/30
b:5 - 28/30 yayy.emo piece :DD
c:2 - 27/30
scales/appreggios - 15/21 i still hate scales.i tot she wuld hv failed me.lol.
sight reading - 17/21
aural test - 16/18
total - 129/150

haha.okk.way higher den i xpected.but den my teacher tested me again.haha.kinda big diff.

a:3 - 25/30
b:5 - 26/30
c:2 - 24/30
sight reading - 17/21

haha.wahhh.my results really drop like siao lohh.hai.but ya.e amount of times i prack hv also dropped like siao ): n i ALWAYS DAYDREAM wen i play lohh.okk. i daydream practically every moment but ya.haha.juz hope i gt distinction on 30th aug ba.12 more daes ...

'e only bad thing is dat u dun practice enuff so if u wanna gt high distinction again.u shuld take time out of ur busy schedule to practice more esp ur scales' -my teacher

okk.so ytd after screwin up math test.went wif huiying 2 shop at far east.hai.i seriously pamper myself 2 much lohh.bought a $25 shirt frm bus stop :D was quite surprised mummy said it was nice.haha.so wore it 2 out.went 2 sushi tae at raffles city 4 dinner.nice nice :D was super duper full.I LOVE SALMON X) so went 2 watch firewks lohh.yayy.really really really nice!! XD but den squeezed like siao.lol.took pics n videos usin hp.quality abit bad lohh.esp e sound.haha.oh well.went 2 daddys new office after dat.haha.yayy.nice view frm dere (: den went hm le lohh.wahh.was out e whole day.lol.

so yupp.mons supposed 2 b a hol lohh.sadly nid 2 go back 2 schh 4 hist.hopefully can go watch movie after dat :D

okk.hmm.wad im supposed 2 do dis wkn.
; bio wks
; bio bk
; mep file
; geog article
; maths wks
; chinese pt research
; theory
; prack piano

i thank you God for bringing me through yet another week of obstacles.for granting me the wisdom to pass my exams and not blacking out during them.i also thank you for showering me with so many blessings as well the love, care and concern from my loved ones (:

&& QUIZ

-kena tagged by ching hun.sorry im doin it so late.haha :D

each player of this game starts off with TEN weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself.people who get tagged must write in their blog their own TEN weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. at the end you must choose SIX people to be tagged and list their names. u cant tag back (:

haha.aiyo.okk.i shall b really random :D dun laugh hor.

1. i cry myself 2 sleep almost every nite.

~ haha.dun ask me yy lahh.i juz do.happy or sad.i cryy.lol.afterall.IM EMO GAL :D

2. im really shy.

~ no seriously.okk.i may nt seem shy 2 u.but in fact i really m.like wen i 1st enter sm new place or smthh.ya.im really really quiet (: if sm of u can recall sec 1.i hardly eva talked.lol.but once u gt 2 noe me.im reallyy reallyy talkative n noisy (:

3. i dun like awkward silences.

~ dis is one of e reasons yy i rarely start a convo.ya.n kinda other things too lahh.if ur can like use ur imagination n link link :D haha.sorry lahh.but i really feel super duper weird wen its like SILENT den simply juz gt nth 2 say lohh.nt dat i dun like u lahh.but ya.i juz dun like it wen is SILENT.haha (:

4. i dance out my emotions.

~ lol.yes i noe i suck at dancin but ya.wen im like really pissed or smth.i will like lock myself in my rm.blast my music n juz shake it all out :D haha.but ya.i seriously cannot dance (:

5. i re-took my grade 1 3 times.

~ quite stupid rite.coz i keep changin schs mahh.ya.wasted so much precious time of my life.dat now im stupidly stucked at grade 6.haha.but oh well.guess i hv a gd foundation (:

6. i took my grade 1 juz by playin e 'table'.

~ coz last time stayed in bishan park den din hv a piano.so ya.everydae juz pracked on e table lohh.only piano lesson den i play piano.soon my dad gt a keyboard.but ya.survived my grade 1 by e table n keyboard.lol.passed wif merit :D but ashley beat me.she passed wif distinction.haha.oh well.i din hv a piano lehh (:

7. i had a 6 mnth mc b4.

~ haha.nt frm sch lahh.frm track.coz i gt asthma mah.so ya.din go 4 track 4 6 mnths.sadd.so doc told me nt 2 join track in sec sch.in case i worsen my asthma.lol.so guai i listen lehh (:

8. i drink coffee wif 5 packets of sugar.

~ lol.aiya.juz like it super duper sweet mahh.i like sweet sweet stuff wadd :D haha.my parents rarely let me drink already lahh.since i put so much sugar in it.nxt time sure gt diabetes de.but I LOVE SUGAR (:

9. mummy tot my eyes wuld nv eva open.

~ haha.coz my eyes r naturally small.den wen i was born.accordin 2 mummy my eyes were juz like 1 line.so ya.she was so afraid dat my eyes wuld nv eva open.lol.but in e end dey did.thank God (:

10. i used 2 hit my head against e floor.

~ erm.kinda stupid rite.ya lohh.okk.i did dat wen i was young lahh.now obviously i dun :D no wonder i so stupid lohh.my relatives always say de lohh.even my uncles n aunties in england will tell me how i used 2 hit my head against e floor n dey were so scared dat my head wuld bleed or smth.haha.but kinda cute rite (:

e chosen six : brian ; kelly ; yongrong ; huiying ; priya ; rachel :D

haha.i wonder who actually reads 2 e very end of dis super long post.

oh ya.stupid lahh.i tink my hp spoil le lohhh.ARGHH.was juz loadin e pics n videos den it kinda hung n starts blinkin non-stop noww.stupidd.ya.so anithin IMPT.dun sms horr.CALL.hai.hope it wks tmr ...

i so do nt do random bodywaves lohh.

i still love blastin my music :D

ahhhh.i look like a panda again.very sleepy lahh.shall sleep early 2nite (:

if only.

i culd.

# juz go #

9:35 PM; iloveu Y

`UNDERNEATH THIS SMILE

my world is slowly cavin in.

indescribeable.

ull barely understand wad im typin.

juz ignore dis post.

im such a loser.

gt a life.

sm things r juz nt meant 2 b.

two sides 2 every1.

a bitch under every mask.

if i culd juz ignore everythin.

i tried.

it juz gt worse.

yy cant i b myself.

i wan back e old me.

my old life.

my immortal - evanescence

i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
cause your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much
that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
i held your hand through all of these years
but you still have
all of me

you used to captivate me
by your resonating life
now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts
my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away
all the sanity in me

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
i held your hand through all of these years
but you still have
all of me

i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
but though you're still with me
i've been alone all along

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
i held your hand through all of these years
but you still have
all of me

u nv realised.

u took me 4 granted.

so close.

yt distant.

shattered.

yt nv said.

my tears.

it aint worth it.

my time.

it aint worth it.

im sorry.

i cant take it animore.

i juz cant seem 2 let go.

wishin u were here.

fren or foe.

ull nv noe.

im sorryy.

im really tiredd.

dun make me cryy.

i juz nid sm time alone.

for now.

memories etched in my mind.

scar on my heart.

bitterness within.

# broken #

11:13 PM; iloveu Y

` DARKNESS

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY SINGAPORE! (:

its gonna b a borin post.

had lit meetin in e mornin.haha.i tot i was e latest (i was 10mins late) n turned out i was 2nd (outta 7 ppl) lol.kangjie was 1st.so kang jie was tellin qiqi n i abt harry potterr.den zhenling came.haha.so crapped n laughed.n e rest arrived 1hr later.haha.dey kinda gt lost.so started on lit.was quite okk lahh.after dat digressed abit n had kfc.pracked 1 more time.den went 2 play piano le.haha.I LOVE UR BABY GRAND QIQI! (: THANKS!! :D

after dat went 4 rs le.was kinda late.magazine thingy.tmr gt another meetin.so stayed in starbucks wif huiying 2 try n help each other wif math.wen i was gonna by my hot chocolate.bumped in2 sec 1 hist teacher.haha.everytime go starbucks also bump in2 him.so he was supposedly markin his papers n waitin 4 his frenz 2 go watch fireworks.huiying n i wanted 2 watch too.but in e end changed our minds.

went back 2 j8.mummy picked me n went 4 steamboat.quite okokk lahh.den cm hm le lohh.gt loads of wk 2 do lahh.but i dun really hv e mood.mayb do tmr ba.at dis rate.im so deadd.

what only lies on the surface.

# dead #

10:52 PM; iloveu Y

`EMOTIONAL

yayy.i always seem happy n high after piano lessons :D din really screw up piano lesson.haha.die.practical mock dis sun.hope i do well (: theory was quite okk lahh.gt quite abit of hw though :X lol.practical was quite okk lahh.except 4 my scales.as usual dey were really horrible.pracked each scale only once.pracked xam pieces once also.haha.den go 4 piano lesson le.feel so guilty lohh.always so unprepared de.better use nat holz 2 prackk mann.but yayyy.teacher said i improved on my xam pieces (:

a:3 - quite livelyy lahh.but den abit uneven.n i did e dynamic contrast until so xtreme.lol.shuld play abit faster nxt time :D

b:5 - emo piece.yayy.it rawks again.haha.juz sm parts did abit too much rubato lahh (: aiyo.but its still nice nicee.haha.love my emo piece :D

c:2 - aww mann.my most scared piece.in class always prack wif zhenling de.teacher talk talk den we r prackin our pieces.lol.dynamics was quite okk lahh.tempo was quite okk.nid 2 prack 2 b faster lohh.but heng.wasnt dat bad :D
mood n feelins really do make a very big difference (:

haha.die le lahh.rs clash wif lit lehh.haha.hope it will all work outt.wahhh.scared i cannot rmb my lines lohh.haven exactly memorised it :X

awww.joyces bdae is over le.haha.so happy dat she received so many prezzies.aiyo.im startin 2 miss my bdae.lol :D

i miss sngs lahh.haha.n no fair lohh.2dae dey so lucky.no restrictions de.so unlike rgs.joyce even sprayed glitter on her hair n tattooed her face.den ashley n joyce gt 2 wear track shoes blah blah blahh.so jealous.haha.oh well.cant do anithin abt it.lol.

hopefully tmr can go out or smthh :D juz abit worried abt my mountain of hw :/

human nature.

sheddin tears.

for no reason.

but you.

okkk.so late le.haha.shall go sleep le (:

what lies beyond the skies.

# unpredictable #

11:48 PM; iloveu Y

`CONFUSION

yayyy.nat holz r here XD haha.but sadlyy im still sick ): gettin sicker so went 2 sch 2dae.realised i 4gt 2 bring my costume 4 speech dae.aiyo.haha.okk.so my shirt said 'i love sailors frm san francisco' den sergin wanted 2 trade shirts wif me.lol.yayy.LOVE MY CROWN BELT :D my skirt wasnt exactly knee length :X almost le lahhh.lol.gt so many ppl also nv abide by e sch rulez de.oh well.celebrations was quite okk lahh.sm parts damn funnyy.wahlao.den afterdat kena stomachache again.stupidd.anihow sayy also kena.hai.so din go 4 speech dae rehearsal.in a wae its a gd thing lahh.haha.so gt performances.sang songs.cheers.lol.i tink our class was kinda high (: tried screamin :D yayy.can scream le.but still gt sore throat :/ saddd.oh well.went wif huiying 2 eat burger king.den chit chat crap lohh.lol.went guang guang a while at far eastt.bought a white heart ring X) haha.guess ill always end up buying smth wen i shop.after dat mrted 2 j8.went 2 bossini 2 transfer my dat shirt.den mummy called.so she came n fetch me den go hm le lohh.

wahh.2nite still gt piano lesson.nid go chiong theory n pianoo.haha.tmr gt lit meetin frm 10-2.den rs meetin frm 3-6.lol.busyy dae mann.hopefully i wun screw up piano 2nite.

blast my music.

so as 2 4gt dat ur nt here.

by my side.

JUZ LOVE BLASTIN MY MUSIC :D

the irony of life.

# unwanted#

3:25 PM; iloveu Y

`ILLUSIONS

random eng activity thingy X)

okk.shall go do theory and prack piano le (:

the beauty of the world.

# guardian angel #

8:56 PM; iloveu Y

ashley randomly took my back.lol.

was kinda bored waitin in e toilet X)

was bored at hm.haha.was supposed 2 do hw though :X
yayy.my purple ring! XD

yayy.i love dis one.taken on sat while shoppin.dunnoe yy.JUZ LOVE IT (:

a new beginnin (:

mayb its time to wake up frm delusion

let go-

# metamorphosis #

11:59 PM; iloveu Y