`WISHING

upon a star that you are okk (:

im really sorry abt these few daes yeahh.this week has been really horrible.ive been really a pig lahh.emo n all.sorry 4 bein abit dao in sch.n moodswingin like siao.sorry! (: all e stress frm schh.sleep so late at nite.im really drained lahh.den still gt all e other stuff all cm tgt.so yupp.IM REALLY SORRYY!! to all e frenz who comforted me n all.who tried 2 cheer me up.who tolerated wif my pigness.haha.THANK YOUU :DD really love u all (:

thank you huiying! dun b so emo le okk :DD i noe u gt alot of stuff n all.but u can always cm talk 2 me! haha.although im nt of much help ba. but its better if u get it out of ur system ritee! (: haha.thanks 4 chillin wif me at macs on thurs! :D shuld do dat mre often b4 we both popp :DD HUGSS!

thank you vidya n aditi! haha. thanks 4 always makin me laughhh no matter how emo im :DD sorry 4 like bein so dao.emo.stonee.loll.ill try my best 2 b high nxt wk! :DD haha.although its like exam wkk :/ loll.jiayou jiayou!

thank you zhenling! lol. im still really scared of talkin 2 u lohh (: r words r so close 2 heart. always make me cryy. haha. sorry abt last nite yeah! take care ! dun worry be happyyy! :DD 'silence can be good.secrets are nice to keep.but friends are good listeners too (:'

thank you kelly for always asking how im weneva u bump in2 me (: haha.great job 4 comp! :D goshh.we better hv our retail therapy soon b4 i really xplode mann XDD

thank you cheryl for always tryin 2 cheer me up (: im still angry at u lehh.haha.jkjk lahh.yeahh.thanks 4 being such a nice homo bf! :DD dun worry so much abt me lahh! haha. im okk de :DD

haha. n e many many mree! :DD loll. yupp. i shall try my best 2 stay happy until end of term 2! :DD loll. THANK YOU ALL!! :D LOVES!! :D haha.exams comin lo!i die le lahh.loll.deres like so much 2 mugg.so little time.ARGHH.dere goes my sleep again.haha.ALL E BEST 4 MYAs!! :DD wahhh.wkn gt alot of hw lehh.

hw :
; study for concertos
; eng summary
; read 6 sets of eng wks
; geog wks essay question
; chi compre paper ( 5 compres)
; chi ting xie
; chi chang wen suo duan (3 passages)
; hist fa essay
; chem assignment (molar volume of gases)
; chem assignment (mole concept and molar mass)
; chem assignment (experimental techniques)
; chem assignment (empirical formula and molecular formula)
; revise chemical calculations
; math assignment 4 (statistics)
; math checklist (statistics)
; math wks 2 (quadractic functions)

my hp wun b confiscated le :D given last last last last chance.haha.better make sure i dun go beyond 1000 smses n 100 mins outgoinn.or else die :/ haha.hai.ive been rather vulgar lately.sorryy.shuld get rid of e pig habit.haha.hope i wun hv a piggie week nxt week.thank you God for bringing me through this week.although it has really been a bumpy ride.but thank God that it all ended well (:

thanks 4 e song! dun emo liao! smile kkayes! jiayou jiayou! u can do it! (:

yayyy.haha.i dun really love dis songs tune.but e lyrics r nice :DD

4:57 PM; iloveu Y

`SO YESTERDAY

the happy memories; now a thing of the past.

juz ignore this post yeah (: i nid 2 ermm.let out sm stuff (:

why do things cm crashing down all tgt.im a person.ive feelings too.ive my ups n downs.screw ting xie nt enuff.screw chem spa.screw jap music.wthh lahh.been cryin like shit these nites.not like u cannot see or realise.but can u juz stop thinkin abt urself.n urself only.cm n go as n wen u like.ehh.im nt a ball u can kick around lehhh.stupid pig.its nt like ur so high n mighty dat every1 muz obey u.ppl hv feelings.dun u realise dat.they are nt dere 2 please u.stupid pig.hai.change lahh.b4 ppl start hatin u.its quite obvious nt.but u still dun see e big pic n tink dat everything is other ppls fault.except urs.stop being so argh lahh.deres a limit 2 everything rite.hai.at dis rate ur gonna screw ur life up.yy cant u ever seem 2 understand.one min ur nice.n nxt min u erupt.wthh.juz go away will u.confiscate my hp also confiscate 1 mnth.wtf lahh.hai.im so confused.2 take a step back.or 2 move on.i tried 2 move on.but i fell.i tried again.n im strugglin now.is it juz so difficult.ARGH.my life is so EMO.

been feeling really tired these few daes.cried like shit.emo like shit.hai. sucidal math teacher say i look like ling dai yu.lol.sm gu dai female person.always fall sick onee.she say i look like bing mao 病猫 :/ haha.shall try 2 sleep early 2nite.gt damn lot of hw lahh.myas cmin soon le.DIE.

thank you all who asked me how i was (: thanks for ur encouragements n hugs! (:

sorry.but im nt over it.him.

11:34 PM; iloveu Y

OMG. XDD

my fringe dropped down at e wrong time :/

kawaii :DD

boy you are my all.

# with you #

10:15 PM; iloveu Y

`TATTOO

youre on my heart just like a tattoo (:

sorry abt my previous emo post yeah (: haha.sorry sorry!! im okk lahh.REALLYY.lol.okk.nt dat im like happy bouncing around (: but yeahh.im okk! i wun do silly stuff.dun worry :D

playin e guitar helps alot :D haha.e piano too! but this time i chose e guitar (: its quite rare dat ive my guitar at hm wif me :X haha.its been quite a while since i emoed on e guitar (: yayy.managed 2 play a few new songs (: with you.teardrops on my guitar.tonight.hear you me.when u look me in the eyes n mre :D haha.only melodies lahh.i cant do chords which arent in e easy keys :DD haha.but i managed 2 play e chords 4 tattoo!coz its in d major mahh (: loll.played a few old faves of mine :D qing tian.my love (: i love my guitar :DD should bring it hm mre often X)

lol.went 2 church feelin rather sleepy 2dae.coz i slept at 4+ 5.lol.mananged 2 complete eng conclusions & ss fa :D haha.spent quite abit of time emoin n all so yeahh.i like 2daes church service! :DD haha.mainly becoz e guitars were used (: just love e sound of piano blendin wif e guitars.haha.damn nice lahh.thank God i can sing now (: haha.so e melodious tunes of the piano accompanied by the beautiful strumming of the guitar :DD yayy.nice nicee.haha.teacher was rather concerned abt my wkload in rgs too.but im okk! (: still alive! juz dat i look like a panda now :/ haha.other den dat.im okk :D

reached hm.slept 4 abt 2 hrs.i din even noe i dozed off on e sofa lohh.haha.its like 1 min i was watchin tv.e nxt i was sound asleep.woke up n chionged thru hw! quite glad i was able to survive dis wk.dis wkn.completed most of my hw too :D thank GOD (:

haha.tmr is piano day! like totally music day.tmr nite is left 4 mep + practical! :DD haha.gotta mug jap music tmr nite.prack abit of piano.yupp.haha.miss playin e piano liaoo.bet ill end up playin my own songs again lohh (:

thank God tmrs a hol! (: im so gonna chill out tmr! :D haha.shall go watch movie.arcade.shoppin.yeahhh!! :DD hahaha.cant wait mann.hopefully tmr makes me happier ya (: im sure it will! :D

THANK YOU every1 who asked abt me!im okk (: nt xactly deadd yt :D mayb half-deadd.hahaha.nt so emo also :D lol.im really really okk! :DD see dat big big smile! its nt fake okk XD haha.okok.shall go sleep liao.or else ill really look like a panda tmr!! LOVEYA ALL! :D TAKE CARE AHH! ENJOY TMR! :DD

thank you GOD (:

i find my paradise;
when you look me;
in the eyes-

# blind #

11:57 PM; iloveu Y

`REALISE

that things just arent the same without you (:

11:24 PM; iloveu Y

`SMILE

for it brightens the lives of those around you (:

THANK GOD ITS FRIDAY :DD hahaha.i almost died this week can.like seriously.ytd went sick bay 4 like 1 1/2 hrs.stupid gastric.haha.thanks aditi :D n i still haven gt my voice back!! ): cant talk properly.cant scream.cant sing.ARGH.hahaha.died 4 practical.slipped quite abit.alamak.loads of practical 2 catch up wif.my xam pieces.ARGHH.slept at 4 this morning.all thanks 2 wad? yupp.u gt it.PHYSICS PT.stupid pt cost me $12 lehh! two black n white copies + 1 coloured copy -.- juz coz my printer went haywire.dunnoe no ink or wadd.den paper jam.loll.but im really glad i manage 2 finish it :DD haha.THANK YOU HUIYING!! :DD THANK GOD i finished geog pt 2 weeks ago :DD

haha.once i reached hm.went 2 bathe.den piack on my bed n fell asleep.all e way until 8+.loll.i noe im a pigg XD slept 4 like 4 hrss :DD so nice.hahaha.wen i woke up.i tot it was mornin lahh!den i looked at my hp.2010.i tot its 810 in e mornin :/ haha.but wen i check e times of ppl dat smsed me.its was like 1848.1859.so i was like.shit.i skipped dinner.no wonder so hungry.but its like 810.how cm still so dark n quiet.LOLL.yeahh.so i looked at my hp again.n realised it was still friday :D haha.yess.my brain nt functionin properly liaoo.

loll.yayy! THANK GOD MONDAYS A HOL :DD or else im like really gonna collapse liao.but deres like an entire pile of hw.muz chiong all den can go out on monday! :DD

HOMEWORK:
; mug jap music
; mug concertos
; theory
; prack piano
; ss formative assessment
; 3 eng compo conclusions
; read 4 eng articles (summary of 8 sentences)
; chi chang wen suo duan
; learn chi ting xie (2 chapters)
; chem assignment (experimental techniques)
; chem wks (molar mass)
; memorise chem table of ions
; geog formative assessment
; hist formative assessment
; math wks 2
; math wks 3
; math assignment
; math compare & contrast wks
; 2 cle journals
; tuition hw
; reply joans letter

so much riteee.GOSH.i dunnoe wen can finish mann.muz chiong like siao lahh.only 2 days.48 hrs.poooff.den i do hw damn slow one.haha.brain process info so slowly.hand write so slowly.multi-taskin smmre.hahaha.oh ya.gt back my hist n ss results.mann.haha.okk lahh.average (: at least i passed rite.haha :DD THANK GOD I PASSEDD (:

okkk.piggie me shall go back 2 sleep now :DD damn tired lahh.eyes chao pain liao.loll.CANT WAIT 4 MONDAYY :DD

thank you God (:

you're always on my mind.

# incomplete #

10:40 PM; iloveu Y

`GRACE †

is an emo pig.

haha.dis post is juz 2 ermm.let out sm stuff :D i love my piano! :D

lol.slept at 9+ last nite! was really sick + tired.so yeahh.decided 2 stop hwin n go 2 sleep lohh.woke up at 8+ n went 2 see my uncle.gt 2 wks mc.xcuse frm pe only lahh.dun nid take napfa :D haha.but i gt loads of med 2 take.still feel like sleepin man :X

went 2 church! haha.culdnt sing coz i had sore throat.i wanted so much 2 sing lohh ): lol.but it gave me a chance 2 meditate on the lyrics.the beautiful words (: the melodious tunes (: i will really treasure my voice wen i gt it back mann.i really miss it loads.lol.

GRACE † - God's Riches At Christ's Expense :D undeserved favour & gift; undeserved forgiveness & kindness & mercy that God gives us; effortless beauty
SAMUEL † - heard of God :D
JOYCE † - joy; freedom & experience of battle :D
HANNAH † - GRACE; faithful; blest by God; 'God has favoured me' :D

haha.that was wad my teacher told us durin church :D i was havin gastric + headache durin church.hai.but i still enjoyed church very much :D haha.still laughed n all.n soon i 4gt abt e pain (: thank you God (:

arghh.im feelin very HOT noww.haha.very heaty lahh.nose bled smmre.my skin damn yellowish now.goshh.mummy was like 'is dere even blood flowin in u?!' lol.damn long nv fall sick liao lohh.dis time fall sick until really cannot sick liao.hai ): hope i can gt well soon ba.although i may juz collapse anitime.still gt loads of hw 2 complete.but my brain is like nt xactly functionin.haha.but ill still try my best (: coz i noe God will take care of the rest :D

'For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weakness, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are - yet was without sin. Let us then appraoch thethrone of grace iwth confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need' - Hebrews 4 : 15 & 16

you once promised;
you would always be there;
to catch me when i fall;
if i were to fall now;
would you still be there

# GOD † #

3:25 PM; iloveu Y

`RAINBOWS

just you and me.

(sniff sniff) hahaha.no im nt cryin.MY NOSE IS RUNNING.like crazy.lol.thanks 2 e rain lahh.was totally drenched.like soaked thru :/ haha.aniwaes.MY VOICE IS HUSKY + SEXYYYY :DD hahaha.once i reached sch.opened my mouth.frenz jaws wuld drop (xaggerated.LOL) 'WAD HAPPENED 2 UR VOICE?!' LOLL.yeahh.my voice is horrible now.so weird lahh.nt being able 2 talk.much less laugh.cry.sing.scream T_T hahaha.its like i try so hard 2 laugh.den no sound cms out :/ scream den my voice crackk.like my voice break like dat.hahaha.oh ya.SORRY IF I REPLY UR SMS LATE OR LIKE MISS UR CALL!!coz ermm.my hp is currently dyin (juz like me) so its kinda siao siao liaoo.hahaha.yeahh.SORRY SORRY!! (:

lol.missed e sch bus again -.- ehhh.coz i tot i was late wad.den gang hao 2 265s came.so i gt on e one 2 amk lohh (nearer dun nid 2 run) hahaha.den my sch bus arrived -.- wad 2 do.i already on 265.LOL.so as usual.met huiying.den went 2 schh.met vidya at sch gate.hahaha.dey were damn funny lahh XD gt back geog n mathh.passed both :D although nt very well.but im satisfied (: THANK YOU GOD (: loll.CHERYL NOW U OWE ME 10 MEALS n 10 MOVIES! YEAHH!! :D (coz i passed my geog!) hahaha.okk.juz jk lahh.like dat sure burn ur whole pocket :D GREAT JOB HUIYING!! so proud of u (: hahaha.was damn surprised wen u came jumping happily up n down.loll.well done! (: ur efforts paid off! :D haha.WELL DONE ADITI N VIDYA!! :D ur wont too bad either kkayes!! dun b too sad abt it! :D GET WELL SOON ADITI! :DD

hahaha.actually being sick aint dat bad :D lol.get letters lehh.like sweet little notes.sweet encouragements :D haha.thanks galz really (: yeahh.so e dae was kinda slack.was fallin asleep durin physics :X haha.durin lunch.was bein high n lame.yanlin kept goin on abt how sexy my voice was.so i went like.yeahh.ur attracted 2 me rite XD hahaha.she was like yeahh.n started 2 like walk 2wards me while sayin attract attract.loll.so i walked backwards n said repel repel :DD lol.after sch went 2 record stuff 4 physics pt :D vidya was damn funny lahh.found aditi at j2.lol.den i was twirlin around wif vidyas belt on e track until i gt so giddy i fell flat on e track.LOLL X)

went hm at 4+.was waitin 4 132.e 1st 132 came.was nt double-decker.so i decided 2 wait.haha.was super giddy den lahh.so wait wait wait.den rain lehh!!so heavy smmre.by e time 132 came.e bus stop was FLOODED.gt on 132.haha.rain rain rainn.so nice 2 sleep lohh.gt off 132.had 2 walk in e heavy rain 2 265.hai.gt off 265.walked back hm.e rain was really damn damn heavy.so by e time i reached hm.yeahh.SOAKED CHICKEN.hahaha.luo tang ji! :D

reached hm.bathed.eat dinner.watched tv all e way 2 9.den slack on com liao.goshh.damn pathetic lehh.damn tiredd.so much hw left.hai.shall list dem down or else ill 4gt X)

; mep practical
; mep performing notes
; revise mep (jap music)
; learn huiying's duet piece (piano part)
; prack piano
; 2 cle journals (leadership)
; math wks 5 (statistics)
; math wks 6A (statistics)
; geog fa 1
; physics wks (refraction)
; chemistry wks (molar mass)
; chemistry wks (chemical calculations)
; print out valency table
; revise chemistry formulas
; chi compo (hao ren hao shi -.-)
; read history notes
; physics pt (DIE.)
; reply joan's letter

hai.horrible wkn filled wif hw.damn packed lehh.im dyin here wif my runny nose.haha.okk.shall go sleep le.luckily sports fest tmr! :D or else i really die.but cant cheer tmr lahh.haiyo.oh ya.CHEER UP!yeahh you!hahaha :DDD

thank you God (:

the distance that seperates us;
it just isnt the same anymore-

# words unspoken #

11:34 PM; iloveu Y

`WARMTH

from the love of those around you (:

THANK YOU EVERY1 WHO COMFORTED N CHEERED ME ON WEN I WAS SICK! :D haha.yess.i was down wif fever.im down wif sore throat.headache.gastric :/

headache n gastric started b4 guitar.haha.was juz tellin my fav chi teacher abt it.den go guitar liao.kena fever.haha.i was wearing my jacket den still shiver lahh.lol.THANK YOU ALL GUITAR MATES! (: haha.esp jeanette; xin min; celestine; wenyan; cheryl; zhenling; magdalene; anna; liting; priya; april :D

went hm.damn high fever lahh.so went 2 sleep.thanks 4 all e calls n smses ya! (: thanks 4 all e love n care u all shower upon me! :D haha.im okk lahh.brain nt fried yt XD hahaha.sorry if i took a long time 2 reply smses :X was sleepin like a pig X) loll.was almost late 4 sch 2dae.woke up at 630.chionged 2 sch lahh.was just on time.but my watch said 730.LOL.

wahlao.kena scolded by XXXX 4 my hair again.i already pinned up my fringe lohh.lopsided ponytail = fanciful.den my belt too loose also.haha.heng head prefect say my hairstyle is allowed but highly discouraged.LOL.emoed wif homos at emo homo balcony!! :D

i love dat spot lohh! (: hahaha.HOMOS 4EVA! :D all i can say is.relax kkayes (: let nature take its course ba.dun waste ur energy on sm1 whos nt worth it! (: jiayou jiayou! stay happy kkayes! :D

subs were quite slack.had a few free blocks.haha.was damn surprised wen i received zhenlings letter! :D lol.THANKS GAL!! gt back chi results.ting xie was SHIT.nid parents signature coz i failed -.- lol.but compo was quite gd.better den i xpected :D ss was slack lahh.was replyin zhenlings letter X) hist was slack too.haha.finally finished zhenlings letter! :D

mummy picked me frm schh.den hm le lohh.slept like a pig till dinner time XD hahaha.den was doin chem infrnt of tv.now math pt thingy! :/ I NID SLEEPPP!lol.tmr is such a long dae lahh.at least gt 1 slack block tmr!shall sleepp X)

THANK YOU GALZ 4 STANDIN BY ME ALL THESE WHILE! :D

♥ thank you huiying for always being there 4 me! (: all e hugs n tears :D sorry 4 causin u 2 worry so muchh.haha.dui bu qi hor! (: thanks 4 always analysin stuff 4 me! hahaha.stay happy ya! jiayou jiayou! lol.heck care if teachers tink we r les lahh! :D nid anithin.im always here! :D haha.thank yoU!

♥ thank you zhenling for all ur encouragements!ill always rmb e quote u left me wif! (: (although i din noe dere was e frnt part till i saw ur letter 2dae :X) haha.ur words of wisdom nv fail 2 make me cry n smile at e same time :D lol.all e best! dun stress ahh! miss u loads! :D thank yoU!

♥ thank you vidya + aditi + cheryl for always cheerin me on! askin if im okk or nt (: ur nv fail 2 make me laugh! keep smilin! love our emo homo sessions tgt! n our toilet meetings too! :D haha.jiayou jiayou! dun tink too much kkayes! let nature take its course! HOMOS 4EVA! :D thank yoU!

♥ thank you kelly for all your care! (: haha.4 always askin how im.yeahh! lol.now diff class liao.nt so close liao.dun see u so often also (although we r nxt door) hahaha.muz go out smtime soon yeah! dun emo hor! :D haha.thank yoU!

11:33 PM; iloveu Y