-- my heart will always be with you

30 July 2008

`BUILT

to last (:

LOL.okok.its been ages since i updated.SORRY.damn busy now..shall just post quizes :DD haha.this week has been UTTERLY HORRIBLE.sick like omg :/ but i really thank God for giving me strength all the way (: im totally drained luhh.first time taking iron pills.now take until so heaty.my eyes are like so freaking hot.i keep thinking ive fever.haha.then mouth eat food damn pain luhh.like got ulcers like that.but dont eat then like going to faint lohh.oh well.its getting worse and worse luhh.only started out with there pain.then to losing iron.then to headaches.then to gastric pains this morning.almost died.haha.conclusion.im going to see a gynae :/ hope nothings wrong man.l8ter kena operation.OMG.im praying hard that im fine (:

THANK YOU!

to all who were with me through out this week! sorry ive been looking so pale and tired in school.sorry to cause you all to be late for classes because of me.THANKS for taking such good care of me! sorry to cause you all to worry okk! next week it will all be over! :D (i hope) hahaha.THANKS LOADS OKKK! LOVEYA ALL! :DD

now for the long overdue quizes :DD SORRY!!

JOAN! :D

Q1:Do you like your PREVIOUS school?

A1: SNGS! I LOVE IT :D i still do (:

Q2: What do you want the most now?

A2: for all my loved ones around me to stay strong and happy! (:

Q3: Who is the closest person to you in your school?

A3: huiying! :D thanks loads girl! LOVES (: (to my other homo bfs: I LOVE U ALL TOO OKK! :D)

Q4: Do you hate your friends sometimes?

A4: nope! i just dislike them when they arent exactly their normal self.

Q5: If you could change something in your life, what would it be?

A5: hmmm.my weaknesses (:

Q6: What is your goal this year?

A6: to emo less and grow stronger in faith (:

Q7: Do you believe in love at first sight?

A7: yupp (:

Q8: Do you believe in eternal love?

A8: yupp (:

Q9: Have you ever broken someone’s heart that he/she wants to commit suicide?

A9: hahaha.no luhh! :D

Q10: What do you enjoy doing the most?

A10: going out and having loads of funn! :DD

Q11: Have you ever done anything for your admirer?

A11: hmmm.

Q12: What feeling do you like most?

A12: happy! :D

Q13: What evil thing would you most want to happen/do to your enemy?

A13: get a taste of his/her own medicine & not be so evil anymore! (:

Q14. Who would you probably spend the rest of your life with?

A14: my prince charming! :DD

Q15: What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

A15: GOD (: family & friends (:

Q16: Do you find life meaningless?

A16: sometimes :X

Q17: What do you live for?

A17: GOD (:

Q18: Who do you talk most to in school?

A18: hahaha.VIDYA! :DD

Q19: Consider yourself to be someone with a great self esteem.

A19: huhh?

Q20: What material thing to you want most right now?

A20: $$! so that i can shop; watch movies & go arcade :D

CHERYL! :D

[10] Firsts.

First Best Friend: hmmm.i dont exactly remember :X

First Screen Name: huhh?

First Pet: fish! (they all died)

First Piercing: ears! i want another one lohh :D

First Crush: hmmm (:

First CD: dont remember lo! (mine are kinda almost all burned)

First Car: loll.the one where toddlers sit in and roll around :DD

First Stuffed Animal: a cute little bear! 'young ernest' written on its shirt! i still have it :DD

First Love: hmmm (:

First Place Called Home: hahaha.i forgot the add!

[9] Lasts.

Last Beverage: water lohhh.

Last Car Ride: daddy! he picked me up after mep :D

Last Movie Seen: dark knight! damn nicee :DD (but i dreamt of the joker and ended up crying in the middle of the night :/)

Last Phone Call: daddy & mummy this morning.haha.was asking them whether i should go home (:

Last Song You Listened To: tonight! (fm static) :D

Last Bubble Bath: long time ago luh! havent taken one in ages.

Last Time You Cried : hmmm.this morning? gastric was damn pain.

Last Thing You Ate: dinner! :D

[8] Have You Evers.

Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Friends: nope! (:

Have You Ever Been Arrested: nope! (:

Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: nope! (:

Have You Ever Been On A Limo: yes! in the usa :DD

Have You Ever Cheated: hahaha.yeahh :X

Have You Ever Been In Love: hmmm (:

Have You Ever Been In A Car Accident: nope! thank God (:

Have You Ever Broken A Bone: nope! thank God (:

[7] Things You Are Wearing.

1. blue t-shirt (:

2. black fbts (:

3. crown earrings (:

4. white specs (:

5. -

6. -

7. -

[ 6 ] Things You've Done Today.

1. sleep! :D

2. cried :X

3. smiled! (:

4. laughed! :D

5. hit people (cheryl & vidya) :X

6. listened to music! :D

[5] Favourite Things.

1. mp3! (:

2. computer! (:

3. handphone! (:

4. piano! (:

5. guitar! (:

[4] People You Tell Almost Anything To.

1. hmmm.you know who you all are :D

2. my very secretive people!

3. shall be kept as a secret :D

4. -

[3] Choices.

1. Black Or White: depends! but ill go with BLACK :D

2. Hot Or Cold: hot! (:

3. Chocolate Or Vanilla: CHOCOLATE DUHHH :DD

[2] You Want To Do Before You Die.

1. make sure everyone is happy and smiling! :D

2. be happy! (:

[1] Thing You Regret.

1. being weak and naive.

FRANK! :D

ive done this quiz before! lol.so shall copy and paste some of my previous answers (: but ill still fill in my NOW answers (:

#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?

depends ba.at most juz take a knife n kill him lohh.LOL.but den again.it wont b worth it if i went 2 jail bcoz of him rite.haha.juz heck him n let him rot n die lahh.

haha.yupp.just leave him alone luhh.afterall.God has his plans (:

#2. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?

i would nv wanna grow up.or even better.nv born in2 this world.haha :D aiya.JUZ BAN SCHH LUHH XD

haha.it would be to be happy forever! & for everyone around me to be happy too! (:

#3. If you could be at one place right now, where would it be?

hmmm.at the beach! relaxing and enjoying the sound of the waves and the breeze! of course.with the company of all my family & friends! (:

#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?

kinda.mre den juz confused.

hmm.maybe abit.but ill just let nature take its course (:

#5. What's your ideal lover like?

ermmm.ive a whole long list of criterias (:

i still do :D

#6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?

being loved.

being loved (:

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?

depends lah.forever wuld b lying.he may not even b worth e wait.

haha.yeahh! :D

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?

go 4 sm1 else lohh.dere is mre den one guy in e world.

haha.no point wasting time on one stupid guy right :D

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?

hell loads of dem.esp.you.

haha.yupp.being so terribly sick and making everyone worry.sorry!!

#10. What do you want most in life?

happiness (:

#11. Is being tagged fun?

lol.okk lahh.juz dun tag damn lame stuff (:

haha.not when im super duper busy! :D

#12. How do you see yourself in ten years time?

no.i may nt even live till den :D

hmmm.i hope i aint studying anymore! :D

#13. Who is the current most important person to you?

everyone! (:

#14. What type of person do you think the person who tagged you is?

hmmm.nice guy! always keeping fit & yiruma fan! :DD

#15. Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?

depends on whether e marriage is happy or nt.if it isnt.i rather b single n rich n FREE :D

yupp (:

#16. If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be?

none! i dont exactly like animals.in fact.im very scared of them.haha.im allergic to fur too! :D

#17. What are one of those things which you would prefer not to do?

homework! :DD

#18. What kind of person do you think you are?

hmmm.im a SLACKER; SHOPPER; SLEEPER :DD

#19. What do you define as a bad day?

one that makes me sad and emo (:

#20. If you have to choose between love and friendship, what would it be?

hmm.i guess i chose love.but next time.i think ill go with friendship (:

yayy.finishedd! :DD the above quizes shall be done by anyone who wants to do them! :DD

I SHALL GET BACK TO MY WORK! (: I NEED NEED SLEEP :D LOADS OF IT IN FACT (: hahaha.to all chionging homework.this is a killer period.so yupp.take loads of care! (: we can do this together! (:

this post is in rainbow colours.hopefully colours would help brighten up your day! yupp.each and everyone of you out there reading this now.the world is not only black and white.although there may sometimes be grey clouds which cover up the warm sunshine.but always remember that.the world is filled with LOVE in many different special colours (:

GET WELL SOON!

STAY STRONG AND HAPPY!

if im the one;

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9:09 PM; iloveu Y

18 July 2008

`PICTURES

of you (:

hahaha.im DAMN TIRED.so yeahh.pictures shall do the talking! after all.pictures speak a thousand words (:

OUR FAV PIC! :D EMOGAL :DD

ROCKONZ HOMO HUNK! :DD

HOMO COUPLE! :D

TA DA! BILLABONG BUTT! XD

SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW! :D

BABE GRACES THE ANGEL! CHERYL HUNKS THE DEVIL! :DD

hahaha.yeahh.i shall upload the rest of the pics & videos when cheryl transfers them to me! and when im not so tired luhh.cant believe im having 6 hrs of chem + math tuition tomorrow.SURE BRAINDEAD DE :/ so i dont think ill be editing this post tomorrow.maybe the day after or something.lol (:

most importantly.THANK YOU HOMO HUNK FOR PEIING ME FOR THE WHOLE OF TODAY! :D today was totally i dont know how to describe luhh.HIGH.LONG.EMO.SIAO.GAY.LES.GROSS.TIRED.ENERGYDRAINING.MEMORABLE.yeahh.you get the idea.but the point is.I LOVE YOU! :DD (WHEN YOU SAD.JUST LOOK AT THE PIC BELOW AND LAUGH! XD)

(this was the pic that sent HUNK laughing like total gayness shit.LOL :D)

and the truth is;
you could slit my throat;
and with my one gasping breath;
i apologise for bleeding on your shirt-

you make me love you (:

# insecurity #

11:52 PM; iloveu Y

16 July 2008

`WHO

am i;

'your hair dont become rocker very ke xi lehh' -pristine.LOL.okk.that was random.haha.i shall start blogging about NIGHTS :D yeahh! hahaha.yeahh.like cheryl say.our convos are.would always only be hyper at NIGHT.afternoon ahh.chao sian de (: haha.i just realised theres a couple of things i havent done.i havent done the quizes as promised.i havent posted the convos between me & cheryl.LOL.

(00:38) rock on.: sorry ah just now damn siann
(00:38) rock on.: lolll
(00:38) rock on.: yeaa okk!
(00:38) rock on.: x)
(00:38) grace;: haha its okk!
(00:38) grace;: i also chao sian liao
(00:38) grace;: hahaha
(00:38) rock on.: ahahaa
(00:38) rock on.: x)
(00:38) grace;: so when u put to chao sian ppl tgt
(00:38) grace;: U GT
(00:38) grace;: A VERY VERY SALTY HOMO COUPLE!!!
(00:38) grace;: haahaha XD
(00:38) rock on.: erm extremely sian?
(00:39) rock on.: o_O
(00:39) rock on.: zomg
(00:39) rock on.: lame
(00:39) rock on.: lame
(00:39) grace;: hahaha
(00:39) rock on.: lame
(00:39) grace;: ehhh
(00:39) rock on.: hahahaha
(00:39) rock on.: leg break liao
(00:39) grace;: yayy!
(00:39) grace;: u finally smiled XD
(00:39) rock on.: lollll
(00:39) grace;: BET U SHOWING ALL UR TEETH NOW LOHH XD
(00:39) grace;: hahaha
(00:39) rock on.: how u noe ahhh
(00:39) rock on.: hahaahah
(00:39) rock on.: pokk
(00:39) grace;: yayyy!
(00:39) grace;: IM UR HOMO BABE LEHH
(00:39) grace;: HOW CAN DUNNOE LEHH
(00:39) grace;: hahaha
(00:39) rock on.: idiotttt
(00:39) rock on.: make me look retard huh
(00:39) rock on.: smile at the com
(00:39) rock on.: purposely on right
(00:39) rock on.: lol
(00:40) grace;: hahaha
(00:40) grace;: ehhh!
(00:40) grace;: MAKE U LAUGH STILL TIO SCOLDED
(00:40) grace;: HMPHH T_T
(00:41) rock on.: lollll
(00:41) rock on.: x))
(00:41) rock on.: aiyooo joking laa
(00:41) rock on.: thank youu luhh homo babe
(00:41) rock on.: ((:
(00:41) rock on.: make me happy
(00:41) rock on.: yayy
(00:41) rock on.: not so sian le
(00:41) rock on.: hahaa
(00:42) grace;: hahahaa
(00:42) grace;: yayyyy!!
(00:42) grace;:LOLL
(00:43) grace;: now i know nxt time how 2 make u nt sian le
(00:43) grace;: JUZ ADD SM SUGAR ON YOUU!!
(00:43) grace;: DEN ULL SMILEEE XDD
(00:43) grace;: and BREAK UR LEG!!!
(00:43) grace;: hahahahaha
(00:43) rock on.: hahahaaha
(00:43) rock on.: whatt thee hellll
(00:43) rock on.: lollll
(00:43) grace;: whatt theee heavenn!!
(00:43) grace;: hahahaha
(00:43) rock on.: u seriously getting lamer and lamer lehhh
(00:43) rock on.: SHEESHH
(00:43) grace;: UR INFLUENCE!
(00:43) rock on.: hahahahahaha
(00:43) rock on.: x)
(00:43) rock on.: whee wheee
(00:43) rock on.: i rockk
(00:43) rock on.: so erm
(00:43) grace;: LOLL
(00:44) rock on.: influential
(00:44) grace;: U STONE!
(00:44) rock on.: lolll
(00:44) grace;: I ROCK
(00:44) grace;: hahaha
(00:44) rock on.: x)
(00:44) grace;: do ur wk luhh!
(00:44) rock on.: whateverrr
(00:44) rock on.: hahahaa
(00:44) rock on.: okk luhh
(00:44) rock on.: lolll
(00:44) rock on.: thanks yeaaa
(00:44) grace;: LOLL GD GIRL XD
(00:44) rock on.: ((:
(00:44) rock on.: hahaa
(00:44) rock on.: pokk
(00:44) rock on.: loll
(00:44) grace;: I MEANT TO SAY BOY
(00:44) grace;: hahahaah
(00:44) grace;: nppp!
(00:44) rock on.: HOII
(00:44) rock on.: AI PA AH
(00:44) rock on.: hahaa
(00:44) grace;: AI PA AI PA!
(00:44) grace;: (BISHHHHH)
(00:44) rock on.: lollllllllllll
(00:44) rock on.: zomggg
(00:44) grace;: hahaha
(00:44) rock on.: sth wrong with u today
(00:44) rock on.: haha
(00:44) grace;: another leg break liao
(00:44) rock on.: yeaaaaaa
(00:44) grace;: nxt will b ur hands
(00:44) grace;: MUHAHAHAHAHA
(00:45) rock on.: lol
(00:45) rock on.: soon will need coffin liao
(00:45) rock on.: hahahaa
(00:45) grace;: hahaha oh yeahh!
(00:45) rock on.: zomgg u really damn lame today
(00:45) rock on.: tonight
(00:45) rock on.: no erm
(00:45) grace;: NOW.
(00:45) grace;: LOLL
(00:45) rock on.: yeaa
(00:45) rock on.: hahaaa

(00:45) rock on.: x))
(00:45) rock on.: i was going to say that man
(00:45) rock on.: xD
(00:45) rock on.: lol

oh mann.that just made my post like super duper long.lol.i shall do the quizes tomorrow or smth :D hahaha.yeahhh.thats one of the lame convos with cheryl pok at night XD haha.oh well.back to monday night! lol.i was kinda emo luhh.the song SAY GOODBYE - S CLUB 7 made me cry.haha.after that cheryl spammed me with songs okk.like loads and loads of them.to keep myself occupied (so that i wont hu si luan xiang) i went to find songs too! hahaha.then suddenly my songs increased lots :DD thanks to cheryl.im currently addicted to PIECES - SUM 41.i still love DISENCHANTED - MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE :DD alot luhh.but those two are my jamming songs! when im emo.just ARGHHH on the guitar.hahaha.use pick luhh.so LOUDER & not so pain :DD

yupp.we stayed up till 3 am.spamming songs.cheryl doing her chi pt.me doing my geog pt.haha.im proud to say that ive finished my theory.half of my geog pt.abit of chem pt.thought of the idea for hist pt.hahaha.oh well.IM GOING OUT ON FRIDAY!! :DD yeahh.cant wait cant wait.but then horr.stupid schh luhh.flood us with so much stuff.then some people also cannot go.haha.oh well.SEE HOW BA :D it will all turn out right! (i hope XD)

last night! was kinda down lahh.haha.SORRY PEOPLE.i just wasnt up there.lol.so tried to let it all out on the piano and the guitar! :DD it helped quite abit! haha.but the BEST BEST REMEDY was ...... THE MEP CAMP VIDEOS! :DD hahaha.okk.i know im like super duper slow.but i didnt realise they were up on youtube until i went to KELLYs blog! yeahh.my grps video is like totally on her blog.LOL.but yeahh!so ORANGEY ORANGE PEOPLE! IF YOU HAVENT SEEN THE VIDEOS! THEY ARE UP ON YOUTUBE! (: (mep camp 2008 -accapella part 5) [http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wQYtEO66gfY]

hahaha.so yupp.at 00:00.i was sitting in front of my laptop watching all the accapella videos and totally laughing away! LOL.I MISS MEP CAMP LOADS LUHH.MOST IMPTANTLY.I MISS ORANGEY ORANGE! :D wheres our east coast park outing huhh! loll.just watching the video.brings back so many memories okk.me and huihan training hard together.eating chocolates to relieve our sore throats! :DD THANKS GIRL! TAKE CARE YEAH! (: and the funny boys luhh.omggg.they cant be funnier can.yupp.all the laughter we shared.all thanks to them! :DD not forgetting the sops and altos! they did a terrific job too! :DD lol.i still remember how scared i was lohh.i was gonna cry liao.THANK YOU HUIYING! :D THANK YOU ORANGEY ORANGE! :D haha.yeahh.but after that.i was like PHEW.it was FUN mann! i wouldnt mind doing it AGAIN & AGAIN! :DD yupp.it really built up my confidence luhh.sing in front of so many people okkk.haha.but most importantly.IT LEFT ME MEMORIES OF LAUGHTER! :DD now when im emoing.i know what to do le.loll.THANK YOU ORANGEY ORANGE! ITS THE LOVE! :DD

when i was blog hopping.i came across this song! WHO AM I - CASTING CROWNS (: damn nice luhh.omg the first time i heard it.i was like WOW.dont know why.but i suddenly felt so calm.so peaceful.yeahh.that kinda feeling.must be God (: thank you GOD (:

to all who still doubt me.just give me one last chance okk.this time.I CAN DO IT.i wont turn back le.dont worry so much okk! ill take care of myself.YOU ALL TOO! (: yupp.I CAN DO IT (:

im yours (:

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11:42 AM; iloveu Y

14 July 2008

`DISENCHANTED

have you ever loved;
and lost somebody-

haha.so in love with disenchanted! :DD not the lyrics but rather the tune lahh.strum strum strum until got blister liao!! LOL.heng my nails never break.too short to break anyway :D but yeahh.THE SONG IS NICEE :DD haha.i cant play the bridge luhh.but oh well.ITS THE LOVE! (:

talked to quite a few people yesterday for like really really long.haha.didnt do any homework yesterday okk! was just chatting on msn and playing my guitar :D but yupp.thats probably one of the only days that i can relax ba.TODAY IS HOMEWORK TIME! thank you people whom i talked to yesterday! (: haha.learnt quite a few things yeahh :D shant tell you XD hahaha.but yeah.yesterday was generally a happy day! :D THANK YOU! (:

arghh.this week is totally flooded with homework can.must finish all luhh.or else im not allowed to go out at all :/

- english oral speech (i still dont know what to write :/)

- english endangered species speech (one paragraph can liao :D)

- chem pt (she didnt even go through can.how to do luh :/)

- ss pt (since the draft is still with her.i shall leave it until after hols :D)

- chi pt (must finish.due next week man :/)

- geog pt (should be okk ba :D)

- hist pt (should be okk ba :D)

- hist french revolution (he finish teaching liao.i havent even read abit of the notes :X)

- hist russian revolution (must start reading before he teaches mann)

- physics wks (just look through.lol)

- practice piano (esp scales man.i only have about a month.DIE)

- theory hw (abit only ba :D)

i think thats about it ba.quite alot lehh.haha.omgg.if i left anything out.somebody please tell me okk.lol.im abit de forgetful.esp when i sleep so much in class :D hmmm.shall start work after lunch :D haha.at least i hope to do that.in the meantime.i shall slack abit more! (: still feeling a little sleepy though.i woke up at 12 lehh :X hahaha.PIG :D

haha.guess my fairytale didnt have a happy ending afterall.but it ended on a happier note (: after such a long journey.i can finally close the book.though it was not what i dreamnt it to be.but at least it was an eye opener for me.it may not be the best.but it is definitely something that would always stay.somewhere in that very corner of my mind (: lol.oh well.when one fairytale ends.another begins right (: haha.but this time.i think ill take things slowly :D

throughout this journey of ups and downs.to the people who stood by me all the way.THANK YOU (: esp YOU whos reading this right now.thank YOU :D to the friends ive lost during this journey.im sorry.to the friends that ive gained.THANK YOU (: to the friends whom i quarrelled with.im sorry.to the friends who lent me a shoulder to cry on.to the friends whom i laughed with.THANK YOU (: to the friends i moodswinged on and pissed off.im sorry.to the friends who defended and protected me.to the friends who adviced me.THANK YOU (: to the friends who showered me with all the love and care.to the friends who encouraged me.THANK YOU (: to each and every single one of my friends.who helped me in one way or another.THANK YOU (:

most importantly.i want to thank God.for blessing me with the strength and courage to walk till the end of this journey.it was no doubt a painful one.God knew i couldnt handle it alone.thus.He blest me with the many angels to guide me along.and truly.i have grown (: physically; emotionally; spiritually (: goodbye to all the late nights spent crying.goodbye to all the tubs of chocolate ice-cream.haha.shall start eating more and gaining back all the weight that ive lost! and of course get rid of my eye bags! (: but most importantly.i thank you God (:

its one of the rare days that i write an amazing email okk (: haha.last paragraph of the chapter ba.just remember that i like the GREEN one; the RED one; the ORANGE one; the WHITE one okk (: the rest of the memories.just let it be.buried beneath the depths of the ocean (:

by letting you go;

im loving myself

im in complete (:

# ~~bitter~~ sweet memories #

1:09 PM; iloveu Y

13 July 2008

`WHISPERS

of love (:

lol.shall blog a short one ba (: i want to go and sleep ~~despite all the stupid hw i have~~ haha.ytd was how should i put it.HORRIBLE.lol.i woke up 1 hr late for tuition.then after math & chem tuition.i was totally braindead luhh.haha.thank you dakorkor! (: went home.plopped on the bed and slept all the way till dinner time.haha.thanks for the long call at night cheryl pok! :D hahaha.thank you luhh! i know was damn inconvenient but yeah.XIE XIE NI! :D

todays church was superb! :DD hahaha.havent laughed so much in a really long time (: bcoz i was kinda high luhh.wasnt that sleepy :D then was talking crap and all.haha.todays lesson was overcoming evil with good! then we were talking abt how horrible sch is.with all the backstabbing and all.then tirzah was like 'throw the cake at his face!' then i said 'throw banana skin infrnt of him & make sure he falls!' hahaha.my teacher was like 'oh mann.i need to resign liao' hahaha.damn funny luhh!oh well.thats the way life is.no one is perfect (: so yeahh.what to do.haha.shall never take things into our own hands! (: coz God is on our side.who can be against us :D

CHERYL POKKK :DD hahaha.i eat your after 8s im smiling le luhh! :DD hahaha.friday sentosa! :DD i shall push you into the water! XD must get more people first luhh! i need go throw balls! hahaha XD thanks pighead pokk! :D

thank you God for strengthening me (:

its too late.stop apologising coz i know you dont mean it.stop all the sweet talk coz it aint gonna work.if your gonna keep stabbing me in the back and acting all nice and all.thinking that im gonna be an idiot and cling on to you.you're so wrong.if you want to get back at me.dont drag my friends in.i would very much appreciate if you would stop spreading all the rumours and twisting all the facts.if you think you're so great.prove it.but right now.you are just so despicable.do you have any shame at all? you say all those stuff.then apologise the next day.say all those stuff and apologise again the next day.i have had enough of all your shit.maybe you should go and reflect.then you would realise why we are who we are today.why did things turn out this way and why are we treating each other like that.thanks for your offer but no thanks.like you said.my friends are way different from yours.because they genuinely care.since you think you are so popular.go get your own friends and leave me alone.i dont want to be your friend.neither do i want you to be mine.just live your own life and let me live mine.if you go overboard.dont blame me for doing it too.walk out of the shadows and just end it here alright.its over.

i know i must be doing something right (:

# secret #

3:37 PM; iloveu Y

11 July 2008

`DONT

try to say you're sorry;
coz its too late (:

today was yet another moody day.sorry girls for moodswinging.but i was really tired & emo.yeahh.haha.geog was.ermm.okk lahh.just that i was really dozing off.during recess amelia told me.'you were worst than me during geog loh! you were like this (bends head down and pretends to sleep)'

LOL.physics was horrible lahh.the experiment was so -.- haha.assembly was kinda fun.the drums were cool!haha.MUSIC IS THE LOVE (: english was omg.haha.coz i didnt prepare my speech.then she called my first.i was like 'cannot cannot!' LOL.heng can present after holidays (: math was sleeping time also.was really tired and emo.~~almost cried luh~~ lol.oh well (:

went for lunch.met my ex-chi teacher.shes way way better than my current one.was really tired so decided to pon physics ces :X had a really long chat with her again.everytime talk to her.sure breakdown de loh.cried like shit.hai.her words just seem to pierce right through your heart.i dont even have to say anything.and she can totally guess what im thinking.like what she said.im a strong girl (: so you all dont worry for me kk! i know what to do (:

after that was grooming session.not bad luhh.lol.people seem fascinated with my hair.hahaha.not in a good way though.oh well.aditi kept playing with it! haha.tied a new style today.to kelly what seems like a chicken backside.to cheryl.cool man!to aditi.looks like a really nice fish tail! LOL.I LOVE IT :D haha.as usual.i dont listen to what people tell me luh.i do things my way :D lol.yeahh.so i wont change my hairstyle if you dont like it.LOL.

so she was going on and on about our image and how we should dress.lol.im an autumn spring person.but.I STILL LOVE BLACK :DD haha.soft straight.i need to get rid of my eye bags! LOL.oh well.was laughing throughout the session with yujin luhh! so long never talk to her liao.damn funny sitting next to her :DD after that went subway with kelly.ate a brownie & m&m cookie (: emoed home.lol.I LOVE BLASTING MUSIC :DD ~~somehow the tears just stream down my face~~

shall go sleep soon.damn tired.tomorrow tuition whole day somemore.shall post my homework list tomorrow.thats like a hell load of them.arghh.but for now.A SONG (:

break you - marion raven

i was your girl

gave you my world

my everything

but you wouldn't see

i had your back

i backed you up

whatever i did

was never enough

just you ... you

that's all you ever thought about

you ... you

no one matters like you do

what goes around comes around

you should know by now

bet you never thought that i could break you

did you think that i would look the other way

yeah you had it all figured out

but tell me who's the one who's crying now

the palm of your hand

that was your plan

gave me no time

but now you want mine

it's all about take

you took too much

nothing inside

i'm all used up

come on

you ... you

nothing else matters like

you do

you know what i'm talkin' 'bout

don't you

what goes around comes around

you should know by now

bet you never thought that i could break you
did you think that i would look the other way
yeah you had it all figured out
but tell me who's the one who's crying now

all your one night stands

(should've thought about that)

says she's just a friend

(should've thought about that)

are you satisfied now

(should've thought about that)

cause you can't hold me down

not now

i wanna thank you 'cause now i'm free

i can breath again and i'm never going back to you

bet you never thought that i could break you

did you think that i would look the other way

yeah you had it all figured out

but tell me who's the one who's crying now

bet you never thought that i could break you

(bet you never thought that i could break you)

did you think that i would look the other way

yeah you had it all figured out

but tell me who's the one who's crying now

just f- off faker.you think you damn popular.damn hot.damn rich ahh.you're no better than just a piece of shit.wait a minute.i think im insulting shit (: get a life you loser.stop faking all the stupid lies.always saying one thing and doing another.ego ass.awww.are you gonna cry after we have all insulted you? haha.oh well.i know you know you suck.but i just gotta emphasise it.f- off sucker (:

coz shes everything;
everything im not (:

# fool #

11:20 PM; iloveu Y

10 July 2008

`NAIVE

ive learnt it the hard way;
to never let it go that far.

haha.today was a sleepy day! damn tired lah.finally one more day.just one last day.hang in there everyone! :D omgg.shall keep this short.its like.erm 2am liao.LOL.

came to school and totally slept.overslept so had to take public transport.haha.its been ages since i did that.met rachel on 190! was sleepin in class.vidya woke me up as usual.haha.no morning assembly coz raining :D pe was damn slack lah.kick ball.run.yeah.LOL.ss was slack as well.was just trying to keep awake luhh.so i was playing with my BLACK BANGLE :D hahaha.think i got her damn pissed.chinese was erm.damn hard to keep awake.i kept dozing off.then she call me answer question.heng can answer :DD

math was okk also luhh.just do logs lohh.go through worksheets.history was the best.he ended the lesson like 20 minutes early.then can totally do what we want.yayy.rs was damn damn slack luhh.kangjie.peixin.kelly.me.sat in the canteen and talked about books.about 203.about how blur and lost i looked.lol.i still rmb kangjies pic of me! the way she draws.damn cute luhh XD

chionged hm.was emoing on the way back.as usual.blasted my music damn freaking loudly.haha.im going deaf soon.teared abit lah.coz of this song.haha.shall post the song later at the bottom :D reached home.couldnt decide what to wear can.so as i was emoing.thought i would be emo babe lohh.hahaha.as in yeah.juz emo girl :D wanted to wear all black lohh.as in black top.black jeans.but my skinny jeans washing sia.

aiyo.thought and thought and thought.finally decide to wear like emo angel! LOL.more like zebra lahh can.hahaha.decided on black & white tank top + black halter + white short jacket + white skirt.LOL.oh well.not too bad luhh.discovered a new way to match my clothes (: yupp.so ate dinner liao.chiong to newton!met kelly and we followed a bunch of people there (:

choir concert was nice! lol.they sang grease lightning lohh.my p6 graduation song.man.I MISS SNGS.hai.haha.must go back soon! :D haha.was laughing with kelly.huiying.vidya luhh.teachers are so weird :X lol.after choir concert.went backstage to find people! LOL.then saw zhenling! hugged her like siao lohh.didnt wanna let go.haha.LOVEYA ZHENLING! stay strong! :D walked back to newton mrt with kelly.vidya.teri.passed by my tuition centre.went to 7 eleven! i got a pack of m&ms :DD haha.was laming all the way there lahh.was zi highing XD LOL.ya lohh.after that chiong back home lo.

SORRY PEOPLE!MY HP IS DAMN KUKU.hahaha.okk.i shall tell you all why :D before choir concert.was at newton mrt.after i called huiying.i received 10 missed calls from her earlier.1 sms from her.1 missed call and 1 sms from kelly.LOL lahh.i was like HUH?!?! then after choir concert.when i restarted my hp in the mrt.i received 9 missed calls from home and a few other smses.LOL.siao siao hp luhh.yupp.sorry! if tomorrow i dont reply you.its not i dao okk.its my hp abit de got problem :DD

oh ya.yongrong!its you say you dont read my blog de lohh.lol.ill try to shorten my posts next time luhh! :D

i cant hate you anymore - nick lachey

an empty room can be so deafening

the silence makes you wanna scream

it drives you crazy

i chased away the shadows of your name

and burn the picture in a frame

but it couldn't save me

and how could we quit something we never really tried

well you still can't tell me why

we built it up

to watch it fall

like we meant nothing at all

i gave and gave the best of me

but couldn't give you what you need

you walked away

you stole my life

just to find what your looking for

but no matter how i try

i can't hate you anymore

you're not the person who you used to be

the one i want who wanted me

and that's a shame but

there's only so many tears that you can cry

before it changes the life right from your eyes

and i can't go on that way

and so i'm letting go of everything we were

it doesn't mean it doesn't hurt

we built it up
to watch it fall
like we meant nothing at all
i gave and gave the best of me
but couldn't give you what you need
you walked away
you stole my life
just to find what your looking for
but no matter how i try
i can't hate you anymore
i can't hate you anymore

sometimes you hold so tight

it slips right through your hands

will i ever understand

we built it up

to watch it fall

like we meant nothing at all

i gave and gave the best of me

but couldn't give you what you need

you walked away

you stole my life

just to find what your looking for

but no matter how i try

i can't hate you anymore

lets take things slowly;

let nature take its course;

let fate decide for itself

its too late to apologise.

# delusions #

11:53 AM; iloveu Y

09 July 2008

`YOU

love me;
but you dont know;
who i am (:

today was horrible.not the worst day ever lah.but it was horrible.haha.BUT I SURVIVED MANN.all thanks to my girlfriends once again! :D lol.LOVEYA ALL! (:

came to school really really tired after chionging ss pt draft last night.raining somemore.so damn nice to sleep luhh.haha.so was really tired loh.no mood to high also.abit de sian.chatted with vidya outside classroom.SHE had to appear.lol.kena scolded by HER.so damn irritating luh.we are like so freaking tired after chionging your stupid pt and you have to scold us for keeping quiet.on and on went her lecture on time management and how she pushed all the blame totally onto ourselves.like we have 48hrs in a day like that :/ soon i fell asleep.SHE called srruthi to wake me up.lol.'YOU THINK NOW ITS RESTING TIME AHH?!' -silence- so diao.afterthat throw remote control on the table and attitude us.LOL.should have kept quiet the whole lesson luhh.then NO LESSON :DD but oh well.people spoke.so on went the boring lesson.

next lesson.went to borrow chi textbk.(translated) 'GRACE.(AHEM AHEM) YOUR PINAFORE ABIT TOO SHORT RIGHT.YOU ARE SEC THREE NOW.SO TALL ALREADY.SUDDENLY JUST SHOOT UP.MUST LENGTHEN YOUR PINAFORE RIGHT?!' '-.- ITS PUFFED UP COZ IM WEARING MY JACKET' 'ITS STILL TOO SHORT' '-.-' LOLL.oh well.on went the super boring lesson as well.haha.was trying really hard to keep awake lahh.FINALLY IT WAS RECESS.

went for recess.after that was philo.WHY MUST WE LEARN HOW TO DOUBT WHATEVER PEOPE SAY.WHY MUST WE BECOME SO SKEPTICAL.THEN LIKE THAT HOW TO TRUST ANYBODY.loll.yeahh.that was basically the gist of philo lesson.teaching us how to doubt things around us :/ chem was ok luhh.was just trying my best to absorb whatever she said.but it just goes in and out.lol.CHEM PT.man.

math was THE HELL.out of five questions right.i only did half of one question.FAIL LIKE SHIT CAN.heng only 10%.dont give a damn le luh.stupid math.i was like sneezing non-stop through out the whole of it.was trying my best not to cry lah.coz its like stare at the paper.BLANK.wth.wanted to sub in the values lohh.but i thought numbers so weird and big.so just erased the whole thingy off and passed up a blank shit.ARGH.ITS OVER.after that people started crying.was trying my best to hold back my tears lohh.hai.sucks when you swallow your tears back inside.

after that geog teacher came in.SHES THE ANGEL MAN.she saw that most of us was crying and said that we wouldnt be in the mood to do anything.she was so sensitive compared to HER.knowing that the pt test was HELL.she CANCELLED her lesson.allowing us to go home.so damn nice lahh (: everyone was rather glad i guess.SHES THE BEST! :D haha.if only all teachers could be this sensitive lah.

after that HUIYING came.couldnt hold back my tears anymore.haha.she calls my a fountain lohh.everytime i cry.its just like a running tap.haha.THANKS GIRL :D for comforting me and all.haha.CHERYL came along!she saw that i was so sad and all.haha.oh ya.SORRY for attituding you VIDYA! i didnt mean it.i just felt so shitty at that point in time.guess its like all accumulated.THANK YOU for during recess.knowing that i was sleepy.sad and all.THANKS GIRL! :D

then cheryl ask me go her class.she got something give me.followed her.on the way there.saw zhenling!haha.she knew something was wrong with me.so she gave me a big big hug.THANKS GIRL! :D so went into cheryls class.guess what she gave me.MY FAVOURITE AFTER EIGHT!i was just asking her to give me yesterday lohh.then she really gave it to me! :D when she held it out.i was like OMG.then the tears just totally streamed down my face.lol.hugged her then she was like anweiing me lohh.SORRY for bursting suddenly like that.i just so felt like crying.its all like stuffed and bottled up inside.haha.THANK YOU SO MUCH GIRL! :D shall go eat it later XD 'ROCKONZZZ' -quoted from CHERYL! XD

ate lunch with kelly.THANK YOU for hearing me rant & for lending me your wks :D ate one whole tub of chocolate ice-cream.haha.felt much better after that :D went for mep.damn sian.only like 5 people when we arrived.loads of people had stuff on lahh.we so felt like ponning the whole thingy.harmony was damn damn sian luhh.heng i finished the homework liao.no mep homework for next week!

LOL.went for break with huiying.ate pola snack.twisties and wang wang.the wang wang lou feng le lahh :/ not nice at all.lol.suddenly feel like eating LONG NECK MARSHMALLOW :D still remember sec 2 lohh.i used to eat it everyday :DD after break.went back for history.HE was damn funny can.so lame & gay & wtvv.hahaha.oh well.was laughing quite abit luhh.HE was totally over enthu about beethoven.BEETHOVEN RAWKS LAHH.but abit the exaggerated also he.lol.hes gonna give us a practice paper with answers.LOL.if i got time then do luh.if not yeah.haha :D

came home.ate dinner.slept for a while! :D haha.finally had some energy to go for piano lahh.pracked all my exam pieces one time each.no time to play scales.talked abit on msn.then need to chiong there liao.haha.theory was complicated man.she decided not to rush me this yr.so will probably take grade 8 next november instead of march ba.HENG AH.can slack abit :X loll.BUT BUTT.my practical.DAMN SHIT LEH.as in yeah.standard dropping grade by grade.i think this time no distinction liao.this year damn no time.practice dropped by like 3/4.lol.

oh well.a:1 beethoven piece.alamak ahh.hahaha.that piece damn up and down de lohh.this time it wasnt too bad lah.but my tempo was damn shaky.haha.need to prack lo.b:3.october piece! my fav & hardest of all piece.lol.my emo mood is working now.touch is almost correct liao! just need to bring out the bass more and have abit more expression :DD yeahh.FINALLY CAN.after so long.finally got the touch right liao.guess you have to be emo to play an emo piece (: lol.c:2.haha.that one ahh.must practice luhh and bring out dynamics and control tempo.lol.my worst piece of all.cant stand 20th century pieces :X lol.didnt play scales.PHEW.didnt touch them at all loh.

now im back home! when im supposed to be doing hw.im BLOGGIN.lol.damn late liao & im damn damn sleepy.so shall push hw again! shall do geog in sch tmr and eng tmr night.after i watch americas next top model.if mummy even lets me watch it :D have choir concert tomorrow night! i dont even know what to wear luhh.shall decide tomorrow afternoon.no energy left to think liao.haha.i think i shall forget about chinese too and go and sleep right after this post :X right after i eat my after 8 :DD

everyone around me is falling sick! guess its the stress luhh.im falling sick too.oh mann.cannot fall sickk.haha.GET WELL SOON EVERYBODY! TAKE LOADS OF CARE OKK! :D health is most important horr.school is just shit :X LOLL XD drink more water and get more rest! jiayou jiayou! 2 more days and its the WEEKENDS :D

prayers do work (: therefore God i pray that tommorow will be a better day.that you will bless each and everyone of us with the strength and wisdom to live tomorrow to its fullest.filled with bountiful amounts of happiness (:

hold me close;

hold me tight;

coz im never gonna let you;

outta my sight (:

# hope #

11:12 PM; iloveu Y

08 July 2008

`WAITING

for your call;
to call me back home (:

I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND (S) :D

hahaha.yeahh! GIRLFRIENDS ARE TOTALLY THE LOVE LUHH :DD hahaha.BOYFRIENDS INCLUDED! YESS CHERYLL.THATS U XD LOLL.today was simply HAPPY HAPPY :DD yupp yupp.it was BE YOURSELF DAY! XD being the total bimbo.how could i go to sch wearing sch u right.LOLL.so i went to sch in my 'I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND (S)' T + SKINNY JEANS! i wanted 2 wear my shorts luhhh.but abit too mini liao.l8ter kena book then i go rtc le lehh.hahaha.so cannot risk it luh :D

met cheryl in the toilet.hahaha.she was damn funny luhh.wearing this woolly pullover thingy.with her black guitar shirt and jeans.then i was telling her about my shirt.that it said I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND (S) so it DID NOT apply to HER XD hahaha.jkjk luhh! was also ranting to kelly & huiying in the morning.THANK YOU GIRLS! :D hahaha.i was totally letting off steam luhh.they were like CHILL CHILL.then i was BOOOMMMM.all the shit came out.hahaha.kelly was like 'you finally learnt the art of sarcasm yeah' LOL XD huiying was like 'now you can see the true colours le right' oh well.haha.THANK YOU CHERYL & YONGRONG FOR LETTING ME RANT AT YOU BOTH TOO LAST NIGHT!! cant believe i talked to you both for 11hrs ytd.omg lahh.break record liao.LOL.went for lessons.damn sian luhh! hist was slack.pe was height & weight.captains ball.45.5kg! 164 cm! LOL.i need to grow both upwards and sideways XD

geog was okk luhh.alot of copying to do.physics was sleeping time :X hahaha.i nv fail to fall asleep during physics sia.math was quite slack.half an hour only.coz she koped half our free block :D hahaha.through out the day.i was being damn lame luhh.srruthi was like GRACE UR A NUT CASE.then i started drawing nuts in a case on her paper.hahaha.she was like 'YOU BETTER GO HOME & SLEEP TODAY' damn cute luhh she.i was dozing off during physics.se went 'grace.dont do that.you are making me sleepy too' then after that she really dozed off luhh.LOLL.

lunch block was the funniest.sent huiying for support swimming thingy.then went with aditi go eat lunch.kelly joined us later.then i saw CHERYL + vivien + xueshan upstairs.i started waving like shit to them.hahaha.damn funny luhh.then we were like all waving.then everybody was like STARES.LOLL.after that.ka qiao cheryl to go arcade after school.we at first agreed de lohh.then after that decided not to coz so much wk.but i was like totally in the mood lohh.coz so high and all.HECK THE HW.hahaha.damn wanted to throw balls luhh.LOLL.so dragged other people along!! XD

rs was slack too.haha.i think our mentor damn funny luhhh.kangjie was asking me whether i was really sleepy.haha.as usual.i looked as though i was about to doze off.i chionged up for rs (coz i was late as usual) then after that there was no aircon in the class luhh.i was like SO HOT.was regretting i didnt wear my shorts luhhh.DAMN DAMN HOT.hahaha.peixin was hot too.oh ya.then after rs.went to rant to QIQI & ZHENLING! hahaha.THANKS GIRLS! :D they were like asking how i was and all that.IM OKK LOHH :D JUZ OVERDOSE OF SUGAR LUHH XD hahaha.got back my tiara from kelly.SORRY I DIDNT WANNA TAKE PIC LUHH.some other times kkayes girl! :DD

THE BEST PART ABOUT TODAY.ARCADE TIMEE!! :DD hahaha.gathered at the foyer after school.damn funny luhh! laughing and laughing like shit.ite went arcade with CHERYL ; MARIA ; GRACE ; CHENGJING ; VIVIEN ; XUESHAN ; ABIGAIL :DD trained to ps luhhh.vivien ; xueshan ; abigail went to cafe cartel to get stuff.grace & chengjing went to get fries.maria ; cheryl + me went to the arcade! hahaha.while we walked around deciding what to play.change tokens.blah blah.decided on bball first! afterall.my aim was to throw balls right.hahaha XD

first time.49.i was like jumping up and down.1 mre point lehhh!hahaha.then grace & chengjing came.played again.cheryl.me.grace & maria.I GT 150! hahaha.nt alot to you people luhh.BUT ALOT TO ME OKK.usually at most 96.the first time cheryl brought me to arcade.hahaha.then today 150! i totally collapsed on the floor luhhh.then grace was like 'MARIA THREW HER BALL UP THERE' hahaha.it was like stuck on top of the machine lahh.everyone burst out laughing.then chengjing & abigail got caught for wearing sch u.wahlao.they damn strict lehh.so ite xueshan ; vivien ; abigail went shopping.chengjing went home.aiyo.haha.oh well.it became a guitar outing! LOL.

went to play racing car next! damn funny luhhh.first time.maria & i put in coin liao.grace & cheryl slowww.so only both of us play.she wonn luhh.so zai! overtake me lehhh.hahaha.then 2nd time.we all play tgt.yayy!! i won.hahaha.grace was like 1 lap behind.oh well.that wasnt the point.the point was.WE HAD LOADS OF FUN.WAS LAUGHIN LIKE SIAO LAHH.hahaha.next up was damn funny luhh.LITERALLY THROW BALLS.its called snowballs luhh.new machine.i was like 'ehh cheryl! lets go play that! throw balls de lehh!' hahaha.we both started laughing like shit again.so we all ended up throwing balls at the most random things.PRISONERS.MICE.MOSQUITOES.HEARTS loads luhh.loll.grace was like 'JUST THROW ALL YOUR BALLS LUHH' hahahaha.oh mann.damn fun with them lahh.

changing money time.hahaha.maria & grace were trying to make cheryl treat them.then maria was telling us how her bros sch has a senior treat junior day & vice versa.hahaha.muz fix a date soon luhh! loll.went to play super mario racing cars! LOL.i got last luhh.hahaha.all of them ram into me.then use the funny items thingy thingy.i was like huh huhh.then the next minute i see my character going round and round in circles.loll.laughed damn alot lahh.wanted to play para para but the machines down.LOL.so rare can play when so few people around.then the thingy down.aiyo.went to play the THROW BALLS THINGY AGAIN.hahaha.damn funny luhh.cheryl & i were like.muz sit & stand by couples! cannot break the couples apart! hahaha.throw until our hands damn pain luhh.cheryl & i played one last game of bball.coz grace & maria say they broke liao.LOL.164! i was like jumping up and down luhh.hahaha.after that train home lo!

went home.ate dinner.plonked myself on the sofa and slept liao.lol.parents woke me up and scolded me like shit lahh.oh well.I NEED TO CHIONG SS PT DRAFT & COLLATE MY MATH WKS BY TONIGHT.i gave up pracking the piano.maybe if i havent collapsed yet.then prack scales l8ter ba.head damn giddy now.lol.

THANK YOU GIRLS ~~(guys)~~ FOR SUCH A WONDERFUL TIME TODAY! YOU ALL AMDE ME A REALLY REALLY HAPPY GIRL! was damn high luhh.the bad news is.IM LOSING MY VOICE :/ and my right leg really hurts.dont know why.over stretched it maybe? but oh well.I WOULD LIKE TO THANK ALL MY GIRLFRIENDS FOR BEING MY REALLY WONDERFUL DARLINGS! :DD THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE FOR ME YEAH!

like huiying says.only time can tests relationships.only then do you know who to cherish and who to let go (: through all these.ive finally seen who really cares for me.and i really thank every single one of you for that little bit of care! :D it really means alot to me (: i will treasure all the friendships we have forged over the years and never will i be a fool again (: LOVEYA ALL LOADS! :D

i would like to say special thanks to KING KELLY! for that really sweet little card of yours.you totally brightened my entire day.i was really very surprised lohh.thank you for being such a great listener too! we shall have more outings together okk! stay strong and hang in there girl! ill be right here if you need someone to talk to (: we will get through this together! jiayou jiayou! :D LOVES!

haha.i know i have been repeating this over and over again.but yeah! I LOVE ALL OF YOU OUT THERE WHO LOVE & CARE FOR ME OKK! :D haha.although i dont say it everyday.and sometimes when i moodswing.i often neglect and dao all of you.worst still.i just totally blow at all of you.im really sorry for all of that.but i really treasure all the friendships we have okk! now that we are caught up with our school work and everything.just remember that each of us still care for each other! oh mann.must really use the holidays to catch up with all of you.lets all go chill out one day! XD FRIENDS FOREVER LOVE! :D

thank you God for sending me these wonderful guardian angels to watch over me day and night (:

happiness is like a butterfly;

the more you chase it;

the more it will elude you.

but if you turn your attention;

to the other beautiful things around you;

it will come and softly sit on your shoulder (:

BEST FRIENDS <3

its a promise; not a label (:

we were strangers;

starting out on a journey;

never dreaming;

what we had to go through;

thanks for the memories (:

# fairytales #

11:09 PM; iloveu Y

06 July 2008

`LOVE

is meant to be happy (:

haha.quoted from huiying and yongrong.shall type in full sentences for this post.i just feel like it :D haha.this post is gonna be quite a long one i think.lol.shall rush through it coz i have LOADS.really really LOADS of stuff to do.

THANK YOU :D

all who came to support REVERBERE'08!! :D hahaha.its totally THE LOVE :DD was damn scared for entertainer lohh.pracked like siao.although everyone was pretty entertained by the party stuff and all.but the playing techniques and musicality was like what valerie said.CANNOT MAKE IT.lol.but basically the concert was a success :DD hahaha.instructor was really nice lohh.he kept telling me not to worry.to be steady.just do your best and most importantly.enjoy the music.i was gonna cry le lohh.haha.THANK YOU! (although you most likely wont see it) hahaha.but really lohh.hes the BEST instructor ever! :DD sold out concert but some people last minute cannot make it loh.aiyo.but yeahh.it was really fun! better than i thought it would be.had fun running around.putting make-up.changing damn fast.chionging here chionging there.hahaha.but i dont like the scolding part luh :D so yupp.THANK YOU EVERYONE! :DD FOR BEING THERE! FOR THE FLOWERS & PRESENTS! FOR THE ENCOURAGEMENTS! FOR THE HUGS! FOR ALL THE FUN AND LAUGHTER! FOR EVERYTHING! :DD

I LOVE YOU! :D

DADDY & MUMMY & JOYCE & ASHLEY! thank you for always being by my side and supporting me.i know ive been rather bad tempered.mean.stupid.these few days.haha.sorry! thanks for coming for guitar concert and getting me flowers! :D thanks for all the encouragements and advice!thanks for being the pillars of strength!lol.thanks for everything! LOVEYA! :D

HUIYING! haha.thank you girl for always being there for me! thanks for your really pretty balloon and really cute piggie! :DD sorry for all the pmsing these few days! thanks for being ever so patient and tolerant with me! haha.thanks for all the long talks at macs.in school.all the smses and calls.ims and skype talks :D jiayou okk! i will always be here for you! always remember that.GOD will make a way.when there seems to be no way.He works in ways we cannot see.He

will make a way for me.He will be my guide.hold me closely to His side.for love and strength with each new day.He will make a way.He will make a way (: yupp.so keep smiling girl! shine as bright as the brighest star! take loads of care! LOVEYA! :D

CHERYL! thank you homo boyfriend!! :D hahaha.thank you for all the encouragements yeahh! for providing me with all the food yesterday :D hahaha.I LOVE M&Ms! thank you for running around with me.pei me here pei me there.help me carry this.help me carry that :D thank you for the hugs and for all the fun and laughter! yayy! you promised me will bring me go arcade de horr.dont forget ahh.must save up liao! I STILL HATE UR LIGHTER XD thanks for letting me always fa xie on you.haha.sorry for being so vulgar these few days.i will cut down de! i think i also owe you an explanation right.sorry for not telling it to you earlier! ill try not to do it again lahh.haha.afterall violence doesnt solve the problem right (: ill try to be less violent! hahaha.later one day end up in gang fight.need you to dang wo XD loll.yupp.thank you HUNK :DD hahaha.LOVEYA! :D

KELLY! thank you for being so protective of me! for all the advice and analysations! thanks for defending me in all the stupid situations! haha.its okk le lahh.im strong okk! i know you are way stronger than me.so yupp.jiayou jiayou! if i can do it.YOU CAN TOO! :DD yeahh! we can make it through together! like you said.when we look back.we will be laughing at how stupid we once were.lol.I WANT MY RETAIL THERAPY THINGY SOON AHH! :D take care! we can do all things in Gods strength (: LOVEYA! :D

ZHENLING! thank you for all the encouragements girl! your words of wisdom ahh.never fail to make me cry okk! well done for guitar concert yesterday! great job! thanks for helping me to improve my guitar playing.by telling me what to do.and all the encouragements and all! (: you said you will really really support me.if i really really do it de ahhh.haha.IM REALLY REALLY DOING IT NOW! i know you all are happy for me! and im a happy girl too! :DD dont so stress ok!! you can do it girl! all the best for hp'09! ill always be here if you need someone to talk to! like how you always say to me (: haha.hang in there and stay strong! LOVEYA! :D

VIDYA! thank you for all the advice and all! hahaha.sorry i kinda piss you off.lol.im finally doing it le! so you can stop getting pissed at it! yeahh! lol.dont give up on yourself lahh.schools just a sucky thingy.but it depends on your perspective too! although now we cant slack and laugh out loud in class.sitting right in front must pay attention and all.being eyed by all the teachers.but we are all in this together! lol.just ignore all the horrible stuff lahh.stay happy like you tell me! show me your winning smile! (: LOVEYA! :D

QIQI! thank you girl for all the encouragements! hahaha.i know you gave up on me le luhh.but yupp.this time im really really really really gonna do it kk! :D thank you for the flowers! really pretty :D lol.thank you for always checking up on me.whether im emo or not.asking how i am and all :D i miss taking 132 back with you okk! must take again together someday! haha.all the best for hp'09! jiayou jiayou! you dont so stress also okk! keep smiling! LOVEYA! :D

WENYAN! entertainer girl! :D hahaha.thank you for all the encouragements yeah! you are really a strong girl man.so sick yesterday still can play so well.well done girl! :D jiayou jiayou for all the school hw! GET WELL SOON! dont mug so hard luhh.must take care of yourself too! LOVEYA! :D

RACHEL! thank you for all your encouragments! thanks for the flowers yesterday too! :DD ehhh.you still owe me an outing okk! since sec 1 lehh. you and zhenling ahh.hahaha.must drag you both out during nov/dec holidays! :D jiayou jiayou for everything & take care! LOVEYA! :D

YVONNE! thank you for your really lovely sms! sorry i only saw it so late :X thank you for your encouragements! aiyo.also so long never take 132 with you liao.must take someday okk! haha.bumping into you lesser and lesser too.must take care kkayes! LOVEYA! :D

TIRZAH! thank you for always being so bubbly and caring! haha.i always never being my pen during church then always must ask from you.lol.thanks for always asking how i am! haha.i am always like so sleepy and all.lol.you take care yeah! LOVEYA! :D

GRACE & MARIA! the bimb and the sock! :D hahaha.thanks for being such lovely juniors! yeahh.graces always seem to be bimbs.i dont deny being one too :DD lol.damn funny luh.the way you all were like chionging during make-up.haha.thanks for the encouragements & hugs! must have more lunches together okk! :DD lol.damn fun laming around with all of you! jiayou jiayou for school! take care & sleep more horr.haha.LOVEYA! :D

CELESTINE & SHIYIN! thank you for being such lovely seniors! :D haha.you both were like so worried about me when your knew about it.thanks for all the care and concern! :D im okk now! you both also dont emo so much kk! haha.so fun to slack in the toilets.have lunch together.watch movies together.lol.must have a girls night out together okk! take loads of care! LOVEYA! :D

MABEL & YUJIN! my ex-rs group! miss doing rs with you all lohh.hahaha.every weekend go to different libraries.talking about orgami and all.although we always end up digressing.hahaha.we must go out soon okk! okk.maybe at the end-of-the-year.lol.our neoprints together! XD anyways.thank you for always asking how i am! everytime i see your in schh.haha.i know i still look like the super sleepy.blur blur.emo grace :D yeahh! loll.jiayou jiayou for everything! LOVEYA! :D

KANGJIE & PEIXIN! my current rs group! hahaha.i know im the blurest of the group.but thanks for always helping me along with all the stuff! with this with that.lol.glad rs is kinda slack now :DD haha.jiayou jiayou for the loads of hw that we all have.lol.LOVEYA! :D

GUITAR BATCH'09! yayy! must have a batch piece next year okk! this year was kinda rush.so we shall have it next year! great job for concert yesterday! :D everybody looked so pretty pretty.haha.thanks for all the encouragements! the hugs and all! :D LOVEYA! :D

GUITAR SENIORS! miss you all so much lohh! thank you for all the encouragments! yeahh.ill try to pull my grades up! hahaha.i know yingjie is very concerned about that issue XD ill get tuition from you soon! lol.they were saying how when you meet guyz in rjc.you would think that its the end of the world.LOL.rgs is the best 4 years for your life.hahaha.dont know luhh.but yupp.THANK YOU SO MUCH! LOVEYA! :D

GUITAR JUNIORS! juniors are damn cute lohhh.hahaha.thank you so much! i was running here running there.they were like helping me to keep my balloons.my flowers :D thank you for the encouragements! they really helped alot alot! i was so scared lohh.they were there encouraging me.helping me to cool down.lol.thank you! LOVEYA! :D

YONGRONG! thank you boy for always being there! yess yess.i know im that stupid foolish girl.BUT BUTT.that was the past okk!ive become smarter! XD loll.yupp.so you cant stop worrying liao.thanks for all the laughter.the jokes.the encouragements.the songs.EVERYTHING! :D dont emo so much yeah! haha.final decision is up to you! be confident kkayes! jiayou jiayou! LOVEYA! :D

HSIANG YEH! hahaha.thank you for all the sleepless nights yeahh! i realised horr.everytime i start talking to you.i wont be able to sleep until chao late de lohh.hahaha.but nevertheless.you will always make the conversation damn funny! LOL.thanks for all the advice yeah! and thanks for bringing back all the nice nice memories! you still owe me a bedtime story horr! XD loll.take care & dont stress so much! LOVEYA! :D

JUOWI! thank you korkor for everything! hahaha.thanks for all the calls and encouragments! sorry i always ka qiao you so late at night :X loll.i know i still owe you an outing.hahaha.soon kkayes! dont so stress in school yeah! cheer up kkayes! must must must must sleep more! hahaha.take care! LOVEYA! :D

wow.that was alot alot.hahaha.hope that small little paragraph brightened each of your days! :D keep smiling yeah! oh ya! MY HP KENA CONFISCATED.yupp.sorry dears.cannot sms you all.so yupp.dont sms me yeah! i dont want to be daoing anybody.lol.sorry sorry!in the meantime.if you all emoing or really urgently need to talk to me.haha.can call my house! or joyce or my daddys hp :D yupp.take care kkayes! :DD LOVEYA ALL LOADS & LOADS! :D

mann.there is so much so much homework.lets try listing out what i have to complete tmr.

- practise piano

- physics wks

- ss pt draft

- eng speech

- chi pt

- geog wks

- ~~math assignment~~

- ~~math wks~~

yupp.im a stronger girl now and i am moving on! thank you all who stood by me through this really really long and tough journey.haha.im a HAPPY girl thanks to all of you! i know you all are happy for me too! (: thanks for everything.from the bottom of my heart.i sincerly thank you.each and everyone of you (: i know i have been rather caught up with all the shit that i didnt really talk much with you all then you all complain i never start convos and all.so yupp.i am gonna start caring more! hahaha.that includes starting convos okk! and to control all my moodswings and to be more sensitive! the improvements may not be really great.but ill try my very best! i promise (:

churh today was really good.haha.taught us about how to control our anger and to destroy the seed of jealousy before it buds.haha.to have faith in GOD! its the most important thing.guess i havent been spending much time on that.especially now that there is so much work and all.hai.shall work on that (: i really thank God for helping me through this very difficult stage of my life.thank you for sending wonderful angels who stood by my side all the way (: with Your strength.ill be able to overcome all evil with goodness.thank you God for the blessings that you have showered upon me (:

Have mercy on me, O God,

have mercy on me,

for in you my soul takes refuge.

I will take refuge in the shadow of your wings

until the disaster has passed.

I cry out to God Most High, to God,

who fulfills his purpose for me.

He sends from heaven and saves me,

rebuking those who hotly pursue me.

God sends His love and His faithfulness.

- Psalms 57: 1-3

thanks yongrong for 'breathless'! haha.yeahh.this is specially in BLUE okk :DD hahaha.thank you! (:

yupp.shall end this post soon.haha.basically guitar concert wasnt as good as last year lah (: i hope next year will be better! this year was so slack and all.then last minute chiong everything.haha.hope we get GWH next year! last year liao.must perform our very best! :D

haha.half the year is over liao.seems pretty fast.soon it will be the nov/dec holidays! lol.tomorrow is chionging homework day.mann.next week.whole week holiday also.but its like CHIONGING PTs & MUGGIN week.hahaha.oh well.thats life right.just gotta live with it! :D

to the FAKER-

look here kid.grow up.you are the one who needs to grow up.stop telling others what to do when you yourself dont do it.you are the immature one.look at yourself before you comment on others can.you arent that good you know.so stop pretending and faking all those lies.its so damn obvious yet you still come and try to sweet talk me with all that bullshit.it doesnt work anymore.stop being so ego and 'high class'.your criticisms are shit.coz i think you are more likely to be talking about yourself.flirtatious jerk.

if our love was a fairytale;

i would charge in and rescue you;

on a yacht baby we would sail;

to an island where we say i do

# breathless #

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